After Lapis and Peridot had been forming a steady friendship for over four years. Things were different, Peridot was more touchy. Their hugs lasting longer, hand holding. How will Lapis respond? (Human au, angst. TRIGGER WARNING!: Thoughts of depression and self-harming.)

Lapis's P.O.V

It was Saturday, a day for relaxing from hell. Atleast for me anyways. Peri and I, were heading back to her house after playing some games at the arcade. It was cold, I had no jacket. What a genius I am. I scoff at my thoughts and glance at Peridot.

Her hands seemed sweaty, she was biting her lip. Was she, nervous?! I don't see any reason for her to be. We were almost there, I think. Peridot had a light blush on her face. Her sweaty hand reaching out for mine. I accepted, I didn't really care.

I had been starting to have a slight crush on her. Whenever she hugged me butterflies exploded in my stomach. I always got weird feelings when I'm near her. It wasn't that easy to explain.

A voice entered my head 'she would never like someone like you' . My eyes widen and I stop, Peridot notices this.

"Lapis? Are you okay?" She asked her hand unlatching from mine, worry spread across her face.

"Yeah I-I'm fine..." I respond staring at the ground, she knew something is up. I can feel it. 'Look at yourself, ugly mistake!' I swallow my tears and start walking again. I caught up with Peri.

"We're here." She says blankly, we walk up the front steps and she pulls the key out of her back pocket.

Peridot lived alone, her parents died in a car accident. Peri lost her arms and legs in that car accident. That's why she had those cold metal cuffs on her arms and legs. Her fingers are connected to the cuff, metal as well. I got used to the feel of the cold metal, it doesn't bother me.

She unlocks the door and we walk in. I yawn as I enter, setting my bag by the entrance of the small house. It was a one story, 1 bath, 1 bedroom. It wasn't small for just Peri and the occasional me. 'She probably hates you, like the others' it's that voice again.

"JUST STOP IT, P-PLEASE!" I fall to the ground on my knees yelling. Peri runs over to me.

"What's wrong Lapis!?" She asks falling to her knees next to me. I was crying now, my breathing hitched. I think I might had been shaking as well.

"I KNOW IM USELESS, IM JUST A BURDEN TO PERIDOT! JUST SHUT UP, I KNOW THESE THINGS." I shout out again choking on my tears. Warms arms wrap around me.

"LAPIS I DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON BUT I PROMISE YOU YOU'RE NOT A BURDEN TO ME" Peri yells at me, her eyes watering. 'She's lying' the voice said in a cold tone.

"YOU'RE THE ONLY PERSON I CARE ABOUT! THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE ME LAUGH AND SMILE LIKE AN IDIOT! THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN BREAK THROUGH MY METAL CUFFS I USE TO SHEILD MYSELF! I LOVE YOU LAPIS!" I sat there astonished, that's why she's been acting so strange. I'm filled with relief and joy.

I start laughing and break out into a huge grin.

"W-why are you laughing!" She asked her eyes filled with tears. I open my eyes and put my hands under her armpits and lift her high into the air, swinging her around. She squealed, I lifted her down and link hands with her metal fingers. I smash my lips onto hers, another squeal. It was sloppy and rough. I was to ecstatic to care.

She melts into my arms and we just sit there. My smile turns into a frown. I get up from the warm embrace and pull my sleeve up. Red scars etched into my tan skin. Peridot looks and all color drains from her face.

"Why...Why did you never tell me?" Peridot asks me, her words lingering in my head.

"I-I... I thought you would think I'm venting..." I mumble looking down to the ground, I pull my sleeve down. My eyes were puffy and I was sniffling. She gets up, she reaches out for me and I flinch. I then let her cup my face in her hands.

"Lapis, I want you to 'vent' to me" she says looking into my dark blue eyes.

"O-okay..." I answer as she leans in and gives me a passionate kiss.

A/N :D yay! I finished it! It's probably ooc. I headcanon that Peridot is more caring to Lapis, only Lapis. Also, Lapis suffers in silence. Like the mirrior incident, I feel like once she got to Homeworld she didn't want to mention it feeling like someone might feel pity. Except people in Homeworld are cold and uncaring.