Back with another chapter and back on an actual computer. Yay! Hope you like this chapter, my computer died half way through and I was PISSED! Had to rewrite it! Grrr!

I slowly opened my eyes. Darkness surrounded me and I felt alone. I sat up and looked around in the darkness, but there was no sign of anyone not even Winter was there. I remembered my arm and looked down. A white cast covered my forearm and wrist.

"Great." I said aloud. I put my other hand on it and picked at the edges of the wrappings. This was often a habit I found myself doing to any sort of wound wrapping or bandages. I didn't like the reminder I was weak.

I laid back and sighed. I missed Gray. "I wish he was with me now." I thought. "If only I could go back, or he could get here" I felt tears well up in my eyes, but I quickly wiped them away. Another sign of weakness. I knew no one was there to see, but i would know. And I didn't need that to weigh down on me any further then it already did. Father always called me weak, not strong enough to hold my own out there as a huntress. Part of me believed him, but the other made me walk out the door that day I left for Beacon. I wanted him to be wrong, I wanted to be strong and exceed his expectations. But at this moment, here sitting in the hospital wing with a broken arm, I felt noting but weak and useless. I wiped away more tear. I couldn't let them show. I couldn't let him win.

"What good and I here? Am I even worth being here at Beacon? What worth am I in Fairy Tail? I don't have magic, and the dust that came with me won't last forever." More tears get wiped away.

I rolled onto my side and stared across the room at nothing in particular. I just stared, thinking of my weaknesses.

Sleep did not come easy that night. I tossed and turned all night, thinking of Gray, thinking of my weaknesses. I felt trapped, cold, useless to anyone at this moment. Maybe he was right. Maybe I'm not strong enough to handle myself as a huntress. All the maybe stacked up. The doubts and worries. I couldn't be alone right now. I needed someone to talk with, someone to hold me, to tell me everything's okay. But, it was three in the morning, no one was up. Not that anyone would want to talk, or hold me at the least. I just sat there, and stared.

Grays P.o.V.

"Is she thinking of me? Does she still love me, or like me for that matter? Is she well? Is she okay?" I thought as I stared up at the stars. I had finished my mission earlier that day, but decided not to go back to the guild. I found a small lake and sat next to it, thinking. I went for a swim that day too, just to try and clear my mind. Nothing seemed to be working. As I looked up at the stars, I picked out the constellations. Lucy had showed them to me a few times. It was actually quite interesting.

I closed my eyes and thought about her. Her beautiful white hair, her soft blue eyes, the curves of her body. I remembered the feeling of our bodies pressed up against each other. I smiled at the memory. I remember hugging her and feeling her body disappeared in my arms, how I couldn't do anything about it. How I couldn't stop him from taking her. How scared I am that I"ll never see her again. The fear of losing the person I love the most. My heart ached at the thought. If I tried harder and protected her, she would still be with me, happy and safe. Curled up next to me, breathing softly as I ran my finger through her hair. She'd smile, and wrap her leg with mine. I'd smile and whisper 'I love you' to her. She'd smile and whisper, 'I know. And I love you too.'

I could have stopped him. Grabbed his arm at least. Froze him in place. But instead I sat there and let him take her. I was weak, useless. An ice making pretty boy. I could have stopped him, but I was scared. Scared of hurting her in the process. Not physically, but mentally. Scared to let her see me beat someone she used to love, someone who used to mean something to her, scared to show her what I was capable of. My weaknesses showed through that day, and I regret it.

I regret not being man enough to help or stop him, to show her how much I love and care about her. Protect her. I regret it all. If I could turn back time I would. Just to keep her safe. Not for myself, but for everyone. She made a huge impact on everyone in the guild. They were all sad that she was gone. Not as much as me, but you could tell they miss her. I wish I could tell her how much I love her, how sorry I am that I couldn't save her, that I was weak. But I don't think I'll get that chance.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter! It was fun to write them all sad and insecure like this. Aww... their so mopey! I love it. They're so cute! Anyway... where was I going with this? Oh wait, nowhere! That's right, same place as always.