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Chapter 9: Snow under the snow

"You are the worst Yukino-chan!"

"Yukino-chan please apologize to her." Hayama ordering Yukino to apologize to the girl.

"Hayato…I…I" At the edge of tears, Yukino trying to explain the thing to Hayama and the girls around her.

However, it is futile. Nobody believes in her.

As result, she was outcast….

That was a memory during her middle school life.

The memory that she want to forget…

..and the memory that she don't want to lose it…

It was the memory of person that has saved her.

There is one evening in winter.

At one of the swing at the playground, Yukino sitting alone.

There is trace of tears from her cheek.

"It's not my fault…"

"Why…why nobody believe me?"

"Why the person that I trust so much doesn't believe me? Why…Why…"

…Yukino continue crying and sobbing….she feel really hurt and betrayed…The person that she trust so much, Hayama Hayato does not believe her. She knew from the starts when she returns from overseas that most girls in her class are trying to win Hayato's heart. They feel envy to her because she is the one who is really closed to Hayato. At the end the whole girl in her class was complotting against her. The result is right now she being blamed for the thing that she do not do. She was betrayed by the people she called "friends".

"….Trust and expectation betray many….but ourselves never betray us…"

Yukino lift her face up to see who talk to her but his face is cover by winter coat hood and winter scarfs.

There is a person standing infront of her. Messy black hair. Baggy eyes…

However, his eyes are lifeless. …much same like her.

"Hey, are you sad?" The boy asks about her condition.

…silent come across both of them.

"This world is rotten; if you want to change it…you should change the world…" The boy continues his speech.

"It is look impossible…however it's possible."

"If no one trusts you…you just need to trust yourself."

"If everyone despised you…you should not despise yourself…"

"Hardwork will never betray you, though it may betray your dream."

The boy then lifts out the scarf around his neck and tie it gently around Yukino's neck. He doing that because Yukino's faces look really pale and she is shivering hard.

"Please wait a while." The boy gives order to Yukino. He then goes to the vending machine and buy two yellow can of drinks.

"Here take this…" The boy gives a can of yellow drink to Yukino.

"Its so warm…thanks" Yukino take the can and hold it tight.

"Just drink it, it my treats" The boys sit on empty the swing besides her.

"mmm." Nodding weakly, Yukino open the can lid and take a sip of the drink.

"Gulp?! Soo sweet!" Almost throw up, Yukino stated the taste of the drink. She not too good in sweet thing actually.

"Of course it sweet….the life is bitter anyway.." The boy argued sarcastically.

..Yukino starring at the boy…

"Yeah.. the life is bitter…so…so at least coffee is sweet. So, if you don't mind would you tell me your problem? I will try to do something about it. " The boy offer to help Yukino regarding her problem.

"I…I.." Yukino hesitate whether want to tell the boy or not.

"Don't need to tell me if you don't want" The boy tries holding back his curiosity.

Inhale deeply, Yukino take courage to tell the boy about her problem.

It is weird. Yukino feel really weird when she talks to the boy. All his solution is really in pessimistic way. It fell like running away from problem, but at the same time it's solve the problem. However, she feels something warm within her heart. She feels secure and her burden is like being lift one by one. Deeply inside her heart, she is happy. Even though the tears still not stopping down from her cheek, she can feel that her lips is smiling.

".Well…that's it….Farewell…" The boy gets up from the swing and walk away.

"…wait!...name…may I know your name?.." Yukino pull the boy's back winter coat .

"..don't sweat it. We will not meet again." With gently the boy remove Yukino's hand from his coat.

"But.." Yukino show a sad face again.

"Huh, such a hassle. Did you ask the name of every people that you meet at the road?" With a sign, that boy give a reason why he don't want to tell his name.

"No…but I" Yukino still insist to know that boy name.

"No need to know my name. I'm just a loser, a loner and the rejected person. I'm nobody."

"But.."

"This really not make a sense. Encourage people is the last thing I will do. Till then, farewell…"

"Wait!" Yukino shouting to stop the boy from going away.

"Soubu High….I planning to entering that high school." The boy makes a statement about it without looking back to Yukino.

…..a silent between both of them.

"Soubu High…." A bright and genuine smile appears from Yukinoshita lips.

Part 2

"Rather than believed in you I rather choose pessimistic stranger. Look at you I feel really disgusted Hayama Hayato-kun."

"It's not like I have a choice Yukino-chan."

"No, don't call me by Yukino-chan. Call me Yukinoshita. I don't give any permission to you to call me by my first name."

"Yukino…chan."

"It's Yukinoshita. If you get it, please let me go. Hayama-san"

Fell by his feet. Hayama Hayato realised his mistake. But nothing could be rewind.

Yukinoshita Yukino is no longer weak and frail girl.

She has been change 180 degree.

From shy person to prideful and arrogant person.

One fact that he knew is, there is no longer room for him inside her heart.

That's means, his story and her story had ended.

-A year after that fateful meeting-

Bip-bip-pppp.(Alarm clock sound)

'thuk'(Alarm turn off).

"6:00 a.m.. Alright. The day has come." Smile emerged on Yukinos's lips.

Today is her first day on high school. Starting today she will be one of the students at Soubu High school. She wakes up earlier because she wanted to meet with the person that has "save" her during crisis at Junior High before.

…But unexpected event has happened.

During her travel by car to the school at first day, she had involved in car incident. The car that she travel with is crash with a boy also from Soubu High School. That boy jump to save a dog from being hit by the car she in. Yukino is uninjured but the boy is unconscious when she was sent to the hospital.

Because of that incident, she got some traumatic experience and feel uncomfortable to travel by car again. She then beg for permission from her parents to live alone in nearest apartment to her school. Apart from her trauma, she just want to run away from her family political affairs. She sick by being a tool for her family. She has seen it herself by how her sister leave her ambitions to become a musician to become a political figure. Her sister not just leave her ambition, she also leave her will, her wish and her life just to fulfill their mother wish. Her sister is not the loving sister anymore. She become too fakes with her facades. Too perfect and too ideal for a normal woman. She miss her lovely and kind sister. Hovewer, there is no trace of that kindness in the recent Yukinoshita Haruno.

After manage to attend back to Soubu High after leave for the traumatic incident, Yukino begin her searching everyday.

But life is not goes as planned.

One year….

Even one year studying in Soubu High she still haven't found that boy…

However, Yukino has determined. If searching him around the school is futile, she will make he came to her.

Yeah, she decided that she want to propose a club.

A club that function to help people help to solve problem by themselves.

The same method that use by the boy. He do not come to her school to help her, but he propose a suitable method to solved her problem.

Yukino determine that she will find that boy and say proper gratitude to him.

She has fell for him.

And she still do not know that the boy that she searching from all of this is Hikigaya Hachiman.

Like a twist of fate the first person that become a client and a member of the Service Club that she established is the same boy that involved in the car incident. She still remember his eyes.

Yes, His EYES that rotten like a dead eyes of fish. And his eyes also same with her Pan-san plushy eyes.

And fate is twisting once again.

This is after she and he solving Yuigahama cooking problem.

During their usual argument time, that boy which name Hikigaya Hachiman blurting out something that have been craving in her heart from all this time.

"Hardwork will never betray you, though it may betray your dream." is what he say when they discussed about Yuigahama decision on stopping from cookie making class. The same philosophy that said by the boy she meet two years ago.

Like a watch that start to work once again, Yukino's heart start to continue beating once again. The colour in her life that is black and white before also coming back again.

She knew it. The boy name Hikigaya Hachiman is the same boy that she meet during middle school.

She want to treasure their time together.

So...she decided.

She do not want to become his friend.

So...she reject his invitation to be friend.

Because...

She want to become someone special to him.

But a girl name Yuigahama Yui also have a affections to him.

At the beginning, she are annoyed by Yuigahama behaviour.

But, slowly...she become closed to her.

And then...a person name Yuigahama Yui become a part of Yukino's life.

She become her best friend.

Her first friend since she entered high school.

And she also treasure her relationship with Yui.

But, she cannot lie to her heart.

She fell in loves deeply with a being name Hikigaya Hachiman.

Older people always say that, girl always tease the boy she likes.

This also can be related to Yukino's and Hikigaya's relationship.

She enjoy the moment they bartering with their own ideas. The insult that she gives to him and the answer that she received from him. Insulting him is her routine. She really enjoying her teasing to him.

She know that Hikigaya Hachiman is different from any boy that she knew. And because she knew him, she trust to him.

No, rather than trust, the feeling that she feel right now is, dependent.

She find that she could depend and trust Hikigaya Hachiman more that anyone that she know.

Because of that, she don't care if all students hate Hikigaya because of Sagami Minami problem.

Because SHE KNEW HIM.

SHE UNDERSTAND HIM.

But...

She cannot understand his action when he without any guilty or hard feelings, do a fake confession to Ebina Hina.

When he do that, her heart like being torn, crushed and smashed at the wall.

She feel hurt at her heart.

She can't forgive his actions.

How come she forgive him if the thing that she want to heard is being say to other person.

She is angry.

Then, she say that...

"I hate the way you solved problem."

From that moment, she has decided.

She will do anything to prevent him from sacrifice himself again.

When the time is suitable enough, she will tell him everything about herself and about her feelings.

Part 3

-Before the jump—

It just a normal day for Yukinoshita Yukino.

Wake up early, make a breakfast and prepared to go for school.

-11.00 am.-

Yukinoshita walking to go to the next classroom session.

However there are some ruckus happened.

She heard something from the upper level of the building.

Then…it happen.

Two person drop down infront of her eyes.

..

….

…

No…

No….lie..

Noooo…

"Hikigaya-kun!".

"Hikki!

Both Yukinoshita and Yuigahama scream at the same time.

Like energy being taken from her body, Yukino drop to her knees. She is shivering. She quite shock by the incident that happen infront of her eyes.

Crowd starts to gathers around Hachiman and the man's location.

Braving herself, Yukino walk to the Hachiman's whereabouts. She checks Hachiman breathing.

No luck. No air is going out from his nose.

She then tries to check his carotid pulse.

No nodes. He is not breathing and he has lost his pulse.

Hachiman's face is started to pale and become blue.

"Head tilt…. chin lift…tongue check" Murmuring by herself, Yukino doing the Cardiopulmonary Resuscitation (CPR) flow. Eventhough she is shiver, she trying to keep calm and doing CPR steps by steps.

In her mind there only one thing; I must save him!

Unbutton Hachiman's uniform Yukino put both her hand on the top of his chest.

Then she starts to push both of her hand.

"One. Two. Tree. Four."

She push and counting until 30 times. Then she does breathing check. She put her ear on Hachiman's nose and mouth. Her eyes are locked at Hachiman's chest in order to see if any movement happen to his chest.

Nothing…no breathing…no movement.

She then repeats to push again. After 30 times, she repeats the same process. The result stills the same. She looks at her watch, 4 minutes has passes since Hachiman lost his pulses.

Yukino is races against time right now. She does not have much choice. She must do CPR completely in order to save him. By completely mean that; she must do; mouth to mouth breathing.

Wiping the blood from Hikigaya's mouth, Yukinoshita without hesitation…

Take a deep breath; doing mouth to mouth breathing.

"Wake up….hey wake up…"

..

No response..

"Stop it Yukinoshita! I have brought the ADR machine! Give same space now!" Hiratsuka sensei come with ADR machine on her back. She unpack the box and pull out some wired and patch. However she cannot put the wired patch because Yukino's hand are on the way.

"Yukinoshita! Please give some space!"

"No! I will save him! He still can be saved! He can be saved! He can be saved! He still alive!"

"Yukinoshita! Get hold of yourself!"

"What you talking about sensei?...I..I'm okay. Lo-ook I just give him CPR push! Look sensei, he will wake up. HE WILL WAKE UP"

Grabbing both of Yukino's shoulder, Hiratsuka sensei try to knocks some sense to her.

"Back to your sense Yukinoshita!" Yukino look at Hiratsuka sensei in hollow eyes. She (Yukino) has break.

"Leave it to me sensei."

From behind Hiratsuka sensei, one of her student which is Miura Yumiko appears.

Miura Yumiko go infront of Yukinoshita and then….

Slap! Miura give one big slap straight to Yukino's left cheek.

"Did that knock some sense into you Yukinoshita?"

"He need to be saved…..he still…he still can be saved…he"

Miura Yumiko is known by her crude demeanours.

But at this moment, her motherly traits are going out in order to calm down one of her friends friends. She hugs Yukino and pats her head.

"Its okay, he will be saved…You have done more than enough..please stop Yukinoshita."

Tears starts to flowing from Yukino eyes. Her strong and cool facades, breaking and crumble.

She starts to crying like a lost child.

"Please…save him….i don't want him to die…please…please"

"Hiratsuka sensei, now!" Miura give a sign to Hiratsuka sensei to use the ADR machine.

A few minutes later, police and paramedics arrive at the scene.

Part 4

-Present time-

Outside the glassy ICU room, Yukino checking at Hikigaya worst shape.

"Hikigaya-kun…."

Placing her left palm on the glass and her right hand on her chest, she feels hurt.

Her eyes red; its wet with tears. She is strong. She never let her tears to fell easily. However the news about Hachiman really gives a big shake towards her. She knew the reasons why she feels like this.

Hikigaya Hachiman…is one of the important persons in her life.

The person who are incompetent, selfless, cynical, corrupted, narcistic, siscon, lolicon, and kind. He is too kind. Far too kind than any people that Yukino ever met.

The person that willing to go beyond anyone could think in order to help others.

Before he joins Service Club, Yukino's days are dull and bored. Everything is same. Everyone is same. People treating like a goddess. Nobody treat her like normal high school students.

But he; Hikigaya Hachiman is different. He treats her just like anyone else. And he the only one she can be who she want to be. She can be herself when she be with him.

Outsiders will mistake that they fighting every single day. However their word war and banter is just their daily routine. She can just say anything she wants when she was with him.

She cannot think a day without their banter. Everyday of her life are full with colours and spices.

She feel happy when they going out together.

She cannot imagine a world without Yuigahama and him, Hikigaya Hachiman.

Because of that she holds dearly her relationship with both of her friends.

No.

Not friends.

Its…

Right…

That's it …

She, her and him….

…they are..

..Best friends..

The person you argue most is the person you will love the most.

"Yukinoshita-san, I will send Yui back to her home. You can stay by yourself right?" Miura ask to Yukino.

"Yes. Thanks for your concern Miura-san."

"….Call me if you need anything. I ready to help you anytime you need me."

"….Yes…Ano…Thank you…Miura-san."

"..No. No need to thank me. We are…friends…so..its normal to give a hand when someone need it.…so…Even the Mighty Yukinoshita Yukino could break."

"..Say the person who-" Miura give a hug before Yukinoshita finish her rebuttal.

"It's okay. You still a normal girl. A girl can cry on another girl shoulder. Mind if I call you Yukino?."

"….n…"

"if that so….You can also call me Yumiko. Jya. See you tomorrow Yukino."

"Thanks…Yu..Yumiko."

Then both Yumiko and Yuigahama walking away.

A few minutes later, a foot steps are walking near to Yukinoshita.

"Yukino-chan….."

"Onee-san…" Yukino shocked by the appearance of her sister, Yukinoshita Haruno.

"Hikigaya-kun….. where is he? How is he?." Haruno asking in rush.

Yukino give an eyes sign to Hikigaya where about.

"Look for yourself."

"Thank you Yukino."

Looking at Hikigaya Hachiman from outside the mirror, Yukinoshita Haruno muttering something that people would not think to do it.

"wake up. Ney, Hikigaya-kun wake-up."

"…nee-san."

"Ney, Hikigaya-kun wake-up! Just wake-up! Don't just sleep at there YOUR S*N OF B***H! WAKE UP!"

She break. She has break. Like Yukinoshita Yukino, Yukinoshita Haruno also like has broken some switch within her body. The switch that maintain her façade from anyone else. A switch that hide the real Haruno from resurfaced.

"Ney….If you don't wake up…who..who will protect Yukino-chan! Ney! Hikigaya-kun! Wake up! You are my last resort! I will not allow you stop half way! Finish your role and you can take a break as much you like! Ney! WAKE UP!"

Yukinoshita Haruno has broken from starts. And this time she had broken once again.

Xxxxxxxxxxx chapter 9 end xxxxxxxx

Author note:

Wohooo, this part seriously really-really difficult. More difficult than Totsuka's tennis. CPR? First kiss? Mouth to mouth? Dead type? Oh god! It is difficult to become paramedics!

PS: There's goes Yukinoshita's first kiss~~