This is me distracting you guys with Klaroline short stories while I figure out the plots for my longer stories :-)

Please enjoy :-)

To Feel - Part 1

"He said what?!"

"Care-"

"No, no, no, no, no," I hold up a hand, signaling for Elena to stop. "Tell me exactly what you heard."

And Elena seems to pick up on my don't-freaking-try-to-calm-me-down-and-just-give-it-to-me-straight tone because she sighs, closes her eyes momentarily and drops her head before speaking.

"Kai told Bonnie that he overheard Tyler in the locker room before last Friday's football game talking to Connor about how 'Caroline is nice and all, but she isn't giving it up' and that Vicky Donovan had propositioned him at a party the week before, and he was dying to 'get some action'." She uses air quotes and everything.

I could only balk at my best friend.

"And that's why he broke up with me? Seriously?"

"What did he tell you when he broke up with you?"

I think back to the text he had sent me Sunday night. "He said that he just wasn't feelin' it anymore, and that we deserved better for each other."

"Care, in all honestly, Tyler Lockwood is a total jerk. And to an extent, he was right – you definitely deserve better than him."

I'm grateful that Elena is trying to cheer me up, but I just really can't wrap my head around the situation. "I don't get it, 'Lena. We only dated for a month! And he knew that I was a virgin going into the relationship- if all he wanted was sex, then why did he stay with me?"

"I guess he thought that you would do it with him after you had been dating for a while."

"Did he really think that a month was a while?"

"Maybe he thought he could change your mind?"

I think back to our one-month relationship. Everything had been fine at the beginning- dates at the Grille and going to the movies every once in a while. Then we started going to parties together, hanging out after football games. Our physical relationship had been fine- we made out pretty regularly. Actually…

"Things did get a little weird after he told me that he loved me."

"He told you that he loved you?!" Elena exclaimed.

I shrug. "Yeah, like two weeks ago or something."

"Did you say it back?"

I shake my head. "No. I wasn't sure if I loved him, so I didn't want to say it back without meaning it."

Elena lets out a relieved breath. "Okay, I was about to say."

I nod, totally getting what she means. Loving someone is a serious thing.

"So, is that what all guys expect out of a high school relationship? Sex?" I ask, feeling naïve. "I mean, I had heard of people hooking up, but I thought those were just like the juniors and seniors. We're just sophomores."

Elena shrugs. "I don't know. Matt and I have been dating for a year, and the farthest we've gotten is heavy make outs and touching over clothes."

"He hasn't pressured you into it or anything?"

She shakes her head. "No. We agreed that we wouldn't do anything until we were both ready. Plus, if we wanted to, we really wouldn't be able to. Like- where would we? My parents or Jeremy are always home, and I don't really feel comfortable at his house where his mom and Vicky just roam freely. They've walked in on us making out before, I would be so embarrassed if they saw us doing something more."

"I get you," I nod, totally understanding.

We were just finishing up our post practice stretches, so I stand up and brush the grass off my shorts. Although talking to Elena made me feel a little better, and a little less embarrassed, I can't help but feeling inadequate.

I had heard about couples having sex, but I just hadn't realized how true it was. I thought I would have at least another year to take that step, but apparently that phase of my life was suppose to be happening now.

Vicky was a freshman, for Christ sakes! If anything, I was behind!

"Elena," I started as I helped her up from her position on the ground.

"Yeah?"

"I need to lose my virginity."

Gimme some feedback and I'll giveya more to read ;-) Tomorrow ;-)