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Chapter One

An incessant knocking is what woke me. The boys had taken to each other rather nicely, which was fantastic, but it had made bedtime a bit of a struggle. Especially since I wasn't used to putting two small children to bed. And once they were asleep, well, I finally gave in to the tears I'd fought all day. I didn't remember falling asleep, but apparently, I had. And now this wanker, whoever it was, had disturbed me, at Merlin only knew how early it was. The sky was still very dark, after all.

I only took the time to grab my wand, since one never could be too cautious in times like these. I crept down the stairs to the front door, not really sure what to do. Another knock, more of a pound, really, jolted me when I was about a foot from the door. "Petunia? Petunia, are you in there?"

That voice jolted me more than than knock had. Outrage overruling reason, I yanked the door open. "How dare you come here, of all places? Have you come to finish off the job, then? The one your master couldn't?"

"Petunia, please-" Black looked heartbroken, but I was unmoved. There was no way I would let that traitor, that murderer, get to my nephew.

"Incarcerous!" I yelled, jabbing my wand at Black. He flicked his wand, and the ropes I'd conjured disappeared. Then, taking me by complete surprise, he surged forward, grabbing my wand. He had his arms around me, holding me tightly. I struggled, slapping and striking anywhere I could, but his size and vastly greater strength made my resistance very ineffective.

"Petunia, please, I didn't do it! I swear, I would never hurt James or Lily. They were like family to me!" he pleaded with me, still holding me tightly.

"You were their Secret Keeper! Of course you did it! Who else could it have been?" I was screeching, heedless of any neighbors who might have been disturbed by it. Two loud cries, however, pulled me up shortly. "Dudley. Harry."

I pulled myself from Black, who had gone strangely slack, and ran up the stairs to my boys. They had been through enough already that I couldn't bear to put them through more, Harry in particular.

The light I'd charmed flared a bit brighter when I came into the room. I instantly scooped both boys up, hugging them to me tightly as though my arms could keep them from all that would hurt them. They calmed in my arms, though Harry kept muttering for his Mu-mah and Da. Then, he perked up. "Pa-foo!" he squealed happily.

Whirling around, I found Black in the doorway of the boys' room. "Get away from us," I threatened in a quavering voice, clutching both children to me even more tightly in terror.

"Please, Petunia, I swear, it wasn't me! We changed at the last minute, not telling anyone!" His voice was pained, like he truly was devastated by the turn of events. But I'd seen his acting before.

"Get out of here now, before I send for Dumbledore," I warned.

"Pa-foo!" Harry was insistent now, reaching for the man who was responsible for the situation we were now in.

Black took a step forward, hands outstretched to take Harry from me, but he stopped at the look on my face. "Please, Petunia, you have to believe me. I wasn't the Secret Keeper! James and Lily changed at the last minute. It wasn't me! Please, let me have Harry!"

"Pa-foo!" Harry was swiftly moving toward hysterical, and Dudley wasn't far behind. Both boys were feeling my emotions, and it scared them, as well.

"Lily told me herself that you were to be their Secret Keeper!" My fingers were no doubt digging into the boys' sides, but I couldn't let go. Not with him in the room. "Don't try to lie to me, Black! I know it was you!"

"It was supposed to be, Petunia, but we switched. At the very last minute, we switched! I thought it was the perfect bluff, because of course Voldemort would think I was the Secret Keeper. I was the obvious choice, after all. I was James' best friend, we were practically brothers, and I'm an Auror with no other attachments, unlike you. So I figured we should have someone else be the Secret Keeper, someone no one else would think could possibly be their Secret Keeper."

"So who was it, then?" I wasn't buying it, even though his story made sense. Quite a bit, in fact. But it was missing one vital part. "Who was the replacement?"

"Peter."

His simple statement pulled a laugh from my throat before I could really comprehend what he's said. "Peter Pettigrew? That poor, simple boy was Lily and James' Secret Keeper?"

"That's exactly why I suggested it, Petunia. Don't you see? It was the perfect deception. Even those who know him wouldn't think of him as a first choice. Or even a viable choice at all."

Black's words sounded so earnest, I was having a hard time fighting it. "Why didn't Lily tell me, then? I am- She was my sister." Saying it in past tense brought fresh tears, but I had to get through this before I let them out.

"Because she was trying to protect you. You and Dudley."

That was so perfectly Lily, trying to protect those she loved, even while her own life was in danger. It was like the final piece falling into place in my heart, convincing me that what Sirius had been saying was true.

All this time, Harry and Dudley were crying, Dudley burying his face into my neck, Harry continually reaching for Sirius, nearly tumbling out of my arms several times doing so. And then he did. Sirius caught him this time, cradling him gently. "Pa-foo, wan Mu-mah! Wan Da!" the little boy wailed, and the man crumpled.

"Me, too, Mischief. Me, too!" he whispered into his godson's hair, tears streaming down his face to match the little boy's. And mine.

The sight of Sirius, who'd always had a sarcastic grin and a charming comment, crying and holding onto my nephew as if the boy might disappear if he ever let go, convinced me more than ever that what he'd said was true. Every bit of what he'd told me made sense, seemed exactly like the people I loved. And, in a way, it really didn't surprise me. Lily wouldn't have told me, if she thought it would keep me and Dudley safer. Peter was so much the least obvious choice that it was almost made him into the most obvious. And Sirius was quite literally the most loyal person I'd ever met, not to mention the most vocal about hating the Dark Arts. He'd become an Auror, not to mention part of the Order of the Phoenix, to help eradicate the world of it. There was no way he had betrayed Lily and James to You-Know-Who.

There were rather a lot of tears shed before Sirius and I got both boys back to sleep. And once Dudley was asleep in my arms, I was too tired to move. Instead, I simply curled up on the floor with him in my arms, using my wand to bring a blanket for us, and one for Sirius and Harry. Our tears had exhausted us all, and we slept like the dead.

The sun streaming through the window woke me next. Since I was squinting a bit against the light, I was a bit disoriented at first, not used to sleeping on the floor of my childhood home, at least, not anymore. It took a moment to remember what had happened, and that I didn't have to hurry and get Vernon breakfast. I felt a small pang at that, but didn't regret my actions. In fact, despite the crushing loss of Lily and James, I managed to feel a little freer.

Finally opening my eyes, I first noticed the boys, cuddling up to each other, Dudley even sharing his favorite blanket with his cousin. And then I remembered Sirius.

My gaze snapped up to where he was leaning against the wall. When my eyes met his, he gave an approximation of a smile, but it didn't fool me. "Why don't we let the boys keep sleeping?" I asked in a whisper. "I think they could use it, after- after yesterday."

He nodded, getting to his feet with a grace that dancers would envy. He then came over to me, holding out his hand to me. He pulled me up, with me feeling vaguely like a lumbering elephant in comparison, then covered the boys a little better. I picked up my wand from the floor reflexively, momentarily revelling in being able to freely use magic again. Why had I ever allowed Vernon to take away something so intrinsic? Shaking my head, I banished the thought. I would have to deal with it, but not right then.

Sirius quirked an eyebrow in my direction, but I shook him off. He didn't need to know how crazy I'd been. He shrugged, then headed downstairs. He started toward the living room, but I stopped him. "Why don't I make us some tea?"

"That would be lovely," he sighed, sounding as exhausted as I felt, even after just waking up.

I made the tea in silence, neither of us really wanting to speak. But I needed to know the whole story, so, as I slid a teacup under his nose, I told him, "What happened, Sirius?"

He didn't need clarification. He simply started. "When Dumbledore told Prongs and Lily about the prophecy, he suggested they go into hiding, to keep Harry safe. The Longbottoms, as well. But for some reason, Dumbledore felt that Voldemort would choose Harry over little Neville, something about being more alike than we knew, so he suggested the Fidelius Charm."

I could see how much this was hurting him, so I tried cutting him off. "I know this already-"

"I know, I just- It's just easier to start from the beginning." Sirius pushed his hands through his fingers, wrecking its already messy state. I'd never seen him this bad, so I simply nodded and let him continue. "Dumbledore offered to be the Secret Keeper, and so did you, but Lily didn't want you and Dudley to be in danger, and I volunteered, so Dumbledore wasn't needed. It was all arranged, and I was planning on going into hiding, as well, but then I got to thinking. I was the most obvious choice. I had no other attachments to prevent me, like you did, or even Dumbledore, and I'm an Auror, so I would be more able to protect myself if someone came after me. Remus, of course, has been with the other werewolves, trying to bring them to our side for Dumbledore, so he couldn't do it. And we all knew there was a spy in our midst, and I couldn't help but think it was him. And then there was Peter. Little Peter, who couldn't even duel if his life depended on it, who couldn't lie worth shi- anything, who wasn't particularly skilled in anything. No one would suspect the Potters of choosing him to be their Secret Keeper. It was perfect! So I asked him, and he agreed. We talked to Prongs and Lily, and they agreed, after some hesitation on Lily's part. We did the spell, and Peter and I both went into hiding, though mine was far more announced than his was. Then, Friday night, I was scheduled to check up on him. He was gone." Sirius' voice broke then. He swallowed, before continuing. "I didn't see any sign of a struggle. I knew then something was wrong, so I flew to Godric's Hollow. The house was… destroyed is putting it nicely. I could see Prongs-"

I rushed around to the other side of the table to put my arms around him. He resisted for a moment, before crumpling. Through a thick voice, he managed to continue against my shoulder. "I could see James, in the entryway. He didn't even have his wand. He was defenseless. His glasses had fallen, and I couldn't bear to see him that way. I found them, and fixed them, then put them back on him. He looked just like he had in Seventh Year, when he'd fallen asleep revising for exams."

Tears were streaming down my face, falling into his hair. I knew what was coming next. "But I couldn't stop there. I hoped I'd be able to find Lily and Harry, even though it was completely illogical. I don't know how, but somehow I knew Lily would have taken Harry to the nursery, so I went upstairs. And there was Lily." I was barely aware of his words really, but against my tightly squeezed eyes, I could see it, as if he were painting a picture instead. "She was in front of cot, like she was protecting Harry to her last minute. She didn't have her wand, either, so she couldn't have Apparated out. And then, there was little Mischief, looking at his Mummy like she was playing a game. He had this gaping gash on his forehead, and it was the worst thing I'd ever seen. I scooped him up and took him out the back door, so he wouldn't have to see Prongs like that. And then I sat on the front doorstep and cried. And that's where Hagrid found us and took Mischief from me."

At some point in his story, my knees had given out on me, taking me to the ground and pulling him off the chair. His arms were around me, and mine around him, and we simply cried. I had no idea how much time passed like that, but happy laughter from upstairs eventually broke us apart. "The boys," I moaned, dragging myself away from Sirius.

"At least they're in a good mood," he said, with a faint attempt at a smile.

AN: I know, I know, another story. But I am going to be alternating between this one and What Might Have Been, with All Grown Up sprinkled in there. I will be posting a chapter in WMHB probably later today, or Wednesday otherwise. And I promise that I will be more consistent in my updates! Thanks to all who've read any of my stories. I love you all!