Talking and being open with each other seems to help at first, though Chloe can tell Beca feels awkward and like a terrible person the first time she wakes her soulmates up after a bad dream. Chloe thinks the brunette probably would have let them sleep, but between the decisions in their earlier conversations and the lingering remnants of the nightmare the need for comfort clearly won over the inclination to let them sleep.

So Chloe makes sure Beca knows she doesn't mind, carefully rolling over the brunette and settling her between herself and a still half asleep Aubrey before cuddling close into her side. "You want to talk about it this time?" Chloe asks once they all three settle into the new arrangement, not surprised when Beca shakes her head. "Gonna talk about it anyway?" she asks after a beat, smiling when Beca lets out a surprised laugh. It's small, and definitely shocked out of her, but it's still a laugh so Chloe will take the victory.

"I don't know if I can" Beca admits quietly, and Chloe can feel Aubrey's arms tighten around their younger soulmate as she tries to move even closer. "Actually putting it into words makes it seem real, and I'm not sure I can deal with that."

"Well maybe facing it will help you move past it" Chloe says, raising her head a little to look at Beca. "And Aubrey and I are right here, so obviously it isn't real, and we can keep you grounded." She can feel Beca hesitate, and wishes she knew how to help. She thinks that talking about it will help, but she isn't sure enough to push Beca to open up.

"Not in the dark" Beca says after thinking it over, moving to get up before Aubrey stops her, pressing a light kiss to her lips before getting up instead.

"I've got it" she says softly, turning on the small lamp on the dresser and looking to see if the soft glow is enough for Beca. When the brunette shakes her head, Aubrey nods and flips the main light on, rejoining the two on the bed as they blink in the brightness.

"Sorry" Beca says as they settle back into each other. "I just needed everything to not be gray if I was going to do this." Chloe can hear Aubrey's gasp of understanding, and is surprised at how she feels left out by it. Aubrey obviously knows exactly what Beca is talking about, and Chloe is left unable to imagine, unable to remember back clearly enough to half colors and grays to connect to their experience. It's a bond they now share that she doesn't, and somehow that bothers her.

Not that she'd ever want to go through what they had, or have either of them go through what she had, but on some level she feels almost like an outsider to their pain. Still, this is Beca's night and it's obviously hard enough for her so Chloe doesn't say anything, just lays her head over Beca's heart so she can hear the soothing rhythm of its beat. It becomes her touchstone to reality as Beca starts talking, the imagery of the nightmare hitting her almost as hard as it obviously hits Beca, the brunette audibly struggling to get the words out the further into retelling the dream she gets.

Chloe is glad Aubrey takes the lead on comforting Beca once she's done with the retelling, she can't seem to focus well enough to find words, and she's sure the physical contact between her and Beca is more for her sake than her soulmate's. But talking about things seems to have helped her soulmate, so Chloe doesn't want to say anything to make her regret opening up. Tonight was about helping Beca, and Chloe is determined she can just deal with it for now. She'll talk to them about what she's feeling later, she promises herself. She's not hiding from them, just waiting for the right time she rationalizes.

Her rationalizations do nothing to stop the nightmares of her own once the lights are out and they've all fallen back to sleep, the vivid imagery of Beca's descriptions blending with the horrors her own mind had already dreamt up. She's trapped in her own body staring out at a crying Beca and Aubrey, feeling warmth spread along her chest and legs as she feels her heart slow, unable to move to comfort her soulmates or even look away.

And if Chloe hadn't been able to remember how the world had looked in grays, obviously her subconscious has no such limitations, because there isn't a single spark of color in her soulmates, each of them gray in a way she's never seen them as they cling to each other, neither making a move towards her. And even as her hearth breaks at the clear anguish on their faces, she can't help but wonder why they won't reach out for her, why they're so far away as she feels herself fading into a lonely blackness.

When Chloe wakes up she's barely able to keep still, a practice she'd learned quickly in the hospital when waking up with a start pulled stitches and brought nothing but pain. It had helped her after they were all home as well, keeping her from waking her soulmates every night and interrupting their already scarce sleep. It's harder to keep still this time, after the loneliness of the nightmare she wakes up aching to reach out for them, but even half asleep and still locked into the emotions of the dream she manages to keep from disturbing the pair next to her.

As she looks at them where they're still sleeping next to her she debates waking them, but something about the way they're wrapped around each other holds her back. They're obviously drawing comfort from one another even in sleep, and after the events of the dream it makes Chloe feel like they're somehow leaving her out. A small part of her mind tries to point out that she'd been just as wrapped into Beca's side when she'd fallen asleep and likely had only shifted away during the nightmare, but the pounding of hurt in her ears is too loud, pushing the rational thought out of her head before it can truly register.

She doesn't sleep again that night, only stays in bed because she knows moving will wake the other two, and they need their rest. As soon as they start to stir in the morning light she's up, kissing each of them lightly before sliding out of bed and heading for Brooke's room.

They've moved the crib from the guest room now that there isn't a need for one of them to be in with her all night, and Chloe stops in the doorway to smile at the soft shades decorating the room. Even if their daughter can't see them, their presence is soothing as Chloe takes them in, even before she walks to the side of the crib and looks down at her still sleeping daughter. She can't bring herself to disturb that sleep either, but it's enough for her just looking down and being thankful nothing had happened to her child during the delivery.

She isn't sure how long she stands there, but apparently it's long enough for her soulmates to notice, because after a while Aubrey comes looking for her, making her jump when the blonde wraps warm arms around her, leaning into her back and resting her chin softly on her shoulder. "We missed you when we got up" Aubrey whispers as they stand watching their sleeping daughter, and Chloe fights to stay relaxed when she hears the words. She knows they're the truth, but she still hasn't shaken the emotions from the nightmare.

"I just needed to see her after last night" Chloe half explains, hoping Aubrey will accept her leaving it at that and assume she's talking about Beca's nightmare.

"Everything okay?" Aubrey asks, concern clear in her voice, and Chloe thinks she really should have known her soulmate would worry even without her saying anything. She almost admits that she isn't, almost blurts out how she's feeling right there in the middle of Brooke's room, but their daughter chooses that moment to shift in her sleep, face scrunching in displeasure, and Chloe's attention immediately shifts. She's still not hiding from her soulmates; she'll tell them both when she finds a good time, she just needs to take care of their child right now.

So "Yeah, I'm okay" is all she says, carefully leaning down with Aubrey's arms still loosely around her waist to pick up Brooke before she can start to cry. And she isn't lying, not at all. She is okay, in this moment in time she's fine. The emotions of the nightmare are being pushed away by Aubrey's closeness and the weight of Brooke in her arms, and she can turn around to face Aubrey with a genuine smile. "Now tell me you didn't leave Beca to make breakfast on her own, I don't feel like bandaging any burns today" she adds teasingly, seeing Aubrey relax as she jokes.

"She's pouring cereal for us all, don't worry" Aubrey says with a laugh. Beca may have managed to master a few pasta dishes over the years, but anything more complicated is still a toss-up if one of them isn't right there with her. "Now why don't we get Brooke here changed and fed so we can join her?"

"I can take care of it" Chloe says, still keeping the smile on her face even though there'd been a flash of not quite panic when she'd thought Aubrey was going to reach out and take Brooke from her arms. She needs the grounding weight of their daughter right now to keep herself steady, and if Aubrey takes her Chloe knows she'll be lost to the sudden rush of emotions she's pushing down through sheer force of will.

Thankfully Aubrey doesn't seem to notice, though she does give Chloe a quick look before nodding and placing a kiss on her cheek. "We'll be in the dining room with your food when you're done" she says as she leaves, throwing a smile over her shoulder.

The smile stays on Chloe's face until Aubrey's footsteps fade, then drops as Chloe takes a few calming breaths, staring down into Brooke's unfocused eyes as if the newborn can offer reassurance through a look. She can't, but Chloe still finds comfort in her presence even as she begins to squirm. "Okay baby mine, let's get you cleaned up" she says with a warm smile at her daughter. "Don't worry, Mama's got you. We'll get you changed and dressed in one of the pretty outfits your Bella aunts brought you, then get you fed and join your other mommies, how's that sound?" The sound of her voice seems to calm Brooke as she squirms when Chloe lays her on the changing table, and Chloe smiles again.

There's something about taking care of her daughter that soothes her as well, and Chloe keeps up a running commentary as Brooke eats, telling her all about the Bellas who have stayed close over the years, and about how much her mothers all love her, how happy they are to have her. She's done this before, but today there's almost a bittersweet note to the monologue as she talks about the three of them. She doesn't realize it's there at first, and when she does she stops midsentence, looking down at her daughter thoughtfully.

"Your mommies all love you very much, baby mine. And we all love each other very much too. Mama's just feeling a little sad today, so she's going to keep you close, because you make your Mama so very happy. And even if Mama's just being silly, she still loves holding you." By the time Brooke finishes Chloe feels a little better, able to head out to the dining room without overthinking things too much.

She gets a look from her soulmates when she settles at the table still holding Brooke, but when she sends a questioning look back their way they let it drop. Chloe almost brings up her nightmare a few times during the meal, but there never seems to be a good time to fit it in.

Beca and Aubrey are already discussing going back to work and whether one or both of them should take more time off to stay home, and Chloe doesn't want to worry them both into missing more work because of her. They've easily managed to build a solid savings account with all three working, but Chloe doesn't want to add potential money issues to their stresses, especially because she's already taking a full year off work for maternity leave and they won't have her income to cover any surprise expenses. Not that they need it between what Beca and Aubrey bring home, but it's been helpful in the past when they wanted to avoid using any of their savings.

So despite knowing she needs to tell them how she's feeling, Chloe can't bring herself to open her mouth and start the conversation. Not when they're already worried about her. If she tells them now, they'll both probably race to quit their jobs, and then Chloe would be left feeling even worse about the situation. So she urges them both to head back to work, reassures them that she'll be fine, that she's almost back to full strength and Brooke is a very calm baby.

"Save your time off for when she starts teething" she jokes, and she thinks that's the final argument that convinces them, not that they give in quite that easily. Beca insists that she can take off a day a week to give Chloe a break without it being an issue, and Aubrey promises she can leave paperwork for her assistant to finish filling out and be home by three each afternoon. That leads to Beca teasing her about how they've been trying to get her to delegate to her assistant for years, so what makes her think this time will actually stick?

And as Chloe watches them bicker the familiarity grounds her, even as her insecurities try to convince her they don't need her here, that they're interacting with each other on a level she isn't part of and isn't needed for. She's able to push those thoughts down as she laughs at a particularly sharp exchange, but she's quieter than she normally is, and she thinks it's catching Beca and Aubrey's attention. Beca even suggests a nap, probably picking up on the exhaustion Chloe is pretending she doesn't feel, but between the fear of trying to sleep which risks another nightmare and the fact it would mean putting Brooke down, Chloe vetoes the idea.

She thinks her soulmates notice, but she tries to cover the reluctance and fear by suggesting they spend the morning designing a playlist to play while Brooke sleeps, a suggestion Aubrey had made early on in Chloe's pregnancy when she'd read a study claiming a proper musical background could lead to calmer and more successful children. Chloe and Beca hadn't been completely sold on the reasoning, each for their own reasons, but they're both more than willing to give Brooke every introduction to music they can.

It's Chloe's suggestion that they alternate instrumental pieces with recording of themselves singing classical children's songs, and her soulmates agree with only a little coaxing. The rest of the morning is almost like being back in a Bella's planning session, though the presence of Brooke in Chloe's arms or lying across her lap keeps things from getting as heated as they had back then.

When it's time for lunch Aubrey heads to the kitchen to prepare the meal, and Beca loads some of her old mixing software with a feigned sigh of reluctance. "Making mashups of kid music is so not helping my badass image you know" she complains, laughing when Aubrey yells about her language from the kitchen. "Oh come on, she's three weeks old and asleep Bree!" she calls back, and even though she's trying to sound argumentative, Chloe knows Aubrey will hear the same edge of laughter that she does.

"You're being a wonderful and doting mother, Becs" Chloe reassures her softly when Aubrey doesn't respond, obviously refusing to continue the discussion by yelling across the house. "I'm pretty sure that's like maximum badass points right there."

"Well when you put it like that, it does make it sound better" Beca admits, setting aside her laptop for the moment in favor of moving to sit on the armrest of Chloe's chair, leaning her weight onto the back and smiling down at their daughter. "Did she sleep through all of that?" she asks, unconsciously shifting to a whisper now that she's next to the sleeping child.

"Mostly" Chloe answers in a matching whisper, despite having been talking normally just minutes before. "She woke up a few times, but the singing usually put her right back out. I'll go get her changed again in a minute, before Aubrey can finish up so you don't have to wait on me."

"I can take her" Beca offers as she stands, and suddenly Chloe is again fighting to keep from visibly tensing. Even after hours of working and laughing with her soulmates she still can't shake the feeling that they don't need her anymore, that they've reached a point with each other where they still love her, but would be okay without her. And she still needs them, needs their love and presence in her life more than almost anything else, so the feeling cuts deep.

Holding Brooke is the bandage she's pressing to the wounds, the soothing balm keeping the pain from overwhelming her. And handing her to Beca would rip the bandage away, leave the nerves raw and weeping. "I've got her" Chloe manages to say with a smile. Beca frowns for a moment, then nods and smiles back. Chloe thinks it looks a bit stiff, but she's too busy standing and hurrying down the hall to really think about it. It's easier to focus on Brooke, on the way she fusses at the cold breeze when Chloe changers her, and the way she cuddles into her side seeking the comfort of her mother's warmth when she picks her up. The soft innocence of her child is calming, just as it has been all afternoon, and Chloe takes a minute to breathe before heading back out to her soulmates.

Lunch is quiet, none of them saying much, and Chloe wonders if they've notices how she's feeling or if they're just running out of ways to include her. She knows she's acting strange, she still hasn't put Brooke down despite the challenges holding her adds to eating the chicken and rice dish Aubrey had cooked, but they haven't said anything to her.

Ever since the random flash of panic when Beca had tried to take Brooke, Chloe has felt unsettled and almost unsure of her footing with the others, despite knowing it's an overreaction. She knows she's spiraling, but she can't seem to stop the thoughts simmering in the back of her mind, even if holding Brooke is still keeping her from actively worrying about everything.

Still, surely if they've noticed how she's acting, they would have said something by now, right? They'd all promised only a few days ago that they wouldn't let each other hide, and even if Chloe hadn't intended to keep her emotions from her soulmates she knows she isn't being as open as she should be. But if they haven't noticed how she's acting, even if she's managed to pretend she's feeling okay, then she isn't sure bringing it up is even worth it. She'll be fine, and they're both going back to work in a week, which will give her plenty of time to sort things out on her own time.

Beca wordlessly cleans up after the mostly silent meal, and Chloe mumbles a quick excuse before heading to the guest room, curling up on the double bed with Brooke next to her. She hadn't wanted to sleep today, she's still afraid that sleep will just bring nightmares, but she's finding it hard to keep her eyes open now that she's full and she hopes that curling up with her daughter will help keep any negativity from her dreams. She hears one or both of her soulmates in the doorway soon after she settles in, but pretends to be asleep rather than risk any questions that might lead to a conversation she knows she shouldn't have when she's this tired.

Having Brooke next to her doesn't entirely work, she still has flashes of fading colors and darkness swirling through her mind as she sleeps, but they're incoherent and unfocused rather than clear and painful, so she manages to get a little rest once she finally manages to fall asleep.

Brooke wakes her eventually, fussing hungrily and giving Chloe something to focus on other than her own mess of emotions. She thinks it's strange that neither of her soulmates comes to check on them when Chloe takes a little too long to get settled and an impatient cry rings through the room, but forces herself not to dwell on it, not when her daughter is obviously hungry.

It's not until she finally leaves the guest room and enters the living room that she sees her soulmates, both sitting in chairs across from the hallway entrance, both obviously waiting for her.

"Chloe, sweetie" Aubrey says softly when they notice her, standing and slowly crossing the room. "Why don't you give me Brooke for a while so we can talk?"

"I'm fine holding her" Chloe says immediately, glad the baby blanket is draped enough over her arms to hide the way they'd tensed at Aubrey's words. "You don't need to hold her just so we can talk, I'm okay with her." She sees Beca and Aubrey share a knowing glance over the blonde's shoulder, and isn't prepared for the pang of hurt it causes as they interact so effortlessly, even though logically she knows they've all reached that level with one another.

"No, babe, you're not okay" Beca says reluctantly as she too stands. "You're hiding behind Brooke to keep yourself together, but you're shutting us out while you are. And we don't know exactly why, but we both think that maybe if you really let yourself react, it will help. But you're not going to if you're holding Brooke, so let Aubrey or I hold her, and we'll all be right here for you while we work through this."

Chloe doesn't know exactly what her emotions are doing as they both move to her side, each obviously waiting for her response. Because they have noticed what she's going through, and they're pushing her to open up to them about it so they can help her manage. But they're also trying to take her safety net from her, and they've obviously been talking it over without her, which doesn't do anything to calm tat set of fears.

But eventually the matching looks of unwavering love and support get through to her, and she manages to reluctantly shift Brooke to where Aubrey can take her. She can't quite bring herself to actually pass their daughter over, but her soulmate seems to understand, closing the distance without a word as she carefully takes the baby.

And as soon as Aubrey steps back with Brooke, Beca is stepping forward to pull Chloe into a hug, obviously knowing tears will soon follow. And they do, as soon as Chloe feels arms wrapped around her, not having realized how much she'd needed this comfort all day. They fall harder when Aubrey's arms wrap around them both, the blonde whispering that she'd put Brooke down to nap again before Chloe can panic at her absence.

And their daughter has been keeping her afloat all day, but this is different, this is conscious comfort from two people who know almost everything about her. It's deliberate, and even though it's making her aware of how close she was to drowning, it also feels like she's slowly being brought to shore, her soulmates slowly swimming towards dry land with her in tow. Their presence eventually calms the tears, though her emotions are still all over the place, and she pulls back just enough to look them in the eyes, surprised to see tears on their faces as well.

It adds a sense of guilt to the mess of emotions surging through her, and if they weren't' still holding her tightly, she might have pulled away in shame. She's never wanted to cause them any kind of pain, let alone make them share what she's going through now. But they've either been expecting the reaction or something in her face gives her away, because they aren't letting her pull away even an inch, if anything pulling her closer into them, murmuring reassurances as she continues to calm.

"I'm sorry" she finally manages to say, blinking back a new rush of tears as she does. "You two shouldn't have to deal with this."

"Chloe, we all support each other through everything. You're the one who always tells us that, remember?" Beca points out, earning an eye roll from Chloe even through the pulse of emotions she's still feeling.

"No fair throwing my words back at me when I'm in a mood like this" she tries to joke, but the effect is ruined when her voice breaks before she can finish the sentence.

'Baby, why didn't you tell us you were struggling?" Aubrey asks softly as Chloe tries to avoid breaking down again. "We would have tried to help you, you know that right?" It takes Chloe a minute before she trusts herself to speak, so until then she just nods, looking between her soulmates as she does, trying to wordlessly apologize. They seem to understand, pulling her into another hug before leading her to the couch, all three of them sitting upright close together rather than her stretching out across their laps. It's almost jarring, but Chloe knows they all need the added closeness for the conversation, the way both of her soulmates are cuddling into her sides is already starting to make her feel better.

"You were okay when we went to bed, what happened?" Beca asks almost bluntly, and Chloe manages a small smile when Aubrey shoots her an exasperated look. It's a layer of familiarity that lets her feel grounded enough to finally speak, and she loves them for it.

"After you told us about your nightmare" she starts slowly, feeling Beca squeeze her arm tightly as she hears the words, "the images you mentioned, they got to me. I had another nightmare of my own, mixing what you told us with my own fears." That's all she can manage to say for now, even in the warm afternoon sunlight and not late at night fresh from the nightmare. She's beginning to understand how hard it must have been for Beca to talk to them about her own nightmare, and now that she does she feels somehow even worse about not talking to them after pushing Beca to open up.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Aubrey asks as she starts running her fingers through Chloe's hair, placing a soft kiss to the side of her head as she does.

"I was going to, I swear" Chloe says immediately, wanting to make sure they know she means it. "But Beca had already had one nightmare, and you two needed your sleep." She hesitates before adding the rest of her reason, and she can tell they notice when Beca gives her arm another squeeze and Aubrey presses another kiss to the side of her head. "And part of the nightmare, part of what caused it, was how connected you two seemed when Beca was telling us about hers, and how it made me feel left out." That leaves them speechless for long seconds, and Chloe tries to keep her emotions in check while they process what she'd said. She's already broken down once, they'll never get through this conversation if she bursts into tears every time something hurts.

"Chloe, what we went through, Aubrey and I had to face a lot of things between us that we really hadn't before" Beca starts, and Chloe cuts her off before she can start explaining.

"I know, and I know I'm being ridiculous, believe me. It just seemed like I almost died, and you two had to get to a place where you were okay with that, and then I pulled through, and you two still had that place. You went through something terrible, and it brought you closer together, but where does that leave me?"

"You went through something terrible too" Beca points out softly. "You almost died, and yes Aubrey and I had to deal with that and what it would mean for us. But we never got to a point where we were okay with it, and I know we never would have. But we dealt with it, and when we all got home, you helped us deal with it. But I don't think you ever really dealt with it yourself. And Aubrey and I should have realized that before this, but we were so caught up in our own nightmares and making sure you were physically okay that we didn't even think about how you were doing mentally."

And now Chloe is remembering the way she'd felt as the doctors were wheeling her into the operating room, the terror of looking up into the bright lights and wondering if they would be the last things she saw, the loneliness she'd felt knowing Aubrey and Beca weren't at her side as she faced that possibility. She's remembering the doctors telling her how close she'd come to death, how they'd barely managed to bring her back, how they'd practically told her she might never have seen her daughter. She's remembering the looks on her soulmate's faces when they told her that colors had started fading for them, that they'd been watching as her soul died and took part of theirs with it. She's remembering all of it, all at once, and it's suddenly overwhelming.

"That joke about us leaving you, that wasn't just a joke, was it?" Aubrey asks when Beca finishes, and Chloe has to think about it for a second, refocusing on the present with an effort. And she's glad that Aubrey has brought it up, given her something other than those memories to focus on before she panics.

"I think I meant it to be" she says after a second. "I don't think I realized what I was feeling when I said it. But if I'd said it this morning, when I woke up and you two were completely wrapped around each other, I don't think it would've been a joke. And I know you both love me, I do. But it seems like you don't need me anymore." Beca and Aubrey look stunned by that one, and Chloe wishes she could take it back, because it obviously hurts them as much as it hurts her, and she hadn't meant to do that.

"Chloe, do you remember what you once told me about having Beca in our lives?" Aubrey asks, and Chloe is a little thrown by the sudden change of topic. Aubrey seems to sense that, as well as her confusion, and continues before Chloe can answer. "Specifically when I thought I'd pushed her away for good. You told me that you and I could get through not having her in our lives, but we would never be okay with it. It's the same with you, yes Beca and I could live without you, but we wouldn't be complete, would never be truly happy. We need you."

"Now you're the one using my words against me" Chloe says through her tears, because she does remember that moment and how she'd felt, and she knows what Aubrey is trying to tell her. The three of them are connected, part of each other, in some theories actually one being in three bodies, and none of them can be okay without the others.

"Do you want to tell us about your earlier nightmares?" Beca asks after they've all stopped crying again, and Chloe wants to say no, but she owes it to them. And Beca is right, she needs to face what nearly happened to her, not just keep pushing it down.

"They usually weren't as detailed or vivid, like yours and the one last night were" she starts, thinking back to the nights she would wake up desperate for the comfort of her soulmate next to her. "Sometimes a doctor would be telling me Brooke hadn't made it, sometimes I was in the operating room before they put me out but the doctors were talking like I was already gone. Sometimes I was somewhere pitch black and aching cold, completely alone and trapped, no matter which way I walked or how far." She's getting caught up in the terror of those old nightmares now, and Beca stops her with a gentle finger to her lips, drawing her out of the memories and back into the present.

"Hey, look at me, okay?" she says as Chloe fights to breathe deeply. "The nightmares aren't here, they didn't happen. We're all still here, all okay and past the danger. Are you ere with us?" As Beca talks Chloe manages to calm down, staring into Beca's eyes to focus as she feels Aubrey rubbing calming circles on her back. She tries to match her breathing to Beca's, and the brunette seems to pick up on that, exaggerating her breaths and slowing them down.

"Yeah, I'm here" she finally manages to answer, even though she knows her voice is shaking.

"Bree, I think we need to find someone to help us" Beca says as she continues to meet Chloe's eyes, obviously knowing the redhead still needs the connection. "This is a little more than we can help with." And Chloe wants to argue, but she knows Beca is right, she's pretty sure she's just had a panic attack or something similar, and she knows she needs more than just love to get through dealing with what's causing them.

"I'll check tonight, make some calls first thing in the morning" Aubrey says from next to her, and Chloe manages to find her hand without looking away from Beca, using it to pull the blonde closer into her side.

"I love you both so much" she whispers as her heart rate slows, and knows Aubrey is smiling even without seeing her, just like Beca is.

"We love you too" they say almost in unison, and Chloe knows they'll be able to make it through.

I'm probably not going to go into detail with Chloe's therapy, because while I've taken more than just basic psychology classes, I am nowhere near an expert on what she would need in terms of therapy with and without the others, and I don't want to mess up any details and end up making light of serious issues. That's also why this chapter took so long to post, I wanted to make sure I took the time to get it right and adequately express how serious the situation is for Chloe, not just throw a few emotions at the page and hope it sounded good.

Also, apologies that I posted two chapters of Graying out in a row without updating Chloe's Weekend, but this one stuck in my head and I needed to get it out before I could focus on the road trip. But I do have the trip entirely planned out, down to what restaurants they'll be eating lunch at and what they'll be spending their nights doing (yes, for those of you who have commented or asked for more smut, at least one of the chapters will have some, though I don't know that all of them will).

There is also a possibility that at some point I will add a fifth chapter to this story, but it would skip a few years and I'm not sure about it yet, so I'm marking this complete for now. Please feel free to leave a comment letting me know what you think, I love hearing from everyone!