A short poem I wrote from Vash's point of view after watching the last few episodes of Trigun. I've only been into this anime for a short time, but I must say that Vash the Stampede is the most interesting, albeit complicated character I've ever come across. Trying to delve into his psyche is like trying to penetrate solid concrete! Oh well, I did my best, and maybe I'll get better as time goes on. One can only hope. Oh, and before I forget, Happy Thanksgiving!

I Could Pretend by LadyBuG

Sometimes I hear her voice playing with the air

I look up into the sky

And for a moment

I almost believe I see her standing there

I reach out for her

Call to her

Of course she's already gone

and in her wake there's nothing

but a colorless blur

What more is there for me to give?

I deserve nothing, I know

I deserve nothing

and that includes the right to live

I know I shouldn't stay

But I've gotten so used to

their company. . .

I don't know if I'd have the will

to turn around and walk away

It used to be so easy to shun off their

attempts at friendship

Yet somehow they became my reality

A reality I'm too afraid to ignore

and too afraid to really grip

I don't want to let go

I don't want to forget what I was taught

How can I live any other way

When she's the only way I've ever know?

Maybe I could pretend nothing is wrong

maybe I could pretend nothing else exists

beyond my bedroom door

Maybe I could pretend I hear a whisper that tells me

This is where I belong

I could pretend

But I can't

So I won't