I sat there in the corner of mine and my boyfriends bedroom shaking violently as he was screaming at me, bracing myself for the beating I would always get when he got angry about something. Beau would always take his aggression and anger out on me when I had nothing to do with it.
"You know I don't like you on the phone with other guys, I don't care if you are best friends or not! All relationships start with friendship!" He said as he kicked me in the gut for the 5th time that argument. I winced in pain. This all started because my best friend called me and I answered and Beau saw it and gave me a look, I knew what was next so I had to quickly come up with an excuse of why I had to go.
"B-Beau he's my friend! I don't have feelings for him I-I have feelings for you, I-I love you!" I barely got out
"Yeah, yeah, all cheaters tell their partners they love them and then go fuck their side bitch!" He said punching me this time in the face.
"I-I'm not cheating!" I yelled as loud as I could.
Beau rolled his eyes "Whatever, you're not worth my energy faggot!" He hissed and walked away. I sat on the floor and jut let the tears come, this was too much. What is wrong with me that I can't be loved? Why? I sat there for a good 30 minutes then decided to get up to grab clothes and a towel and headed for the shower. This was pretty much an every day occurrence, I remember when James Diamond was so confident, never worried about anything, was always happy and always made others laugh. I started crying once again as I was in the shower thinking about how much the times have changed and I have changed. I regret ever getting into this relationship! I am going to get out of this relationship regardless of what it takes! Being sneaky will be the only way around it,
I know if Beau were to find out, I would get a beating. The best way to get out is without him knowing and making sure he does not come after me. I finished washing myself up and got out of the shower, when I got out Beau was at work so I took this time to call my best friend and ask him to meet me so I could tell him everything! I never knew that my life would come to this, come to me having to hide things from my best friend, come to me lying to him when he asked what all these bruises were from, come to me lying when he asked me to hang out and I told him I couldn't because I had plans with Beau when really I had a black and blue eye and I didn't want questions. I picked up my phone, was I really going to meet up with him and tell him? I sucked in a breath. No, I am no longer afraid of Beau, no matter what happens!
"Hey J-Dawg! What's up?" I heard my best friend Logan say on the phone cheerfully, I sucked in a breath.
"Hey Loges.. I have something I need to tell you and it's really important. Can we meet at Cafe Havana in like 10?" I asked with hopes he would say yes.
"Yeah.. Of course! Is everything okay?" I could hear the fear and confusion in his voice.
I sighed "I will explain when I see you okay? I promise!"
"Alright then, I will see you in 10." He quickly said, I know he was nervous and wanted to get out of the house as fast as he could.
I grabbed my coat and starting walking to Cafe Havana, it was mine and Logan's favorite spot. I was in deep thought as I walked to the cafe, how was I going to be discrete about leaving Beau? He had connections to mobs and gangsters. Fear started creeping in and the tears started coming. No, he was not going to get the best of me, he was not going to win, I was goddammit! I looked up and noticed I was at the cafe, I opened the door and heard Logan's voice.
"James!" I heard Logan call and instantly my nerves calmed down and I smiled at him as I walked over to the table, he already had my coffee and pastry, man this guy knows me well! As I got closer I heard him gasp. Yeah, did I mention this is Logan's first time seeing me without makeup to cover the bruises? There was some I couldn't hide but not this badc I didn't put makeup on to cover it up, I was done hiding. "Oh my God James! Did you get mugged?! Are you okay?!" He said frantically feeling me, did I also mention Logan is in medical school to become a doctor? Yeah, his fear is magnified now that he knows what can happen.
I sighed "No, I didn't get mugged.." I looked down as I sat in front of him.
"Then what the fuck happened?" He asked genuinely concerned and assertive.
I looked up at him and stared right in his eyes "Logan.. I have been wanting to tell you for so long but B-Beau..." I started getting teary eyed, so I looked away. I didn't even have to finish my sentence because I visibly noticed Logan tense, he cracked his neck and took a breath.
"I am going to fucking kill him!" He said angrily as he went to get up, my eyes widened and I stopped him.
"N-No! You can't Logan! He will hurt you! I don't want you getting hurt like I did!" I said as tears started falling.
"James he deserves to pay!" Logan said in a firm tone.
"I know trust me, I want him to pay! But I need to l-leave him first before I can make him pay! I need your help Logan! I need you to help me come up with a plan!" I said pleading
"Okay! What do I have to do?" Logan said looking up at me with determined eyes.
"Well, first things first, I need to change my name. I don't want him to be able to ever find me." I said, Logan nodded "Secondly, I need to leave town, I don't want to risk the chance of running into him."
Logan nodded "We also need to find us a job and a place for us to stay!"
I looked up at him "Logan you don't have to come with me, you have a great job here and you are in medical school."
"My credits can transfer." He said matter of fact. "Secondly, you are not going through this alone James!" He said looking determined.
I nodded knowing I could not change his mind. We continued to come up with a plan.