Hey guys. Been a while since I last updated this, huh? Sorry about that, I kinda didn't have the motivation for this and I didn't even manage to get my throughts together to come up with an idea... But now I do and I'm so relieved I got this chapter done. Anyway, I hope you'll like this. Enjoy.
Warning: has some language.
Disclaimer: I own nothing cause if I have had we would have seen many Razaya kisses.
The sun was slowly rising, its warm rays falling across the small clearing. Aya's eyes fluttered open and she groaned as she tried to adjust her eyes to the light. Despite doing that for the last couple of days, she had not become accustomed to it yet. She had taken to sleeping outside during the night, it made her calm and helped her relax and after so much time spent in the Interceptor, a change was more than welcomed. And she was willing to take any chance she had to controlling herself better and if that meant that she had to deal with waking up at the sunrise with the rays washing over her then so be it. Not that she was complaining... It was a nice improvment compared to having to live on a ship in the middle of nowhere...
Sighing, Aya sat up and stretched out, visibly enjoying the freedom she had received. She liked the it, liked the serenity she had and was slowly growing used to that kind of peace. It felt a bit odd, given that she wielded a red ring but she couldn't help but appreciate the sudden peace that had come with their visit on Odym. Her gaze moved to her ring and she pressed her lips together in a flat line. It had always felt like a burden to her but now she would barely aknowledge its presence. Not that she was complaining, she felt better without having to worry about lashing out every time she was frustrated...
Her train of thoughts was interrupted by the sound of footsteps and her pointed ears twitched but she made no movement. She just sat there and continued listening though she didn't feel in danger at all. She just knew someone was coming her way - and she had a hunch about who that someone might be... A small, mischievious smile pulled at the corners of her lips and she held back a chuckle. She still had to get back at him for his part in the mess she was in.
"Good morning, Green Lantern." She said as he stepped out into the clearing and approached her. She pulled her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs, her eyes continuing to gaze off at the sunset though she was focused on him.
"Morning, Aya." Hal answered and sat down next to her, playfully nudging her shoulder with his and he raised an eyebrow when he saw her smiling out of the corner of his eye. "What's got you in such a good mood?"
She shrugged. "The view. The peace. So sort of everything that is surrounding me." She closed her eyes and inhaled the warm air of the morning. She laid herself back down on the soft grass and smiled slightly as she felt the warmth of the sunlight on her skin. Her silver hair was fanned around her face like a halo and was practically glowing under the morning light.
"Did you talk to him?" Hal asked and follosed her example, resting his hands behind his head, keeping his eyes opened and looking up at the sky.
"No, not yet." She admitted slowly. "I have yet to find the right moment to but... I seem unable to bring myself to talk to him about something of this importance." She chose her words carefully and sighed, a million thoughts swirling through her mind speedily.
"You know, we have a saying back on Earth. 'Don't gamble on the future, act now, without delay.' I think you should think more about acting on your thoughts instead of waiting so long."
Snorting, Aya visibly rolled her eyes beneath her eyelids. "We have a saying too on Vorga. Mind your own goddamn business!" She snapped and pressed her lips together in a thin line as she opened her eyes and glared at the human besides her. "And I do think that you should act on it more instead of getting involved in other people's business." She added with a knowing smirk.
"Wh-what do you mean?" He stammered and awkwardly cleared his throat.
"Oh you know exactly what I mean, Jordan!" She hissed and stood up abruptly, crossing her arms over her chest and glaring down at the Earthling. "And next time, I would highly appreciate it if you did not interfere in whatever personal trouble me and Razer get ourselves implied in! Have I made myself clear?" Her eyes narrowed on him as she almost growled the words and she could feel a spark of anger rising within her. Not now... She thought and tried to calm herself now. She needed to be calm for this.
"I... I really don't know what you're talking about." Hal tried defending herself and stood up as well, looking down at her anf hoping she wouldn't see through his lie.
She scoffed and shook her head. "I do hope you are not expecting me to buy that. I heard you, Jordan! You had told him to try and make me jealous by flirting with a random woman, had you not?" She had started tapping her foot against the ground and by her expression he could understood he could not lie to her.
"Well... yeah. Kinda. I was just trying to help you both, you know."
"And how has that helped us?" She tilted her head to the side, faking curiousity. "Because I seriously do not see any king of improvment between us and I doubt I can be wrong about that. So tell me, how have you helped us?" Her nails were digging in the material of her uniform and out of the corner of her eye she noticed her ring glowing faintly but she decidedly ignored it. She could deal with it later.
"I uhh..." He shrugged nervously. "It was supposed to help. To bring you closer."
She raised one eyebrow and a small sigh escaped her. "It certaintly did not go as you planned. Notice that it only drove us further apart." There was sadness in her voice and tears stung her eyes but she blinked them away. It was not the right moment to show emotions that powerful.
He absentmindedly rubbed the back of his neck and gave her a sheepish smile. "It was supposed to work."
"On your planet, maybe. Here, obviously not." Her tone became more threatening and she lowered her voice, almost growling, "I suggest you do not interfere with me in any way from now on because if you do..." She traied of but the fierce determination in her eyes and the way she was snarling at him made him understand what she meant.
"Understood." He grumbled. "But if you need anything, I'll be glad to help."
Rolling her eyes and huffing, Aya turned away from the Green Lantern and started walking in the direction of the Blue Lanterns main square. "Oh, and you better not tell him about what we have talked about." She warned over her shoulder, not haltering her steps. Though she was annoyed he had done that, she still appreciated that he had tried to help her with something that important. But that didn't change the fact that she didn't want him continue to involve himself in her personal life. She could deal with her problems by herself... Or at least that's what she was hoping.
Finding Razer proved itself to be a more difficult task than she had anticipated. While it was true that he didn't have to give her a minutely report on his whereabouts, she did wish he would have at least let her know where the hell he was. She found it unsurprisingly hard for her to keep her calm anymore after spending the whole morning to search for him while he hadn't even bothered to say more than 'hello' to her over the last several days. She was growing irrirated but she knew that there was nothing she could do about that.
This is his life. He does not have to tell me where he is going, she thought but she was well aware of the fact that not even she could believe it. She had hoped he could be easier to find but now she wasn't too sure about that anymore.
The sound of her footsteps was echoing in the empty corridors of the vessel. She had decided to try her luck in the Interceptor as well but knowing her luck over the past hours she didn't even dare to hope he would be there. It felt as if the whole universe was against her and she didn't like that. Sighing, she made her way to the only room she had yet to search: his personal quarters and even though she wasn't too hopeful that she would have success there but she was willing to try. The door hissed open and she took a hesitant step in the room, a small sigh of relief involuntarily escaping her when he saw him there. He was sitting at his desk with his back at her, his shoulders hunched slightly and the sound of page flicking reached her ears and she realized he was reading. She gritted her teeth in annoyance. She had searched for him the whole morning everywhere she could think of and here he was, reading in his quarters. She confidently stepped towards him and the door closed behind her, shutting out the rest of the world.
"Aya." He greeted her and closed the book in front of him, sitting up straighter but not bothering to turn around.
She rolled her eyes. "Razer." She almost wanted to laugh at their little game, it always happened that way but she couldn't complain, if she were to be honest with herself she liked the way her name sounded when he said it, it made her feel a pleasant fluttering sensation, something she had thought she would never feel again.
"Is there something I can do for you?" He asked coldly and finally turned around to face her, his expression neutral.
"I..." She bit the inside of her lip and hesitated. Why had she come there? Sure, she had wanted to talk to him but now she wasn't sure she could do it. After all, what was there to talk about? He had been avoiding her and now she just felt awkward. She had no idea what to say and she didn't want to just walk away and possibly make a fool of herself in front of him. They hadn't been in good terms since their fight and while she felt awful for acting that way towards him, she didn't want to be the one that made the first move and ended whatever he was trying to do just because of her damn feelings. And yet, why the thought of losing him hurt so much? "I need to talk to you." She responded, surprised by how even her voice sounded in spite of the storm going on within her.
He raised an eyebrow. "What is there for us to talk about?"
He was right. It was obvious he didn't want anything with her so why did she keep trying? Despite that thought, she decided not to back down so easily. "You have been avoiding me." She said bluntly. "Why?"
"You have been busy with your... calming down lessons with Saint Walker." He shrugged. "I assumed you would not want anything distracting you." He tilted his head slightly to the side in a curious manner. "Was I wrong?" The small smirk crossing his lips was all but a challenge. He knew how much she loved that kind of games and he used it against her.
Was he saying what she thought he was saying? "What is that supposed to mean?" She asked and rolled her eyes, trying to keep her cool. She wasn't going to let him win this time.
"I don't know." He stood up and stroded towards her, a playful glint in his eyes. "What do you think it's supposed to mean?"
"Can you please stop doing that?" She hissed and folded her arms over her chest, her nails digging into her skin through the material of her uniform though she didn't mind.
"Doing what?" He chuckled and stopped right in front of her, towering over her.
"This!" She sighed and had to resist the immature urge to stomp her foot against the floor. "Just stop doing this and listen to me!"
"Alright." He leaned in closer to her and smirked. Their noses were almost touching and she could feel her heart pounding fast and loud in her ears as her eyes locked with his. "I'm listening."
She could feel his warm breath curling down against her lips and his proximity was driving her crazy. She wanted nothing more than just to grab him by the shoulders and kiss him but she managed to control herself. "I just want to know, what is going on with you?"
"With me?" He raised an eyebrow and snickered. "There's absolutely nothing going on with me."
"Then why are you acting this way?" She was surprised she could form a coherent sentence but she was more than grateful for that.
"How am I acting, Aya?" He crossed his arms and looked at her expectantly.
"Cold. Distant. Like you do not even know me. I want to know why." She answered and her voice nearly cracked but she forced it to stay even.
"I didn't do that."
"The hell you didn't!" She growled through gritted teeth and could feel anger rising within her but she struggled to control it. "How much have we spoken to each other since we got here?"
"You're busy all the time meditating and learning how to control your rage. I don't want to... interrupt you."
She wanted to slap him for his response but she controlled herself. "Right." She rolled her eyes. "I am sure that is the reason." The sarcasm in her voice was obvious.
"You know what, I'm not even going to try anymore. One moment you yell at me to leave you alone and the next one you come into my room, asking why I actually did leave you alone."
She gritted her teeth in annoyance. "Excuse me for not liking it when someone gets themselves involved in my life like you do!" She replied, her tone acidly.
"Well excuse me for wanting to know what is bothering one of my crewmates!"
Her brow furrowed visibly and she scoffed. "So this is what you actually think about me!" She spat furiously.
"What?" He shook his head. "You're on my ship and are involved in this crew's missions. Of course I consider you one of my crewmates!"
She couldn't help but want to slap him for his ignorance. "Are you aware of what I actually meant? Because to me it seems like you never understand the true meaning of my words!" She shouted and leant up on her tip toes, glaring at him.
"How am I supposed to understand what you mean?" He replied and bent. "You're the most confusing person I have ever met!"
"You could at least make a goddamn effort to understand me!"
"Should I remind you how many times I've tried but all you did was scream and yell at me to leave you alone?" He growled, his eyes narrowed.
"I am a woman, Razer! We say the opposite of what we actually mean!"
"Oh really? To me it doesn't look that way."
"How does it look like to you then?"
"To me it actually seems that you just act like an arrogant bitch only because you like pissing everybody else off!" He kept his gaze locked with hers the entire time but when he saw the hurt in her widening eyes he immediately regretted what he'd said. "Aya-"
"Shut up!" She growled. "You know nothing about me!"
"Because you never let me get any close to you! It's not my fault you are so fucking stubborn and shut out everyone around you just because you're afraid of being hurt again, either because of them leaving and being taken away from you!"
"Stop assuming things about me!" She yelled and got even closer to her, so close that she was able to see every nuance of blue from his irises and feel his uneven breath against her lips but she didn't care about that now.
"Then stop screwing with my mind!" He shouted back and bared his fangs in a snarl.
She let her arms fall to her sides and clenched her fists tightly, her ring glowing deep crimson on her finger. "I should tell you the very same thing! Stop screwing with me and with my feelings!"
He growled. "Just stop being such a bitch about this, okay?!"
"What?" She huffed. "That does not even make any sense!"
"It doesn't have to!" His gaze moved to her lips for one quick second before moving back to meet her eyes.
"Oh. Right, sure. I had almost forgotten you just like not to make any sense."
"Nonsense."
"Obviously." She rolled her eyes.
"Okay, that's enough." He sighed. "I got tired of this, Aya. I got tired of this game. I'm giving up."
"You can't do that!" She argued.
"Watch me!" He growled at her. "It's tiring, okay? I can't do this anymore!"
"Do what? Keep screwing with me? From what it looks like, you actually enjoy doing that!" She growled back, her tone giving away her pain.
"Screw it, Aya, that's not even close to the truth!"
"To me it really does not seem that way! Or what, you just hate it when you have the truth handed over to you?!"
"Then I guess it's time I returned the favor to you, don't you think?" They were glaring daggers at each other and their voices had gotten hoarse from all the yelling but they didn't stop, couldn't stop now. "Fuck you!"
"Excuse me?!" If she hadn't wanted to punch him by now, she sure as hell did now. "You better did not just say that or so help me..."
"What's the matter, Aya?! You hate it when someone actually gets back at you for the way you treated them?"
"Don't you dare!" She growled.
"Or what?" He smirked. "That being said, you little stubborn bitch, fuck you!"
"What are you waiting for then?" She shouted and blushed the moment the words left her lips. Her eyes widened and she suddenly pulled back, her heart racing out of control. Why had she said that? Why couldn't she had just kept her mouth shut? Why couldn't she think about it first? She just wished she could take her words back but that wasn't possible. "Razer, I-"
He cut her off when he grabbed her by the shoulders and pushed her into the nearest wall before slamming his lips hard against hers and kissing her hard and passionate. His hands lowered to her hips where he stopped to clench, holding her close to him as he pushed her head into the wall, greedily devouring her lips. She couldn't stop the instant reaction her body had to his, nor did she want to. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him that much closer to her, moaning into his mouth when he pressed himself against her, no space left between their bodies. She felt more alive than she had ever done before and she was sure that she had forgotten how good it felt to have someone that close to you, to just act on impulse and desire. Adrenaline was still pumping in her veins, making their kiss was almost electric, charged and full of passion and that made her feel better than anything she had ever experienced. She was alive and she could feel it after a long time.
And it's ready. Sorry for the long wait.
I hope you like it.
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