A/N: Hi, kids. If you're wondering why I'm referring to you as kids, it's because Leo McGarry left a lasting impression on my heart, as well as my lexicon.

This story is an AU set during the final stages of Bartlet's reelection, had Donna taken the job with the internet startup offered to her in the episode Night Five.

Though it is one of many in a long list of unfinished fics, if you guys like it, I'll get around to continuing it. Someday... Somewhere... Somehow... We'll find a new way of living!

Sorry, when the moment presents itself, a West Side Story/West Wing joke must be made.

Disclaimer: I do not own these characters. They own me.

Reviews: Aw, shucks, y'all. You know I'm a sucker for your wise words of critique and compliment.

Rating: T? I think I use the F word once or twice?

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"Did he offer you money?"

"Yes."

"Well, all I can offer you is a title bump."

"Like what?"

"Senior Assistant to the Deputy Chief of Staff for Policy."

"...That's my current title."

"Oh. Well then I guess I can't offer you a title bump."

She'd gone back to work, doing the same menial tasks she'd done day in and day out for the past four years. She watched him grow smitten with Amy. And it was then that she realized that he really didn't have anything to offer her, anymore.

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She gave him her two weeks notice, and the time flew by. She expected him to do something, to try to convince her to stay, to guilt her even. But he didn't. He withdrew completely, hardly speaking to her. She thought that maybe it was better that way; better that they part now then drift apart in agonizing slow motion.

She'd hoped that they could still be friends. But that had been far-fetched to begin with.

Her new job was exciting, and a complete change of pace. The internet start up's office was lazy and creative, filled with intelligent people in casual clothes, people who didn't worry about what the majority of Americans had to say about them in the latest polling data. Predictably, Donna excelled there.

Within a matter of months, she was snatched up by a Congressman's reelection committee, and she couldn't resist the opportunity to get back into politics. It had started with a job running their online campaign, but soon she'd been promoted to a high-ranking PR position. She weighed in on policy issues, and quickly grew into her place on the team. They loved her.

On occasion, she missed her old job. There was something about the White House; the patriotism, the loyalty and idealism... It filled your heart fit to burst. She missed the President and his staff, particularly CJ and Sam. They spoke on occasion.

Did she miss Josh? She didn't like to think about that.

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It was October 2nd, 2002.

The office was running full-throttle, with the election just around the corner. She'd been assigned about four thousand things to do that morning, and had only just gotten around to sitting down at ten o'clock that night. The only thing she had left was the report on their most recent ad-buy, and she was determined to finish it quickly in order to actually get some sleep tonight. She was about halfway through when an intern, Drew, knocked on her door.

"Ms. Moss?"

"Mm?" She hardly looks up, chewing on her pen.

"There's a guy here to see you."

"What does he want?"

"He's, uhh, from the White House."

She groans. This would be a treat. The White House had endorsed their candidate, and therefore felt they had the right to tell him what to do, what to say, how to act, probably even what to eat for breakfast. She shakes her head, glaring down at her report. "Tell him that I'm busy, and that if he's got a problem with the Congressman's speech on Wednesday, he can shove it."

"Hey, Donna."

She knew that voice.

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He stands stiffly in her doorway, hands in his pockets. He's wearing a long coat over his suit, and she gathers that he must've just gotten off work. His eyes are dark.

Realizing that her mouth is slightly ajar, she snaps it shut. She stands abruptly, gesturing awkwardly. "Come in."

He strolls a couple steps further into the office, and Drew glances between them confusedly. She doesn't really feel like making introductions, so she dismisses him with a simple "Thanks, Drew."

When the door is shut behind him, she crosses her arms. She waits for him to say something, but he merely watches her, expression unreadable.

"Umm, take your coat off. Sit down."

He chuckles a little as he shrugs off his coat. "Where?"

She gazes around the disaster zone of an office that she shares with another communications worker, Jen, who'd gone home for the night. Donna rolls her eyes as she moves Jen's chair out in front of her desk. "Like your office is much better."

His expression sobers as he takes a seat, and she fears she's said something wrong. "It really isn't, these days." He replies softly.

She scrutinizes his appearance as he leans back in the chair, trying as hard as he possibly could to look disinterested. He'd lost weight; a suit that would've normally been baggy is now hardly holding onto him. The shadows under his eyes were to be expected this close to election day, but god... Had he been sleeping at all?

But it wasn't her job to look after him, anymore. "Why are you here?"

He looks unsurprised by her harsh tone, but she hadn't meant it to come across as such. She winces.

"Leo sent me."

"He did?"

"Yeah."

Since when had their reelection campaign warranted enough attention from the White House to garner a meeting with the Deputy Chief of Staff, Leo's right hand man? The odds were pretty clearly in their favor, and if the White House wanted to bully them on policy, it was strange that they'd take the time and resources to do so before The President had even been reelected.

"Why?"

"He, uhh..." Josh shifts uncomfortably in the folding metal chair, scuffing one of his ears with a hand. "We're really busy, these days, you know. With the election."

She gives him a pointed look. "Really? I wouldn't have figured."

She watches his eyes rake the room casually, alighting on the "Days to Election" countdown calendar on the left side wall. He attempts a small smile. "Yeah, I thought it wouldn't really have crossed your mind."

"Josh..." She takes a deep breath. She hadn't thought of it much, but it had actually been quite some time since she'd said his name. "What does the fact that you're busy have to do with Leo sending you here?"

He raises his eyebrows. "Oh, I... That does seem rather counterproductive on his part, doesn't it?"

She furrows her brow. "I don't know. Does it?"

"I guess that depends on..."

"Why he sent you." She finishes, and he nods distractedly. Instead of supplying a reason, he merely watches her, his head on a hand. For a moment, she thinks his expression might be wistful. A stab of her own nostalgia constricts her chest for a moment.

"You look good, Donna."

She looks away, a bit of heat rushing to her face. She resents that he can still do that to her; with a glance, with a few words. "Why did Leo send you to see me, Josh?"

"Ah, well..." He smiles wryly, looking down at his lap. He takes his time in answering, drawing a large breath to bolster himself. "Apparently, I've been a wreck since you left."

She purses her lips. "That's the consensus?"

He nods, finally making eye contact. "I guess so."

She stands abruptly, and walks around her cluttered desk. She grabs her bag, not bothering to stick the report inside. "Grab your coat. Let's go get a drink."

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"How you been?" His expression is timid, and she can't say that she blames him. Were they to act like strangers, as if they hadn't once been closer to each other than anyone else who might've laid claim? Were they to act as though they still were? She hopes the bartender will hurry with their drinks.

"I've been... Good." It wasn't a lie, per se. Professionally, she was doing better than ever. "What about you?"

"Me? I've been great. It's all been one big walk in the park since you left the West Wing, Donna Moss. All roses and buttercream frosting." He gives her a smirk that she wishes was genuine.

"I'm glad." She smiles softly; she'd never envisioned herself missing his sarcasm.

The bartender arrives with their drinks, and it's a while before either of them speaks again. In fact, by the time he speaks, Josh has finished a tumbler of gin, which worries her. He rarely drank hard alcohol; it was usually all cheap beer and "pansy-ass" cocktails.

"So I heard you were seeing Mike Casper."

She doesn't look at his expression, preferring to blow bubbles in her drink like a four-year-old. "I was."

"Was?"

"Was."

"So, you're not..."

"Well, generally speaking, Joshua, when people use the word was, it's to indicate past tense." What had made her believe that, in any realm, this would be a good idea? Her tone softens. "I'm not seeing him, anymore."

She thinks that he smiles. "Why'd you dump him?"

"What makes you think I did?"

"Cause." He taps his glass on the counter as the bartender walks past, and the man collects it to pour him another. "Only idiots break up with you. And Mike's not an idiot. So, deductive reasoning, you dumped him."

She supposes that this could be construed as a little bit sweet. "Okay. You got me. I broke up with Mike Casper."

"Why?"

That was a good question. He'd been good to her, kind and funny as well. He was definitely interesting, an FBI agent, and she liked him well enough. But by the time she'd started spending a couple nights a week at his place, by the time it was a given that they call each other and discuss plans for the evening... The prospect of seeing him at the end of a long day only seemed like it would make it longer. "It just... Didn't work out."

He gazes at her intensely, but she refuses to meet his eyes. Eventually, he breaks off to take a gulp of his drink. "Yeah, okay."

She doesn't know what possesses her to say, "Besides, I've heard you've been sleeping your way through Washington."

He snorts. "Have you?"

"I have."

"Yeah, well, I cut that out a month or two ago."

"Mm. Did you?" She stirs the last ounce of her drink idly.

"Yeah. Accidentally slept with a campaign donor's wife."

It's her turn to laugh.

"And another one's daughter."

"So Leo sat you down for a, erm, heart-to-heart?"

For some unbeknownst reason, they're both grinning like his unfortunate one night stands are the most humorous thing in the world. "More of a verbal spanking, really, but yeah. And it's not one I'm keen to relive any time soon."

She giggles, hunched over the counter. He just watches her laugh, and it's her smile that causes his.

When her laughter subsides, she props one elbow up on the bar, resting her cheek on her hand and turning to face him. "So I'll take it you broke up with Amy."

"Yeah. She dumped my sorry ass."

"Why?"

"Well, apparently - and these are her words, not mine - apparently, I missed you too much. Apparently, I was too focused on the fact that you weren't there, instead of on the fact that she was."

She rolls her eyes. "Apparently," she mocks.

He ignores her. "But, I dunno, I just think... I dunno. She didn't do much for me, in terms of... Happiness."

She smiles slightly. "And your hundred and one conquests did?"

He smirks. "No."

"Well. Lesson learned."

"Yeah." He takes another drink, tired eyes already slightly drooping.

She refuses to let this be the sole direction of the conversation. "How's the campaign going?"

He practically groans, rubbing one eye. "God. Stressful. Hectic. We've gotta hold down the fort in Washington, we've gotta travel the country, we've gotta govern, and campaign, and it's all down to the wire... Virginia's flipping, ya know, I keep telling Bruno to pull funding, but he thinks we've got a chance. It'd be better to put it in the Midwest, you seen the numbers out there? But he won't budge. We're just so... God."

She watches him sadly. She'd seen him like this too many times. "Bruno's still running the show?"

"I miss you." He says abruptly, in place of answer. She sits up suddenly, and he registers her surprise. "I mean, it's not just hearsay, is what I'm saying. It's not just Amy, or Leo, or CJ... I do miss you."

She purses her lips. "You do have a new assistant, don't you?"

"No, I do, but that's not what I..." He trails off. After a moment, his eyes lock on to hers, clearer than before. "For one, she doesn't do half the job you did, but mostly... I miss your laugh."

She furrows her brow. "You miss... my laugh?"

"I miss your laugh, I miss your smile... I miss your voice. I miss you arguing with me, I miss you not bringing me coffee, I miss your jokes and your nagging and seeing you dressed up for functions. Your bad handwriting. I miss... Everything about you."

She sits stiffly, primly, trying vainly not to be affected by the truly earnest quality in his voice, in his eyes. "Josh..."

"You want to know why I miss everything about you?"

She expects him to make a jarring comment about how she left him, how it's all her fault, but she figures she deserves it. "Why?"

He shrugs. "Because I like everything about you."

He says it so simply, so matter-of-factly that she's taken aback. He doesn't notice her reaction, merely taking another sip of gin.

"You haven't called."

He doesn't look up. "Neither have you."

She supposes that this is fair enough. "Josh, you don't look well."

He raises his head in surprise. "No?"

"No."

"Well, as you said, I've been sleeping my way through Washington, so somebody's gotta disagree."

She frowns. "You look so... tired. You've lost weight."

"Been working out..."

"No, you haven't." She's not taking his cute answers. "You've been overworking yourself, and you've been skipping meals. I know you, Josh."

He's affected by her last statement. He admits defeat, gazing darkly into the last dregs of his drink. "Yeah. You do."

Her next remark is out of her mouth before she has time to consider the implications. "You should let me cook you dinner."

A smile spreads across his face. "You? Cook me dinner?"

"Yeah. What's so funny about that?"

"God, Donna, I should be the one making you dinner."

She considers this; it's true enough. They both had a lot to make up to one another. "Then let's cook dinner together."

"Mm?" He raises his eyebrows.

"Let's cook together, and eat together. It'd be even, that way."

He starts to smile again, utterly amused by the proposition. "You and me? Cooking? Yeah, okay."

"I'm serious."

"I am too."

"Are you free tomorrow night?" She pulls out her wallet, leaving enough money on the counter for both of their drinks.

"I am."

"I am too."

"Okay."

"Come on." She grabs his arm and pulls him off his stool; she wasn't leaving until she was sure that he was going home.

They walk out onto the street, heading toward the corner at which they'll part ways. It's cold out, tonight, and their breath fogs the air. "I'll call you."

He looks at her sideways. She hasn't removed her hand from his arm. "Will you?"

"Yeah."

He smiles.

They stop on the corner, in the dim glow of the streetlights. "Get some sleep, okay?"

"Yeah." He nods unconvincingly, taking a step into the street as the walk signal comes on. "You too."

"Goodnight, Josh."

"Godspeed, Donnatella."

She watches him walk across, rooted to the spot. As he reaches the other side, she's seized by an impulse. "Hey, Josh!"

He turns at her shout. "What?"

It's absurd, they're shouting across a four lane intersection, but she replies anyway. "I've missed you, too!"

A slow smirk starts on his face, the characteristic dimples forming. "Everything about me?"

She looks away, shrugging. When she looks back, it's with a coy smile. "Most things."

He continues on his way, grinning like an idiot.

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"Donna, are you okay?"

"Mm?"

Her coworker, Jen, watches her with slight concern. They're in their shared office, made cramped by the two of them and their mass paper load, and the close quarters make it easy, if not inevitable, that they keep tabs on one another.

"You seem kind of distracted today."

"Oh, I'm just... Sorry. Not bothering you, am I?"

"Don't be sorry." Jen says curiously. "You're not bothering me, I'm just wondering... What's bothering you, that's all."

Donna attempts a smile. Jen really is a sweet woman. "I'm just... Thinking about merry-go-rounds."

If anything, Jen's concern heightens. "...Merry-go-rounds?"

"Merry-go-rounds and hurricanes."

Jen abandons her work altogether, angling back in her chair to get a better look at her friend. "Why?"

"Because I made a phone call this morning."

"About... Merry-go-rounds and hurricanes?"

"No."

"Oh, good. Didn't think we were tracking those issues."

Donna smiles distractedly. Her gaze wanders, and she picks up her pen for the sole purpose of chewing on it. "Ya know how some people are like, disasters?"

Jen furrows her brow. "Sure."

"But it's... It's all-consuming. The disaster. And it's fun, it's exciting, it's... And then you finally get off the merry-go-round, and you've stopped spinning, and you're a little bit dizzy, and you think, okay. I'm done. No more. But then... you start to miss it. You think you'll just have one more go, one more whirl and you'll have had your quota, but... suddenly it's four years later and you're still on the damn merry-go-round."

"And the hurricane-"

"It also spins, you know? And you like the rain, sure, but a hurricane? There's something magnificent about all that madness, about high speed winds and trees falling down, but the damage is... Jen, it's... I made a phone call this morning."

Jen, beginning to understand her friend's state of mind, smiles slightly. "To a hurricane?"

Donna's gaze returns to her coworker. "Yeah."

"And you're back on the merry-go-round?"

She shrugs helplessly, biting her pen again. "Should I be?"

"Do you want to be?"

"I..."

"Look, there's gotta be a reason you wanted to get back on, you know? If it excites you, if it makes you happy, maybe that is what you should be doing. As for the damage, you're pretty good at cleaning up messes, you know? Just don't let yourself be collateral."

Donna appears somewhat bolstered by these words. "Hey... Thanks, Jen."

"Anytime."

They both hunch back over their paperwork, minds still on the brief dialogue. Jen breaks the silence, curiosity overtaking her.

"Is the man really like being on a merry-go-round in a hurricane?"

Donna looks up in surprise. Perhaps it had only been too clear what type of relationship she'd been talking about. She allows herself a bare smile. "He kind of is."

"At least you know life wouldn't be dull."

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"So, I, uhh... Where do we start?"

Donna gazes out across the supermarket. "Umm. I don't know."

The two of them stand stock still, in business clothes, in the entrance. They look entirely out of place, and perhaps a little bit overwhelmed.

"I guess it depends on what we're making."

"I guess it does." She smiles slightly, watching his expression. "What do you want to eat?"

"I dunno. What do you want to eat?"

She considers it for a moment. Decidedly, she heads over to grab a cart. "Pancakes."

Josh jogs to catch up. "Did you say... Pancakes?"

"And fruit salad, and bacon, and coffee, yes."

"For dinner?"

"Yes." She heads into the produce section.

"Ah-kay. Why?" He watches her pick up and knock on various cantaloupes to test their ripeness, torn between amusement and concern.

"Well, my guess is that your culinary skills still aren't the strongest."

"Actually, despite the rigorous campaign, I've taken the time out to attend cooking classes. There's a lot you don't know about me these days, Donna."

She rolls her eyes. "So we need to make something fairly easy."

"Because your cooking skills are, also, questionable at best?"

She sends him a glare. "Who cooked for you all throughout your recovery?"

"Mostly, my mother. Though I do recall you heating up some canned soup." He grins at her.

"Whatever. I have other skills, okay?"

"Uh-huh."

She grabs some berries, wending her way through the fruit crates. "Why don't you make yourself useful and go find the pancake mix?"

"We're not making them from scratch?"

"Josh."

"Right. Where do I go?"

She turns to find that his expression is slightly panicked. She forces down laughter, moving toward the deli. "Have you never been in a grocery store?"

"Ever? In the cumulative total of my existence? Yeah, sure, I've been to a grocery store..."

"As an adult?"

"Well..."

"I'll take that as a no."

"I get what I need."

"From a gas station?"

He glares at her. "Convenience store, Donnatella, don't demean me."

"Maybe you should just stick with me, pumpkin patch."

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"Now flip it."

"I don't think it's ready."

"It is."

"It isn't."

"Are you... You're burning it! You're doing that on purpose!"

"I'm letting it reach its full potential."

"You're sabotaging the pancakes!"

"You're being over-dramatic."

"It's turning into a hockey puck."

"Damn straight. I have the spatula, I make the rules."

"Tyrant."

"Don't worry, I'll only burn half of 'em."

"Well, great. The smoke alarm goes off, it's on you."

"My neighbors hate me already."

"Well, who doesn't?"

"You don't."

"Jury's still out. Get back to the damn pancakes."

"Yeah, yeah."

Concealing a wide grin, she carries the plate of bacon (that she'd salvaged from his blackening control) to the table. Upon returning to the kitchen, she opens the fridge to retrieve the toppings she'd bought.

"So we've got jam, whipped cream, butter, syrup..." She lines them up in bright array on the counter, but keeps the whipped cream in hand. She fidgets with the little tag for a moment before spraying some into her mouth.

Josh looks at her incredulously. "Did you just lick that?"

Grinning, she swallows massively. "Yupp."

He looks appalled. "You're disgusting."

She shrugs, still grinning. "Maybe."

He watches as she walks the other condiments out to his table and returns, once more taking a mouthful of whipped cream. He tries vainly not to focus on the way she licks her lips. He clears his throat. "Now how am I supposed to use that?"

She vaguely resembles the Cheshire Cat. "Want some?"

She holds it out teasingly, and he feigns disgust. "And contract your diseases? No thanks."

She widens her eyes innocently. "You didn't do this as a kid?"

"And risk the wrath of my mother? Nah."

"Your loss." She raises the can to her lips again. Honestly, she either had no idea what she was doing to him, or she did, and was incredibly cruel.

"Alright, pass me the damn whipped cream."

"Ah ah. Tilt your head back."

She approaches him, smiling.

"How do I know you won't-"

"Trust, Joshua. You do trust me, don't you?"

That was a good question, these days. Not a year ago, she'd up and left him without so much as an "it's been nice," and nothing since. Leo had told him in no uncertain terms that he needed to get it together, but he wasn't sure how he felt about letting her back into his life so readily. He hadn't been doing much to stop it, however, this evening.

He tilts his head back.

She wraps one hand around the back of his neck, laughing as she "accidentally" sprays so much whipped cream into his mouth that he almost chokes. He doubles over, wiping a sleeve over his shameless grin, and it occurs to him quite suddenly that she doesn't work for him anymore.

"You're the worst."

"You have to get to know me."