He had escaped. They had been too late and this bastard had escaped them, Alex was in danger now, when he would get near her god only knows what would happen then, probably he would do anything to make her shut up.

JJ watched Alex in her sleep, she still couldn't believe it, through how much pain could a human being go before it was enough? She could imagine that Alex was near the point where it was all too much. To lose a baby was hard enough but like this? To be forced to live with the reason for losing the most precious thing in the world? JJ was thankful that Alex was still alive, but she didn't exactly know how. How could someone survive this? She stayed awake for the rest of the night and kept watch.

When there was a knock on the door around ten in the morning, JJ jumped up and pulled her weapon, a part of her was hoping that it was him and that she could put a bullet through his brain right now. "Who is it?" she asked, quiet not to wake Alex.

"It's me, Reid." she put the gun away and opened the door to look in his worried face.

"How is she?" he asked when she stepped inside.

"Like you would expect…what are you doing here?"

"I'm here to help you protect her." he answered and JJ nodded.

"What did you find?" she asked when Spencer had closed the door and sat down in a chair beside JJ.

"Nothing much, they look ordinary, normal even. He is a well-respected Doctor and worked in three hospitals all esteemed and known for their good staff, they married twelve years ago and seemed to be okay. We never found one thing that could indicate something like this, he must keep it old school, a file somewhere in the hospital he works in. But we found one thing…four years ago, she had a high amount of Oxytocin in her blood...they though she- that she killed her baby! They didn't investigate against her because that bastard defended her." Reid said angrily.

"How could they think she would do something like that?!" he hissed. He was so angry, he couldn't remember when he was this angry and the worst part was he was partly to blame. He was the one closest to Alex from the Team even though she recently had spent much time with JJ, she was a close friend and had been suffering so much and he had done nothing.

"They didn't know what a great person she is…that she never could've done that. There is no fitting punishment in this country for what he did." she said.

"I want to kill him and I want to make suffer. I would also like to punish myself for not seeing it. We're Profilers JJ, when we don't see it…who will?" Spencer said quietly.

"She hid from us Spencer, she studied this like we did, she knew how to keep it a secret and after remembering how stupid I was to judge those women in front of her I don't blame her," JJ answered, "Though I wish we could have helped her sooner." she added and he nodded.

"Me too…"

"You know that I'm awake don't you?" they looked up to see Alex look at them.

"Hey…how are you feeling?" JJ asked and sat closer.

"Oh great, like a train went over me." she answered and sat up wincing in pain "I hate hospitals…they make me feel like I'm a prisoner in his world, that he is the one with the power to make everyone look away…he once raped me in his hospital, his colleague kept watch so no one came in." Spencer looked at her in horror and paled.

"He-he did what?" he couldn't ask her and Alex looked at JJ.

"You haven't told them?".

"Only Hotch…I had no right to tell them Alex, I wanted to give you the chance to do so when you were ready." JJ replied and Alex looked at Reid.

"Yeah he raped me…almost every night for eight years. The first time was when I found the courage to finally leave him, the first and the last time. I stay with the last friends I thought I had, but said friend called James and he- punished me. I never tried again, I couldn't move for a week…" hearing her talk about it like it was normal made Reid sick and looking at her caused tears to burn in his eyes, because he was the worlds worst friend.

"Alex...why didn't you tell me? Or gave me a hint? I-I would have helped you." Spencer said softly and slowly took her hand. He expected her to pull her hand away but she didn't and he was glad for it.

"Because I was so ashamed...I-I couldn't tell you because I was so afraid of what you would think of me. How disgusting and pathetic I am-"

"You are none of these things Alex! You are my friend my wonderful, beautiful friend who shouldn't have to go through any of the things you did. I'm sorry I was blind and I wish I could have been there for you sooner, but I'm going to be by your side now. Every step of the way okay?" he said and Alex was so thankful for his words and she knew she needed him by her side.

"Thank you Spencer." Alex whispered and he gave her a small smile before pressing a kiss to the hand he held. After a few moments Alex felt strong enough for her next words and what would follow them.

"He is out there isn't he? You couldn't find him am I right?" Alex asked and JJ and Reid looked at each other.

"I'm not dump, I knew the minute they left that it was too late, he's going to come and find me and he's going to kill me."

"No he won't Alex!" JJ argued.

"In here? Yes he will, you can't protect me from him in a surrounding in which he lives, in which he makes the rules." she said. Both Reid and JJ looked at each other they didn't like it, but Alex was right.

"You're ready?" Morgan asked when Alex stepped out of her hospital room after she had signed the release papers. She would stay with him as he was the only one who was capable of protecting her and the only one who had no children and lived at an unknown place to James.

"Yeah, did I never tell you that I love pajama parties with my colleagues? Watching movies, you'll comb and braid my hair and I'll do the same with yours- Oh wait!" she said sarcastically and Morgan couldn't help but grin.

"Who knew you could be that funny?" he said when they slowly walked out.

"Don't become accustomed to it, that only happens when I'm on pain meds…and I'm high as a kite right now, everything feels soft and fluffy." he snorted and Alex smiled for a second.

"You want me to stop baby girl from coming too?" he asked when they got to his car.

"Please, it's worse enough that you have babysitter duty, let her do her job and keep her away from me…the further the better, so he won't hurt anyone."

"Hey you know that we basically fought about where you would stay? Really, we all do this because we care about you Alex, you're family and we will get him sooner or later for what he did, 'cause no one does that to one of my family members and walks away unpunished!" Morgan said and Alex could hear that he meant it.

"Thank you." she answered quietly.

"For what?" Morgan asked.

"For twelve years Derek, for twelve years I was alone with him, I forgot what it was like being part of a family…thank you for reminding me."

"Don't thank me." he replied as they drove to his apartment. When they arrived there he took her bag and led her upstairs, when they stepped inside and he switched the light on Alex was surprised in a positive way.

"Nice place." she said and he grinned.

"Not what you imagined huh?" he asked while he locked the door and Alex looked around.

"Mhmm, I thought it would be a mix between a gym and something in need of a restoration." Alex answered and Morgan laughed.

"Everybody thinks the same, I can live nice too you know? Take a seat I still need to clean the guest bedroom a bit you know from all the hair-care products to care for my flowing mane." he said and ran his fingers over his head, pretending to ran them through hair and fluttered with his eyelashes. Alex laughed but then hissed and held her ribs.

"Please, don't make me laugh that much, not even the painkillers help then." she said and he smiled apologetically.

"Sorry, won't do it again." he said and went to put the cartons out of the guest bedroom while Alex sat down on the sofa and closed her eyes for a moment. Here with Morgan she felt save, knowing he could not only protect her but himself and at least he had no children, so there were minimal people to get hurt if James would come.

"Hey, are you hungry? All those painkillers on an empty stomach aren't good." Morgan said and Alex opened her eyes again, indeed she was a bit hungry.

"Maybe something small? I'm not that hungry." she answered.

"Okay that's good because I don't think I have much here anyway," he walked into the kitchen and Alex tried to get up "Oh no, you're going to stay there and relax understood? You need to rest." he called from the kitchen and Alex rolled her eyes, but she stayed.

"And he can cook, wow." she said when he gave her the delicious smelling plate with rice, some vegetables and chicken.

"I don't like that sarcastic undertone in your voice Lady."

"Well I just thought you were a muscular Reid when it comes to cooking.".

"Aha so you already made acquaintance with his cooking skills, yeah he shouldn't be allowed to cook." they ate together and Morgan took care of the dishes. "If you want you can take a bath." she raised her eyebrows.

"Are you trying to tell me something?" Morgan thought about his words and face palmed himself.

"That clearly came out the wrong way, sorry I only thought it might be a good way

to relax." he said.

"I thought so, thank you…that would be good." she said and he helped her up, so Alex could get some fresh clothes and he ran a bath for her, just as Alex came they could hear a knock on the door. Morgan's head snapped up and he saw how Alex tensed up and fear showed on her face.

"Stay here." she didn't have to be told twice and Morgan got the door with his gun in his hands. "Who is it?" he asked while he watched through the peephole.

"It's me Savannah, Derek I have a problem could you please help me? Only for a second." she said and when he opened the door he blinked at him surprised when he looked up and down the hall.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

"Err...nothing, I can't help you right now sorry." he said.

"Please it's only my garbage disposal." Savannah pleaded but before Morgan could answer Alex did.

"Why don't you go Morgan? I'll take a bath and lock the door I'm fine." she said and gave Savannah a short wave who nodded and waved back.

"Err…you sure you don't need help-" Alex laughed shortly.

"Help with what? You should start thinking about what you say, I don't tend to bath in clothes Morgan." with that she turned and left him standing there feeling incredibly stupid.

"Okay I'll be back in a second." he said closed the door and followed his neighbor into her apartment.

"Who was that?" she asked.

"A colleague and friend, she is staying with me until we catch her husband." he answered, he still felt terrible that they hadn't noticed anything before Alex landed in the hospital and that they hadn't been able to catch James yet.

"Oh my…and he did this to her? Poor thing, who'd expect that something like that would happen to an FBI Agent."

"It could happen to every women, but that she is an FBI Agent and that we didn't notice something makes it only worse. So what's the problem?" he asked and then looked at her garbage disposal and repaired it.

"Thank you, really, you're the best, when you need anything just ask yeah?" she said when he left.

"No problem I will." he said and went back into his apartment, again he looked up and down the hall then he went in and locked the door again. Morgan turned and walked to the bathroom just as he opened his mouth to call out if Alex was alright something hit the back of his head and everything turned black.

While Morgan took Alex to his apartment JJ and Spencer left to drive to the BAU. On the ride there JJ noticed that Spencer was awfully quiet and when they waited on the elevator she started to speak up.

"Spence?" she asked and looked at him, but Spencer didn't even look at her.

"I liked him…I told her she could be happy that she was with him, that she had someone who cared for her and that she was lucky…and he did this to her. He not only beaten and-and raped her, he murdered their child. She never told me that she was-…she once mentioned she would like to be a mother, but it simply wasn't supposed to be…" he told his friend and sighed he felt so guilty.

"Spencer, you couldn't have known, none of us, Alex knew how to keep it a secret and she knew how to behave and what to do so we wouldn't suspect a thing. And we are going to make him pay for what he did. So try and focus on finding him, so Alex can recover." JJ said.

"I know…still".

"Yeah I know how you feel. We talked a lot lately, I was often with her and I too noticed nothing, but if we want to make it up to her we have to end her nightmare and send him to prison!" she said and Reid nodded. He wouldn't stop until James was locked away and Alex could live in piece again.

When they walked into the conference room they stopped as soon as they saw what a crying Garcia was putting on the board. Pictures of Alex showing her bruises and what she had went through. JJ swallowed and walked in.

"Hey, how is she?" Garcia asked.

"High on pain killers, otherwise she couldn't have walked out of the hospital. But Morgan is going to protect her."

"Where are Hotch and Rossi?" Reid asked his voice free of emotions as he forced himself to look at the white board. As they had been taken immediately after she had arrived at the hospital they looked even worse than when Spencer saw them on Alex when she laid in her bed after being cleaned up.

"They are at the Police Station and fill them in on the search for James in Virginia and DC." she answered.

"I don't know, the only place I could think of where he would go is the hospital…we should go there again and ask his colleagues." JJ suggested and Reid nodded.

"You're right, let's go." Reid sat and soon they were on their way.

Once at the hospital they got a hold of the nearest nurse.

"Excuse me, do you know Dr. James Blake?" JJ asked and they showed her their badges.

"Oh…yeah but he isn't working today." she answered.

"Okay, do you often work with him?"

"Yeah kinda, why?" she asked confused.

"Do you know his wife Alex Blake?" the nurse gulped and looked away.

"Saw her once…or twice." she said looking like an animal driven in the corner. 'She knows' JJ thought and instantly she switched to bad Agent mode.

"Listen to me carefully, I'll only ask you this once, did you know that she was abused by him?" she looked away.

"Answer." Reid said his tone even colder than JJ's.

"Yes…I-I nearly everyone knows! But, he is the chief physician he would fire us all, if we said something! I-I can't lose this job I have a little boy and-" JJ's glare made her stop.

"So you kept quiet while this woman went through hell every day? You just looked away when she was in here? Nearly beaten to death and raped by your boss? You could've reported it anonymously, instead you made that worst of the worst choices and did nothing, you have child? She would have had one too if he hadn't murdered it!" JJ hissed and slowly stepped closer with every word.

"JJ…" Reid warned.

"Who did he spend the most time with?" JJ continued.

"Dr.-Dr. Paxton, they're best friends." the nurse answered and JJ and Reid shared a glance.

"Where is Dr. Paxton now?" Reid asked.

"I think on the second floor."

"Bring us to him." the nurse nodded and the three of them just made their way to the second floor and into a small lounge like room for Doctors.

"He's on the sofa." the nurse said and pointed to a middle aged man reading a book.

"FBI everybody leaves the room, Now! Except for you Dr. Paxton." JJ said loud and the three other doctors and one other nurse left the room.

"You don't have to say why you here, I already know…" he said and looked at the clock, which made both JJ and Reid share a questioning glance.

He reached into his scrubs and pulled out a piece of paper and gave it JJ "He gave me this and said to show it to you, he has a friend at the Mercy East Hospital and in the police department, it only took two calls." when she unfolded the paper and read it she gasped. 'Oh No!'

"What does it say?" asked Reid.

"He knows Morgan's address! He knows she's there!" they wasted no time and ran out of the room.

"You know it's already too late, you won't get there in time!" Dr. Paxton called after them and laughed. 'Fuck, fuck, fuck, we've been so dump! So incredibly dump, please if there has ever been a god don't let us be too late! Don't let her pay because of us' JJ though as she and Spencer sprinted to the car.

When Morgan woke up he needed a couple of second to remember where he was and what had happened. Then he noticed that he sat on a chair and that he couldn't move! He looked down and saw that he was tightly tied to the chair and then he remembered he had been knocked out by something- he was here!

"Alex!-" but before he could say more, something was stuffed in his mouth and before he could spit it out, a piece of duct tape was placed over his mouth and James stepped in front of him grinning.

"Hello, hello," Morgan glared at him, "You though you could protect her didn't you? Damn you were wrong buddy." James chuckled and shook his head. Morgan's jaw clenched tight, that bastard, had he found Alex or had she been able to hide in the bathroom? He looked around causing James to grin he then walked behind him and then he threw Alex on the floor in front of Morgan.

"You're looking for my dirty whore?" he whispered in his ear and Morgan turned his head a way and looked at Alex who tried to catch her breath "You wanna see what I like most?" Morgan looked at him with hate in his eyes.

He fought against his bonds "Don't you dare to touch her you son of a bitch!" he screamed but all came out where some muffled sounds. James pulled Alex up by her shirt and hit her across the face so that she fall back to the floor and Morgan clenched his hands into fists.

"You know what's really funny?" he asked and laid his hands around her throat and choked her, Alex tried to fight him of and pulled at his hands while she tried to breathe. He stood and pulled the gasping Alex up.

"Please James stop, I'm sorry please stop…let him go he's got nothing to do with it! I'll come home, I'll be good I promise, I won't ever leave again!" she begged but he just took the lamp beside the sofa and stated beating her with it, she didn't scream out just winced and whimpers of pain. He finally stopped when Alex was only a shaking, bleeding bundle on the floor.

Morgan breathed heavily trying to get his temper under control. "Hey I'm doing this for you so you better watch!" he said and kicked Alex hard and she gasped for air.

"James…please…I'll do everything…please stop…" he hit her again blood sprayed across the floor.

He bend down and stroked over her cheek whipping some blood off. He took a piece of glass and cut her cleavage. Then punched her again this time she threw up blood and watched her writhe on the floor.

"Do you remember this night four years ago Darling? You screamed so much, it was great…did you actually feel her dying inside you?" he asked and Morgan watch as Alex started crying on the floor. "I'm really sorry for not getting you pregnant again…maybe now we can make another one?" Morgan narrowed his eyes but when he saw the fear on Alex's face he understood. No! No not in front of him! He screamed and thrashed around shaking his head frantically.

"No! Please James, don't do this please, no, no, no." she begged but he pulled her towards him and began to pull her pants off and when she tried to fight he hit her across the face. Morgan looked at her face, 'I'm so sorry Alex! I failed you.' he though and tried to show it through his eyes.

'Look away' she mouthed at him and he swallowed and closed his eyes. Morgan thought he had to throw up as he heard how James began to rape his friend.

"Hey watch, or I kill her! You want me to kill her?" James demanded, Morgan opened his eyes but tried not to look directly at them. He could still see Alex moving along with his brutal thrusts while she laid motionless under him and just let it happen and he tried to shut the sound out. When James finally finished he stood and dressed but then bend down again and hit her with the back of his hand. He then collected some of Alex' blood from her chest and made dots on Derek's cheeks so it look like tears before he smeared the rest on his neck.

"Sorry, time to go, was fun meeting you." he walked back to Alex grabbed a hand full of her hair and pulled her away leaving behind a trail of blood. For a moment Derek didn't know what that was about, he only wanted to kill him now, no police, no trail, no jail…he wanted him dead. Then he understood what he was about to when he heard splashing. 'He is drowning her!'

She was barely conscious, she couldn't hear or see and didn't know what he would do now, she only wanted to die, to be gone, no more pain, she couldn't take it anymore. Then he lifted her up and let her fall down but she didn't hit the ground, she fell into water.

The tub. She was going to die in a tub! She struggled but it was useless he held her head underwater, he pulled her up again and as Alex gasped for air an almost unbearable pain shot through her body. The next second her head was underwater again. Would her mother be there? Her big brother how always protected her? Her precious, little daughter? She hoped so, she hoped dearly that they were waiting there.

Her lungs were on fire and she gave up. She gave up and wanted to die now, she had went through enough pain, she wanted to have piece. So Alex stopped fighting and just let the water fill her lungs, fill her head and before everything went black there was pleasant numbness in her body, then nothing, except darkness and she smiled.

The End?

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