In hindsight

It was late as two men were smoking their pot and just watching over Manhattan. The two men were Nate and Chuck. Chuck had married his dream girl Blair. Nate had married Serena after her messy divorce from Dan. Chuck looks at his rolled up joint in distaste and says," these things used to test better."

"Yeah totally" says his blond friend Nate as they both take a drag of their joints and Nate suddenly says" I remember how you started to smoke?

"Well, I had nothing to do at the time and hinging out with Georgina was pretty much drinking and smoking," Chuck says offhand as he ashes his joint and grabs himself a glass of Scotch.

"Hey, didn't you lose your virginity to Georgina?" Nate asks.

"Yeah, I did and it was not was I expected at all," Chuck says with a bit of disappointment.

Nate looks thoughtful and says," the first time is never as you expect it to be."

"Oh yeah, you and Serena were quiet and nice hung-up," Chuck says in a teasing tone, and Nate smiles at that and says "I was stupid not to see that interested you had in Blair at the time."

"What," Chuck says a bit shocked.

"I am not dumb, I saw it clearly on your face that Blair held a special place in your hart. Blair only talked to you about the plotting and I was somewhat jealous of you. Blair never told me anything, and it was as if she knew you would understand her. I think….I was too sweet for her," Nate said all this in a calm tone.

Chuck is shocked to hear that his friend knew all alone, what he wanted.

"Chuck, you and I both know me and Blair, where never mean to be. I was stupid for thinking that we might. I'm not the great's plotter and you have more talent for it then I have."

"Nate, I was stupid. I never told you how I felt about Blair, but you where my only friend and I didn't want to ruin your friendship. It just end bad that I did just do what I didn't want to do," Chuck says all this with a more darken tone.

"Forget man, you and I will always be friend, because I hold you dearly." Nate says. Chuck just nods and says "Even when I am such a bad person?"

Nate goes silence but he shakes his head.

After their talk. Chuck can stop thinking about Nate's words. What had happen if he had told Nate back then? It was an absurd question.

Nate puts out his smoke and goes back inside to Serena, who is sleeping peacefully.

"Chuck, come back to bed," Blair says as she sees her husband by the window. She knew something must be up with him. He never look so far way before.

"I come in a bit," Chuck, says as he looks over at his beautiful wife. She looks good in her white nightgown and her hair down. She would never stop to amaze him.

"You think too much right now," Blair says calmly.

"Yeah, I probably do," Chuck, says with a glitch in his eyes.

A/N: I don't own Gossip Girl