A/N: excuse my grammar and don't expect too much guys.


"what?" eli was taken back by kotori's sudden confession. she force a laughter out and said "kotori, you just confused.. you had a fight with umi.. you have to reconcile"

eli can feel kotori squeezing her hands, slowly she lift her head and look straight into eli's blue orbs. "I'm not confused, I've been feeling this for a while and I'm not sure of it.. not till now"

"kotori, you know what kind of person I am.." eli answer calmly.

"beside.. umi is going to kill me for real this time if we are going out" the blonde added

kotori only stare eli in silence, she just confessed her feeling to her cheating partner while still dating with umi.

she is the worst. but she can't lie anymore since her heart beats differently around eli. she always admire umi, and happy when umi accept her confession but nothing changes. their relationship is the same as before, aside the occasional kiss and date. making love? yeah like once a month if kotori lucky, since umi is what you called as herbivore in bed

"eli... what should i do?"

"you should go home, sleep and clear your head. im sure you are just tired"

"okay.. eli" that said, kotori leave with her head down

"why don't you tell her the truth elicchi?"

"what do you mean?" eli raised her eyebrows, eyeing nozomi who slowly push herself from the doorframe and head to the blonde's bed

"that you are also feel the same way"

eli slightly frown. "I'm not"

"come on elicchi. just how long have we know each other? you can't lie to me. the way you look at her is different from the way you look at me or the other girls. Isn't that why you keep playing with her eventhough she already has a girlfriend? it's not like you to do that"

nozomi see right through her. eli cant lie, so she laugh, laughing at her pathetic self. "she doesn't love me"

"she love my body, the way i make her writhe beneath me. but not me"

"how did you know? you didn't even give her a chance."

eli squeeze the sheets between her hands. nozomi know where to push her till she can't run away anymore. she always been. "spill it elicchi"

"why are you doing this nozomi? Didn't you love me? then why are you pushing her to me?"

nozomi let out a frustated sigh, she raise her hand and gently caress eli's cheek. "i love you but seeing you like this, make me sad. and i also know you never see me that way, so I'm grateful that you still let me be your friend."

"i rather see you smiling again, like when you were with her"

"she left"

"but you were happy."

eli bite her lower lips, nozomi got her again. eventhough she is the one who supposed to be helplessly in love with her..

nozomi smile when eli won't look at her eyes, this kind of eli is more adorable than the usual charming eli. Nozomi lightly brush eli's bang aside and place a kiss on her forehead. "your happiness is more important than my feelings elicchi, that's how much i love you"

"you are stupid.. no, both of us are."

"you for staying close to me even though i told you that i'll never feel the same. and me for loving someone's else girlfriend and then got beaten like this" eli continue

"but there is one diff elicchi."

"while you had make it clear to me. you haven't told kotori the truth. you are scared that she doesn't love you the way you love her right?" eli nod in silence

"then just talk to her, after she calm down of course. settle this before things get more complicated"

"first of all. she still going out with umi. I can't just say hey i love you too kotori, but umi still your girlfriend so can you break it off and then confess to me once again? right"

"good point. but no harm in trying right"

"..."


"we broke up" kotori blurt out just seconds after the waitress served their drink. thank god eli hasn't take a sip because if she did the liquid will be all over kotori's face by now

"wh-what?"

"I broke up with umi. because I don't want to lie to her anymore"

"I love you eli"

eli about to protest again because of kotori's haste decision. eventhough half of her is happy that kotori broke up, but the other half can't help but wonder, what if in the future she regret it, and realized that eli didn't worth it?

"but-"

"I want to stay by your side eli. I want to woke up beside you every morning and watch you sleep every night. I want us to enjoy our time together, not only for making love but also for doing stupid useless things together. I want you to only look at me eli"

"ar-are you.." are you sure? is what eli want to ask but...

"I'm well-aware that you have others but could you give me a chance? a chance to prove that i worth more than them?"

"no" eli said firmly

kotori pupil went dilated, shocked by the refusal, the gray haired girl felt a lump formed in her throat. she can't speak another word, because she is positive that eli will at least, give her a chance. tears trickled down her cheek as kotori ran away from her seat and head outside

"kotori, wait!"

eli pull out one 10.000 yen bill out of her wallet and put it on the table, before she chase kotori. she is fast, eli thought to herself. her legs about to give in but she push it into its limit. her fingertips almost brush against kotori wrist. just a little bit more..

"wait.. I said wait!" eli yell on top of her lungs

kotori finally stopped after she felt the grip on her wrist is tightening. her tears hasn't dried off, like the wound in her heart.

the blonde's right hand on her knee while her other hand hold kotori tightly, white air comes out her mouth as she try to regulate her breath. after eli make sure that she has enough energy to stand, eli pull kotori into her embrace. not batting an eye to the passer by who giving them the eye

"why are you so fast? I haven't finish talking yet" eli whisper into kotori's left ear

the younger girl only stand still, the warmth of eli's body seeping through her skin.

"you rejected me. what else to hear?" kotori mumbled into eli's shoulder

"I didn't mean that" eli put both hands on top of kotori shoulder, sapphire met crimson.

"when I said no. I mean you don't have to prove yourself"

kotori open her mouth and then close it, open it again and then close it one more time before her mind finally registered what eli meant.

"because you worth it, all of you" eli husked under her breath, gently she brought her lips down, slowly moving against the unresponsive kotori and...

once again, her tears fall again, but this time out of happiness. kotori who had frozen for the past seconds, eagerly replied eli lips, melting into this searing kiss. it numbs her mind how different it felt when you are kissing someone you love


A/N : soooooo that's how it's end. thanks for the review, it makes me happy to see someone actually reading this piece of shit and even take a time to leave review. tbh i have no idea what im writing... set that aside let me explain about their relationship

nozomi loves eli but eli only see her as friend and they've been best friend since forever. ofc nozomi know all about eli and her messy relationships, she joined them too, but she never give up lol. and uhh have i told you that elicchi had been hurt in the past that she has trust and commitment issue. yeap that explains the number of conquests she has. time passed by and then eli met kotori, it was love at the first sight, but too bad kotori already got gf. eli's trying hard to find the loophole and that's when she realize that umi often neglect her gf, it's her only chance.

if you cant date them then fuck them right - ignore this part

dammit eli. why you make me wanna sin so bad quote by me