I See You

Chapter 21

"Relax, miss Rollins. Your baby is fine. Actually she's more than fine. Her breathing has improved tremendously so she has been moved to the regular peds unit. Her breathing tube was just removed and she's doing fine without it. If she keeps this up and there are no complications she should be able to go home in a few days. She's one floor up in the nursery, room 203."

Amanda ran to the elevator, Liv struggling to keep up wih Noah bouncing around in her arms. They made it to the second floor and ran to the big glass window of room 203. Amanda instantly spotted her newborn and tears flooded her vision. She was alive, breathing fine and looking just perfect. A nurse came to the window and gestured for them to come inside.

"Would you like to hold your baby, miss Rollins?" she asked with a smile, knowing that the blonde woman was dying to cradle her in her arms for the first time.

Amanda swallowed and nodded as the nurse went to pick up the little bundle. The blonde sat down on the sofa that was placed in a corner to the side and Liv joined her immediately with a curious Noah. When her baby was placed in her arms she couldn't hold her tears back any longer and she gasped as she felt the light weight in her embrace. She gurgled slightly, eyes still closed and her tiny hands were balled up into small fists.

Amanda nuzzled her nose into her baby's soft locks and inhaled her scent, overwhelmed by all sorts of emotions. "Hi baby. I'm your mama."

"She's beautiful, Amanda. So so beautiful." Liv had a hard time controlling her tears as well as the blonde. Noah squirmed in her lap, trying to get a glimps of the newborn.

Amanda giggled and positioned herself so that the boy could get a proper look. "Noah, this is my baby girl," she glanced nervously at Olivia before continuing, "her name is Jessie Olivia Rollins." then she looked down at her baby, "Jessie, meet your big brother Noah."

A small sob made Amanda look up and into Liv's teary eyes. The brunette was beyond words and could not speak or even open her mouth, afraid of breaking down completely. She just enveloped the mother and baby in a strong hug to show her the gratitude and love she felt in that very moment. She was honored that Amanda had named her baby after her. It made her feel so special and loved.

When they broke apart, Liv kissed her lightly on the lips. "Thank you." she said in a shaky voice, silent tears rolling down her cheeks.

"Would you like to hold her?" the blonde asked tentatively shifting the baby weight. Noah climbed over into Amanda's waiting arms as she handed over Jessie to Olivia.

Liv gasped at the feeling of holding something so precious and small. "She's so tiny. So light." she placed a feather light kiss on the baby's head, feeling the softness and the warmth of her skin. "Hi there, Jessie. I'm Olivia. It's a pleasure to finally meet you, little one." she whispered, enjoying the intense and private moment of holding an innocent little life in her hands.

"Baby?" Noah finally spoke up, his face lighting up in a huge grin.

The two women laughed and cried at the same time. "Yeah," Olivia said, "it's Amanda's baby. Isn't she beautiful?"

"Play?" he asked, raising his eyebrows, his eyes shining with anticipation and joy.

Amanda wiped at her tears. "She's too small to play, baby boy. When she gets a bit older you can play all you want but, for now, she needs you to be the best big brother ever and look out for her okay? She's gonna need all our help so she can get better and stronger so she can go home. Can you do that?"

The little boy nodded in determination, never taking his eyes off of his baby sister.

A few weeks passed. Jessie was doing really well but she was still very small. Amanda didn't worry too much about it since the doctor said it was completely normal and to be expected. She had taken two months of maternity leave and had five weeks left. The days before Jessie was due back from the hospital had been spent frantically shopping for baby stuff. Clothes, toys, a cot, stroller, baby monitor, diapers and every accessory you could possibly imagine.

Liv had been a great help, offering Amanda some of her old stuff that Noah was too big or old for. Jessie was only about a week old so toys were not on the agenda at the moment but the blonde wanted to be prepared and didn't want her little girl to be in need of anything. Growing up, Amanda never had any toys or never got new clothes and she didn't want that for her own daughter.

The two women had spent a lot of time together. Getting to know each other better over the past few weeks. Amanda was still not as open about her past as Liv was but she was getting there, step by step and Liv didn't rush her into anyhing she wasn't ready for.

Everyone at the precinct were happy for the two. Shocked when they first came out as a couple, yes, but still very pleased for the two female detectives. Amanda couldn't remember the last time she had been in such a peacefull state of mind. Yes, she did worry about Jessie getting sick, fall and hurt herself or even stop breathing but that was only natural for a mother, Liv had assured her.

They had spent countless hours having sex, enjoying each other's bodies, learning their likes and dislikes. It was never a dull moment between the two and that had a lot to do with Jessie and Noah as well. They were like two rays of sunshine in the detective's life's and they wouldn't change it for the world. Life was good. Life was contentious and surprisingly light for once. Amanda was just waiting for the good things to end, because they always do, but Liv reassured her, saying that things didn't have to end as long as they work hard on it together, keeping everything real and alive.

That made the blonde feel better. Liv always knew how to make her feel better. Always knew what she was thinking or what she was about to do or say. It was quite scary at first but with time Amanda got use to it and found it rather calming and comforting.

They both had talked about moving in together but it was too soon. Maybe in a few months time when things had settled down a bit more.

Amanda's sister Kim had called her, trying to make her see things from her perspective and indirectly blamed Amanda for her thoughtless and stupid decisions that made her end up in prison. Two days later Amanda's mum rang, trying to talk sense into her older daughter but Amanda was having none of it. They had made their choice. They had sided against her, walked away and wanted nothing more to do with her. Clearly that wasn't the case now, since they kept calling her, but Amanda stayed strong and kept them at a distance. She would never let them into her life again, never letting them get close to her baby and would never get Olivia involved in her private fucked up mess, even though the brunette said she didn't mind.

As they layed together in Olivia's bed, arms and legs tangled, Amanda propped herself up on one elbow, looking down into the older woman's soft brown eyes. "I love you." she whispered and lovingly placed a gentle kiss on her plump lips.

Olivia smiled and brushed blonde hair away from her face and stroked her cheek gently. "I love you too, sweetheart. So so much."

Again, they made love until they both fell back onto the matress, exhausted from pure bliss, body's glistening with sweat, breaths ragged and hearts pumping. Life was good.

The End

Author's note,

I would like to thank everyone for the awesome reviews I've received on this story. I'm a sucker for happy endings and I didn't want to take things further and spoil their peace and future together. I'm also a sucker for Olivia/Amanda shipping and you will definitely see more of them in my fandom. Thank you for reading, following and taking your time to leave a comment or a review. These two ladies are so beautiful and inspiring and it's so honourable that we are allowed to borrow these characters now and then and twist things around a little bit. (or a lot) Thank you Dick Wolf for creating these amazing people and personalities.

All my love.