Epilogue
'Just one more push Rose.' the doctor announce and I make myself ready. Gripping Dimitri's hand a little tighter and pushing my feet deeper in the braces. And with the next contraction I push a little harder and give everything I have.

The loud crying of my baby fills the room and makes tears form in my eyes. It is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard. I look at Dimitri who is looking back at me with tears in his own eyes. He moves so he can be the one who cuts the navel cord before he is back to my side.

The nurse has taken our little baby to clean him up a little. I let myself lean back into the pillows with a content smile. After a labor of eighteen hours our little boy is finally born. Dimitri presses a kiss to my forehead before he looks into my eyes again.

'I am so proud of you Roza.' He says and I smile a little wider. It is the best he can say at that moment. I let him go so he can follow the nurse who is taking care of our newborn son. And I watch him the entire time while the doctor is taking care of the afterbirth.

Dimitri is hovering over the nurse and our son. A happy smile on his face even when he is looking tired. He has stayed up with me since my labor started in the middle of the night. The nurse places our son in Dimitri arms and he makes his way to me.

As he looks at me his eyes are shining with love and pride. It was something that Dimitri had always dreamt of, becoming a father. He places our son carefully in my arms and it is the first time that I can have a perfect look of our son. His face is a little wrinkled but he is the most beautiful baby boy that I have ever seen.

'Say hallo to Joshua.' Dimitri murmurs before placing a kiss to my temple. This is the best moment in my life and I haven't been happier before. I have a perfect son and a perfect fiancée. There is nothing that could take this all away from me.

After the nurses cleaned me up they brought me to a private room with a clean bed. Joshua is lying in a small baby bed next to my bed. And Dimitri is fast asleep in an extra bed they have put in the room specially for him. In that moment I can only think about how lucky I am.

Dimitri asked me to marry him and I told him yes. There was a part of me that told me that I should've told him no. But live is short and I love him and we were expecting. But I also told him that I wanted to wait until the baby was born. No way that I was putting on a wedding dress with a big belly.

Dimitri helped me with looking for a new job and with a miracle I found a job. I am now working at one of the nursing wards in the same hospital I used to work, the same hospital Dimitri is working. And after my maternity leave I can stay there.

I didn't lose any blood during the pregnancy and that was a huge relief. It made me wake up in the night from the nightmares that I would lose the baby. But with every doctor's appointment and every echo the baby looked healthy and normal.

When I was four months pregnant Dimitri couldn't go more than a few feet away from me. I was clingy and I wanted him around every move I made. And then there was this part that he only needed to place a hand on my leg and I would jump him. I would rip his clothes of his body and have my way with him. The hormones couldn't be controlled.

During my fifth month I was showing more and more and I didn't liked it at first. I hated the way my body was looking. My stomach was getting bigger and also my breasts were growing even more. I wore Dimitri's shirts more than I wore my own clothes. And it took Dimitri one beautiful night to show me how much he loved the way my body looked.

And with the echo in our fifth month we finally were told that we were having a baby boy. Dimitri was so happy to hear that he would have a son. And it made me even happier to see how happy he was with the future we would have.

During the six months we finally sat down for another talk. But this talk was all about the baby. We talked about the way we wanted to raise the baby. And knowing that we would have to find out about a lot during the way we wanted to be on the same page.

When the seventh month came around and I finally got into the third trimester we began to decorate the nursery. The walls became a light blue since it would be a boy. A dark brown crib and the changing table and closet would be the same color. And the last addition to the room was the rocker that we placed in the corner.

In my eight month Lissa held me a baby shower. And I received more clothes and stuff for the baby than he would ever need. I had hated the thought of having a baby shower but the day turned out to be a lot of fun. Everyone that meant something to us were there and we talked and laughed until I was so tired that I fell asleep leaning against Dimitri.

My due date rolled around and the baby was still not coming. He was very content in my stomach but I really had enough of being pregnant. I wanted to welcome our son into this world and see his cute little face for the first time.

Two days before our planned labor he finally came. I had been restless during the whole day and when I got to bed I couldn't find a good sleeping position. And when I finally was falling asleep Dimitri woke me up again because the bed was becoming wet. My water broke and Joshua was finally coming.

Dimitri had panicked a little and was ready to pick me up and put me in the car to drive me all the way to the hospital. But I had stopped him. Telling him that there was no point in going to the hospital. We had to wait until the contractions were coming a little faster.

He helped me showering and putting clean clothes on my body. He rubbed my back when I was lying down and walked with me when I needed to walk. And when I finally told him we should go to the hospital he almost forgot me and the baby bag.

But we finally got to the hospital and even there we needed to wait a couple hours before I could start to push. I declined the epidural. I wanted to have a natural birth and besides that I really hated needles.

Dimitri was loving and patient during the whole labor. He did everything he could to make me feel comfortable but he knew that he couldn't succeed in doing that the whole time. He ignored my cursing and hateful words towards him. Because he knew that I would love him again the moment the baby was out of me.

The crying of Joshua helps me out of my thoughts and I look down on him. His little nose is wrinkled and his mouth is wide open. Oh, my poor baby. I move myself a little higher in the bed, feeling how sore my body still is and try to reach for him.

'What is wrong?' Dimitri asks as he sits up. He looks from me to Joshua and is up in seconds to hand Joshua to me. He calms down a little but he isn't happy either. And I have no idea what is wrong with my son.

'Maybe he is hungry.' Dimitri says as his fingers go over Joshua's head. I nod and give Joshua back to Dimitri. Moving my clothes so my breast is free and taking Joshua back into my arms. But as I look at him I have no idea how I am going to make him attach to my nipple.

'Can you help me?' I ask Dimitri as I look at him pleadingly. He nods as he sits down on the edge of the bed. With Dimitri's help he finally starts drinking and I look at my son in awe.

'We should definitely have more babies.' Dimitri says as he watches us and I give him a sharp look.

'You should at least wait until my body stops hurting before you even mention it.' I warn him and he chuckles. He leans closer and he kisses me softly, making sure that he doesn't crush Joshua between us.

'Thank you for giving me this Roza.' He says and I see the way he looks at me like I am the best thing that happened to him. And I smile at him before leaning into his kiss again.

'I love you.' I whisper to him. Wanting to cup his cheek but needing both of my hands to steady the baby.

'I love you Roza.' He says. 'And I love you Joshua.'

He leans in to kiss me again and after that he leans down to press a kiss on Joshua's head. This is our own little family. Me, Dimitri and our perfect son Joshua.

I want to thank every single one of you who has read my story and those who have reviewed and supported me with their kind words! I understand that this ending may come a little abrupt but I had the feeling that their story was told and it felt better to end it with this chapter than to continue with chapters only to drag this story on.

- Lisa