Drabble 3: Emptiness.

Rating: T

Relevant warning/Tags: Mourning/general creepiness.

Relevant songs: Kina - I feel Empty

Felt like doing some creepy Pearl stuff so I was able to write out this. Wanted this to be very open ended because I really like the muse I had for this one! Enjoy.

It was only a bubble.

A small lightweight bit of air, with some h20 and a bit of magic - Pearl reminded herself as she let it just float there in the palm of her hands. It was a bright green and seemed to light up like a small beacon in the heart of the temple.

Like a little green firefly trapped amongst more insignificant will-O-wisps. An analogy that Pearl could agree with wholeheartedly as unlike the other trapped, destroyed and corrupted shards that flew above her at the heart - this one held meaning.

It was orange and triangular and as Pearl held it in the dead of the night it gave her piece of mind.

She tried to hold it closer, still. But she knew she had to be careful, if she held it too tight it would pop. And the object and person that had become her most recent obsession of grander would be free. What remained of Jasper would leave the temple - monstrous and controlling and full of no longer burdened rage. It would escape and everyone in the temple would likely come to know her feelings.

She calmed herself at the thought, letting her thumb trace across the top of the green orb.

Yes, everyone would know but never understand. Certainly not Steven or Amethyst - they were far too human. They wouldn't understand her unhealthy, creepy need for a strong force in her life. Peridot maybe, as she had once been a lower ranking gem like herself. But not a gem or human so accustomed too freedom.

Garnet would more than likely be disgruntled and let down. Her exterior seeming as if she didn't care but inside, Pearl knew that she'd be crying and arguing. Garnet had been around Pearl the longest and knew about a Pearl without a master.

A pearl who daydreamed of a strong figure guiding her, strong hands, steady patience - a fearful want.

The bubbles glow kept Pearl awake, which was strange because she wasn't normally tired. But it was late and she knew that the others were busy. Thus the stress of her little escapade was weighing on both her guilty conscience and

The first time Pearl had seen Jasper she had been overtaken with need. Her figure had been tall and mighty against the midnight blue sky. Her silhouette dark. And the arenline had simply been too much. Her life was on the line - everyone's lives where on the line and the force of such a fearful master, amongst it all, amongst the flames?

Shouting orders, discipling her…

"Defective Pearl…"

She took in a deep breath. Oh Diamonds, was she nostalgic of that night.

She remembered still, sitting in her prison cell on the ship reminiscing of the events even then.

The pearl could see the gem shimmering and it made her smile. A genuine smile, one she felt she hadn't had for a very long time.

"Jasper."

She whispered it quietly, so quiet in fact is was more of a rushed muffle.

She came here too often for it to be anything but healthy. And she was getting closer and closer to eventually getting caught.

A sigh filled the heart of the temple.

Perhaps this would have to be the last time…?

She knew she wouldn't stop reminiscing, about this gem, this soldier who she had only ever spoken a few words too. If even that.

Maybe they could run away together? Maybe this Jasper, this beast of a woman was more understanding than she let on? Maybe Steven could redeem her and they could live together? Maybe she, in a rushed situation and clouded mind could join her?

But those scenarios Pearl had in her head where not to be. They never could be. There was just an empty shell where Jasper used to be. An emptiness and a void in Pearl's heart.

The bubble might as well have been empty.

So with another heavy sigh of regret, Pearl returned the bubble so that it could watch her closely up above. And she left the green light to dim in the temples heart. Perhaps, for the last time.

I have some free time so this is finally off hiatus I guess. But requests are now closed for ease of mind.

Also chapters will have songs now because that stuff is really inspirational. I've got some more material coming so stay tuned loves.

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