Well...I really don't have any excuse why I haven't updated in a year or two...I just lost my love for writing and dealing with a huge writers block also I found out my dad has cancer. I really don't want to get into it right now last couple of months have been shitty as hell for me and a lot of people are asking me to update on this one so here it is me pulling my fucking teeth out and have an anxiety attack and being stress out after an eight long hour day at work yay...br /

I'm sorry again for not updating I wanted to get away from this story fo while I just didn't plan for it to be this long I am very sorry again my dad is done with chemo after I got done writing this, I'm not abandoning this story I can promise you that, I just needed to get away from this story, I was way too focus on my Dagcup and Vigcup stories. So here is a half ass shitty chapter for you all.

This Is It For Me Here

Chapter Twenty Seven

I Own Nothing

Hiccup P.O.V

So this what really happiness felt like, to be with someone. I never really thought I would have a girlfriend, let alone Astrid. I was still holding her hand as we slowly walked back to the village with Toothless right behind us, I could already tell he was hating this date, even towards the end all he wanted to do was go flying all night. Maybe later on when I train Astrid we could have a few midnight flights...I could already feel my face going red with just that thought, look at me now chasing the girl of my dreams get a hold of yourself Hiccup...it's the first date don't go messing it up!

But it all went well, the first date was amazing! I wish every night could be like this, for once I felt like my life was perfect...minus my appearance...mostly my night fury eyes. I was scared at first, I thought no one would accept me, let alone my dad after he saw...the last time he saw me with normal eyes was when Drago cut my throat open, I could still feel the hold blood running down my pale flesh, my body getting weak and collapsing onto the ground, still clutching my neck before my mother could get to me, I can still remember the look of horror on my dads face. But that was all over now, everything was different now and things were going okay for me.

Astrid was looking at me with soft loving eyes, holding my hand and gently swinging it as we made our way back to the village, we could see the torch lights already, the place seemed quiet and peaceful when it came into our sight."So when can we start training?" She spoke up looking at me with a soft smile.

I jumped a little when she said that."I don't know, when do you want to start?" I looked back at her, still trying to look her in the eyes without scaring her, even though Astrid didn't seem scared of anything, so I took my eyes to the ground."We can start tomorrow, maybe get the rest of the gang involved." I looked back at her.

"Sounds good enough to me." She smiled and pulled my arm a little, leaning in for another kiss."I'll see you tomorrow morning then, in the arena?" I was quick to nod and gave her another kiss, a quick but sweet one as we already made it to her house, I didn't want her to leave."Goodnight, Hiccup." She whispered softly and went inside, leaving me outside. I turned around to see Toothless looking at me with sharp eyes."What?" I said looking at him."I should be aloud to have girlfriend."

He huff and turned around, gesturing me to get on his back, and I quickly did as he took me up in the sky, taking us home before my parents could assume I was running away...again. I doubt my mother would think about that but my dad certainly will if I'm gone long enough.

Dad was still keeping me on a tight leash, still being protective of me as if I was dying all over again, no matter what e was still treating me like a child. I was fifteen I was almost an adult, I just wish my dad would let go a little bit, but then again I'm the son who faked his own death and ran away for almost a year and came back to only get my throat slit and almost die...so yeah no so much of a good start. But I'm being good I only tried running away once since coming home.

But was my dad ever going to be trusting again? I mean mom is doing a great job keeping him busy and making him ease up.

I could see Cloudjumper on top of the roof looking down at us, giving me a look of excitement, he could tell I was happy...the first time in a while. We landed in front of the house, letting Toothless and Cloudjumper go off and play, I swear it never mattered what time of the day it was, those two always had time to play and mess around. I watched them for a minute and finally made my way to the door, slowly opening it and peaking inside, I didn't see mom or dad so I slowly tip toe in.

The fire was crackling and released a few pops as I walked in, trying not to make a sound the entire time. I notice my parents were nowhere in sight and there bedroom door was closed, so I just brushed it off and quietly went up stairs to bed. Once I got to my room I started to strip myself of my clothes and threw clean ones on and climbed into bed, burying my face into the pillow, but before I could go to sleep I heard footsteps coming upstairs, I froze to see my mother coming up."Hiccup? Your back, how did everything go with Astrid?"

Her hair was all unbraided, she was wearing a cream colored nightgown as she sat on the edge of my bed looking at me with eyes filled with happiness as he placed a hand on my knee.

"Everything went good." I said softly."Just took a little flight on Toothless and went to the cove for a bit." I shrugged my shoulders, trying to keep it small talk, not wanting to get in the kissing parts and holding hands or tell her without blushing.

"Oh." She said softly giving me a slight smirk knowing more had happened."Is that all you two did?" She tilted her head and patted my knee.

"Mom." I moaned covering my face with the pillow, trying to cover my now blushing face."Nothing happens, nothing too serious at least..." I trailed off looking away from her. But my mom knew more happened between us, but she didn't push it and got up from her spot.

"Uh huh I'm sure Hiccup." She got up and kissed my forehead."Goodnight sweetlying." Then she soon went back to bed as I laid down in my bed, looking up at the ceiling with my face still blushing and feeling all the heat rushing to my cheeks.

Valka's P.O.V

I left my sons room and slowly trailed back down stairs and back my bedroom, I knew my son had done more than just a flight and a walk to the cove, I knew better then that. Stoick and I shared our first kiss a few days of dating, so I knew that look on Hiccup's face. I opened the bedroom door where Stoick was waiting for me, he was sitting up waiting for me to come back to bed, the minute Hiccup left the house Stoick wanted me, he wanted to make love and have me in his arms again. It was first time in fifteen years, but it felt no different at all, he was same gentle stoic man I have laid with before, he remember what I like, he remember how to touch me and kiss me again.

"Val." he said softly as I shut the door behind me as I crawled into bed, laying my head on his chest."Did Hiccup come back from his date?" He said worried.

I laughed."Yes love he just came back, he's in his bed right now." I slowly ran my fingers along his chest, trying to sooth him as I told him the rest."Our son is in love." I sighed."Soon enough he'll be married and will have grandchildren."My husband let out a low laugh, pulling me closer to his chest.

"Our son is growing up." He breathed out."Where did all that time go Val?" He asked as he rubbed my back a little."He was so small when you brought him into the world, and now...he's becoming a man." He said softly as he continued to rub my back."I wish I could take all those years back and start over...I was a terrible father Val...I should have handled things better...I should have been there for him when he needed me the most."

I lifted my head up."None of this is your fault Stoick, if there is anyone to blame is me."

"Val." he trailed of wanting to argue with me but I stopped him.

"I had so many chances of coming home to you both...but I didn't I let fear get in the way of my family, I was so scared of what you would do...what you would think of me." Stoick shook his head and lifted up my chin.

"Nothing in this world could make me hate you Valka." HIs word melted into my heart as he leaned in to kiss me again, feeling one of his hands pushing up against the skirt of my nightgown, he continued to kiss and fondle my neck.

Home...I was finally realizing Berk was my home again, and I still have my family...and this time I wasn't leaving them again.