TBS

CH 20

(Continued from the previous flashback)

Fitz POV

I had been sitting here for the past hour trying to quit crying. My dad always used to tell me that crying was okay as long as it was for the right reason.

Well, I had TWO reasons…

My Livvie was on my left, my babygirl Harper to my right. The two most important ladies in my life were fighting for their lives and all I could do was sit there and think.

Pray.

Reflect.

My head was bandaged up pretty tight, but I was more than sure that I had never touched Mellie…

And then, it hit me.

I had several drunken one night stands and I was willing to bet she was one of them. As the realization that this was all my fault began to sink in, all I could do was fold over, hang my head, and cry.

My mom and family was still near. They were in the waiting room hoping for a good outcome. Everything that had happened had sent the people I love into a whirlwind of emotions and all anyone could do at this point was wait.

Livvie was in a coma. She hadn't woken up since she looked at me after being shot. She crashed twice in the ambulance on the way to the hospital, but was now at least breathing on her own and fighting for her life.

Harper was more severe. She was in a medically induced coma and had crashed several more times than Liv. She needed blood, which I desperately donated, and her lung was collapsed. The bullet grazed her heart, but did major damage to her lungs.

All I could do was wait... According to the doctor, all they could do was wait too…

And so, I prayed.

And cried.

And….waited.

OPOV

It's cold, but the sun is out and it's beautiful here. The scenery in front of me is a beachfront. The sun is beaming down on my skin and everything in its path is shining and just…bright. I'm wearing a white maxi dress and I'm barefoot. I glance over to my right and I see my beautiful daughter. She's wearing the exact same thing as me and she's shivering.

I'm glad to see her…so glad! I was so worried…but as I watch her shiver when I hug her to me, something feels off. The last thing I remember is my stomach burning and tasting metal. I guess that was blood. I looked over to Fitz and everything faded black.

Am I dead?

Good LORD, is Harper dead too?

Where's Fitz?

Harper looked at me and I can see the same burning questions in her eyes….her beautiful Grant eyes. I don't know what to say or do so we just stand there together and hold each other.

HPOV

Everything fades black again as my mom and I stand together embraced. Nothing and everything makes sense and all I can think of is at least I'm not here alone. Light fades back into sight and suddenly we are at a church. It's decorated and I think it is a wedding….im pretty sure now because as I look toward the alter, I see a man and a woman.

I see my mom and dad! WOW! My mom looks so beautiful. I can still feel her embracing me as I look toward the alter, as if we are both seeing the same thing but for some reason I can't turn and look at her face right now. My body wont let me maybe?

They are beautiful and I think it's all done because they are kissing and everyone is clapping. Tears are cascading down my face as I watch the scene before me. I sure hope we aren't dead because I know my mom and dad love each other. I see myself walking behind them back down the alter and I look right into my own eyes.

OPOV

Everything fades to black again and I can barely see in front of me for the tears clouding my eyes. I want that. I want Fitz and marriage and happily ever after. I want it so much it hurts and to see if fade away like that makes my stomach turn.

Light fills the scenery again and this time I can see my Harp. She's laying in a hospital bed, but she looks as radiant as ever. She's holding a pink and blue bundle to her chest and I'm overjoyed because it seems to be a child.

My Harper will make a beautiful mother one day! My babygirl is surrounded by her father and a very handsome brown skin man, both of which are wiping tears of joy. Harper has sweat all around her head, her hair is matted to her head, and she looks as though she has aged about 10 years ever so gracefully. My mouth drops open as they all three look at me and Harper extends her hand for me to join them.

FPOV

It's been over 8 hours and still no change. I don't think I can physically cry anymore. My eyes are burning and my head is pounding and no matter how hard I try, I can't quite focus on anything being said to me by anyone who comes in here.

Out of no where, I hear the most beautiful voice calling out to me.

"Fitz?"

My head shoots up, causing more pain to radiate through my temple and to my brain. I think for a second I must be imagining things, but she says it again.

"Fitz? Baby? Are you there? Harper?"

My Livvie is awake! I almost trip over my feet as I jet to stand and come to her side. She has gauze on her head even though I don't remember her head being injured. She looks at me with relief and I kiss her like she wasn't just bleeding from the mouth less than 24 hours ago.

She's alive. I'm 50% there…

"I love you, Livvie. I'm here and Harper is too and I'm not going anywhere. My God, thank you!" I sob as I kiss her over and over, all over her face and body.

As soon as I realize Harper's still sleeping, something happens. Machines start to beep and suddenly the room is filled with people. I'm ushered to the other side of the bed and the curtain near my beautiful babygirl's bed is closed. I can hear commands being barked and as I look into my Livvie's fearful eyes, the only one I understand is, "Crash Cart! Come on, Lets GO! Stay with me, Harper. Come on now! CODE BLUE!"

HPOV

I'm all alone. I can't feel my mom's arms around me anymore and it's growing darker and colder. I don't know what happened. A second ago I almost freaked out seeing myself holding a newborn baby. My mom was sniffling now she's gone. I don't want to die. I can hear people screaming and I hear my dad and mom crying as well.

How do I stop this?

I want to go home….

AN: I KNOW….don't yell at me. I'm still trying to get my life back in order but this came to me as I lay in bed last night so I decided to share.

Before yall curse me out, they are all okay. If you look at the previous chapter, this is more of a flashback.

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Thoughts?

My daughter starts 2nd grade tomorrow! I'm still trying to wrap my head around this concept, but I hopefully will be able to update at least ONE more story today and I'm thinking…Brave?

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