NONE OF THIS BELONGS TO ME IT ALL BELONGS TO J.K ROWLING EXCEPT THE NEW CHARACTERS THEY ARE MINE ALONG WITH THE PLOT LINE

I have changed the names in this story and decided I wanted to change it up a little. Most of it is like my original just with small changes along the way. I hope you enjoy this version

Pumpkin,

Hope you are doing ok dear. I just wanted to ask if and when you will be arriving for Christmas?, I also need to know if Harry will be able to come this year? I understand the complications with this, but I know it would be nice to see him and the kids would love it as well. your father won't stop moaning about how it will be three females against two males if he doesn't come. The children keep asking about him and you so if you could let us know that would be good. Now that is cleared up, How are your studies going? And when is it you graduate? I hope to hear from you soon Lyra and Matthew send their love and big hugs to you and Harry write back as soon as you can.

Love Mum.

Hermione was standing in the hallway between the front door and the kitchen in Grimmauld Place as She read the letter She had received from her mother. She couldn't help but smile at the way her father was moaning it made her smile to know some thing's wouldn't change, but she missed Matthew and Lyra so much that it hurt she knew she would be going home for Christmas.

But when she would be leaving, she was not sure of. She wasn't even sure if Harry could escape this year to come she was hoping They could work something out especially now Voldemort was gone. She let out a big sigh and rubbed her temples, but was startled out of her thoughts when she felt someone poke her sides.

Harry was looking for Hermione when he saw her in the hall with a piece of paper he knew it was from Helen Hermione's mother when the owl had arrived. She got up and left to read it, he could see she was clearly thinking and in her own world.

He couldn't resist making her jump even if he would regret it later, he walked up behind her as quietly as he could when he got there he poked a finger into each of her sides he knew she was ticklish on her sides and couldn't help but laugh when Hermione jumped and cursed he always found it amusing when she would curse.

Hermione swung around and slapped him in the shoulder ''Bloody hell Harry Potter! you scared the life out of me'' when she saw him laughing, she hit him again ''Don't you laugh, Harry Potter it is not funny'' she gave her best glare but soon chuckled with him.

Harry laughed when she hit him and smiled when she ended up laughing with him ''So how's your mum, are the kids ok? is Lyra ok?'' he asked with concern etched on his face and in his tone of voice.

Hermione smiled at him and the concern in his voice. ''Yes Mum is fine, she was just asking when I would be arriving, how Uni was going and when was my graduation. She also asked if you would be coming this year father has been moaning again, about how it isn't fair with all the females against him and both Matthew and Lyra are fine They send us their love.'' She smiled at him when she saw him relax. ''So you want to come I think we could come up with a plan.''

Harry relaxed when he knew both the children were fine and chuckled at her father he understood what he meant, though it was hard to get their own way when he Hermione's father and Matthew were the Only males but at least it would make it equal three males and three females. he smiled at her he would love to go ''Yeah I want to come. Of course I do, what can we say to them though?''

Hermione smiled at him. ''We will think of something. I mean it's not as if Voldemort is a threat any more.''

Harry nodded and they continued talking about the letter and Christmas along with some ideas of what to tell everyone when they were interrupted by someone clearing their throat they both turned and relaxed slightly they were pleased that they hadn't been talking about anything important. When Hermione smiled and spoke, ''Hey Ron''

Ron was just walking around the table when he noticed both Hermione and Harry wasn't around, he also noticed his sister sulking when he asked ''You seen Harry or Mione.''

Ginny just glared at him and snapped ''No Ronald the last I saw of him he left to go look for Hermione.'' she said Hermione's name in a childish voice.

Ron just raised his eyebrow at his sister and narrowed his eyes to himself when he walked to the door and looked out he spotted both Harry and Hermione talking they looked quite close and seemed to be in a deep discussion, he did not like that he walked up and looked and smiled at Hermione when she spoke to him ''Hey what you both doing out here seemed serious with how out of it you both were anything wrong?'' he tried and hoped he kept that he was jealous out when he spoke.

Hermione and Harry smiled, but it was Harry who spoke ''No nothing serious Ron just Mione got a letter from her mother asking if and when she would be going home for Christmas, I was just hoping she would stay here for once.'' he hoped he sounded convincing and relaxed a bit when he saw Ron just nod.

Ron listened to what Harry was saying then shrugged and nodded ''Oh right, so you staying then Mione? or you off home again?'' He tried to keep the board tone out of his voice.

Hermione smiled at Ron she was glad he bought Harry's story. ''No sorry, I very rarely get to see my parent's Ron you know that. And when the war was going on I didn't get to see them period, I even cut contact and hid them if you can remember so they would be safe. And now the war is over I want to make the most of it plus when I graduate I am going to be living and getting a job here in the Wizarding world, I couldn't go back to the Muggle world now it would be too tough and not just that, but I have no qualifications and wouldn't get a job.''

She hoped it had worked and most of it was true, okay so she wasn't lying as such she wouldn't be returning to the Muggle world when she graduated she would be living and working in the Wizarding world and she did want to make the most of her time with her parents. Only she had complications with it all and there was no way she was going to reveal it to anyone unless it was a last resort.

Ron sighed again, but nodded in understanding and smiled at them both as he still felt jealous of how close both Harry and Hermione where he didn't like it, but he was relieved to see that they were just discussing Her parents that didn't interest him anyway. ''I understand, anyway come on you too everyone was asking where you are and Ginny is missing you I think Harry.'' he tried to make the last part sound like a joke.

Harry and Hermione both shrugged their shoulders and followed Ron into the kitchen they all sat together Harry next to Ginny and Hermione in the middle of both Harry and Ron.

Hermione felt sorry for Ginny, she liked Harry everyone knew that from her very first year she made it obvious.

But Harry didn't see Ginny in a romantic way he only saw her as a friend she knew how that felt she had a sneaky feeling that Ron wanted to be more than friends, he had made not so subtle hints on occasions but there was no way she could be anything other than friend's with him.

She never saw him in that way, one he wasn't her type and they had nothing in common he wanted a house wife and someone to raise the next Weasley brood. That would not work for her they would end up killing each other! and then there was her complicated life her much to complicated life to even contemplate a relationship. She would like one but she could never find the time nor did she feel she would be good company at the moment.

She also knew that Ron wasn't mature enough to understand or be able to handle her situation, hell even she struggled with her own situation and complications, no they could never be more than friends it would be like Ron kissing Ginny it would be wrong.

An hour later they had all eaten their lunch that Molly had prepared and everyone was off doing their own thing or talking Harry watched as Ron and Ginny had left because Molly had asked for their help he looked around to make sure that no one was listening or would ever hear when he turned to Hermione. ''Mione I was just thinking, I know you don't want too, but I really think it would be a good idea if we told someone about Matthew and Lyra like McGonagall or Dumbledore you know they will help both of us and they would be able to sort it so I could come with you more often.''

He had talked about this many times with her and she would never budge, he was hoping that now with Voldemort gone she would reconsider he hated to see what it was doing to her.

Hermione looked at Harry she appreciated what he was trying to do, but she couldn't face them knowing the truth, especially everyone else and it was still dangerous as far as she was concerned.

''Harry we talked about this before I can't tell them I just can't, they would be disgusted in me and it is still too dangerous then everyone else would have to find out and I do not need to be judged or punished I am being punished enough.''

Harry shook his head she could be so stubborn at times. ''Yes I know that, but Voldemort is gone Mione, yes there are still some death eaters out there who would love to make us pay, but it is highly likely that they would attempt anything because they wouldn't want to risk being caught and sent to Azkaban, there are Aurors searching all the time you and I both know that. No one would have to find out just yet, I'm sure we can keep it between us Dumbledore and McGonagall. Think how much easier it will be for you no one would punish you they would understand and Lyra's illness has nothing to do with you being punished! that's just stupid and you know it.'' Harry said, his voice very stubborn he looked at her and hated what it was doing to her his sister, his only family in his eyes he could see it was destroying her it broke and destroyed him too.

Hermione shook her head, she couldn't risk it, she wouldn't ''Yes but it is still a risk what if they were to take Matthew and Lyra as punishment to hurt me even you I can't take that risk? besides it is my fault Harry. Lyra is sick because of me, I should be able to cure her I am a witch for heaven's sake! they have potions for everything and they can be made like the Cruciatus potion cure both me and Severus invented.''

''Yes I know, but it is not your fault Mione it is nature you know that deep down you are punishing yourself. I mean think about it and I mean really think about it you're going to graduate soon and you're going to have masteries in two major fields, you will find a job and be making plenty of money and we could have the kids stay here with us think how good that would be think how the kids would feel being with you permanently .''

Hermione sighed, she knew what Harry was saying was the truth and she was just trying to avoid it knowing that when people knew the truth, it will become even more of a reality at least if she keeps it a secret she can try to pretend the situation wasn't real, she looked at Harry the boy she had been friends with for nine years come the new year and who is important and a brother to her in every way but blood. ''I know that Harry, the kids would love this all of it. But think of the situation. I bring them here and people will find out not only our friends but the whole Wizarding world! we are followed all the bloody time they would not be left alone, they would be eventually criticized or made into something they're not. Being the children of the war Heroine, third member of the golden Trio, best friend to Harry Potter The-boy-who-lived-to-kill-Voldemort-twice and the brains behind the Trio, think how they would be followed and harassed.''

Hermione sighed ''Then you got Ron, you know, and I know full well that he would not take this well. And he would go off on one like he always does, it would be a lot of hassle and stress. It wouldn't be fair to put them through all that, it's bad enough we have to put up with it, but bringing them here would be making their lives not only miserable and the perfect target if someone wished to get to me, it would ruin their childhood like ours was.''

Hermione finally sighed she would love them to be with her more than anything everything she did was to make sure they would be fine and looked after. ''And I would be slandered more than usual because I am an unmarried witch it isn't common in the Wizarding world.''

Harry sighed, he hated to admit it, but he knew what Hermione was also saying was the truth they would be followed and would be expected to follow in her footsteps if they did anything, it would be relayed back to Hermione and the kids would be ridiculed and attacked because they were the children of Hermione and then there was Ron he knew all to well how childish and immature Ron could be and that could prove a challenge and daunting task it's self and there was Lyra and her illness to think about it was like Hermione said it wouldn't be fair to put her through that nor Matthew. ''Yes ok your right I know but I hate what this is doing to you Mione, it is killing you, it tears you apart, having to leave them behind and only seeing them during holidays or speaking through letter's, we could make it work. As for Ron I know what you mean but that's just him, he will never change and he will eventually cool down, he always does, and if he doesn't well then that's his problem.''

''I know that Harry but this would seal the deal he would never understand, he won't want to and he will never forgive and that will make my life hard if I am having to fight him at every corner, it wouldn't do the kids any good to be around all the arguing and the angry atmosphere they need peace and deserve Happiness. Ron won't forgive me nor you we both kept this from him for six years, almost seven, he will explode.''

Hermione finished talking and watched as Harry just nodded when she started to turn things over in her mind could I tell them? would they understand and that I couldn't do anything about it? would they hate me and there for taking it out on my kids? would Dumbledore even want to have this to deal with seeing as it would be nothing to do with the Order? Hermione was asking all the questions she was trying to make herself clear on this when her voice spoke again of course you can stupid, Dumbledore and McGonagall would help you they always have helped you. The others would understand you're just trying to sugar coat it and trying to avoid the real situation and that your daughter is sick, dying she will never get better you are punishing yourself and by doing that your punishing the kids, they would love to be around all this.

Hermione shook the thoughts from her head when she felt a hand on her shoulder, she turned to see that it was Professor McGonagall she was looking at her in concern and she could see that Harry looked confused as well. It was obvious she had been talking she cleared her head ''Oh sorry, what were you saying I was in my own world thinking about my exams you know me.'' she said hoping her voice sounded even.

Minerva looked down at her prize pupil and her favourite Gryffindor, she shook her head she was concerned about the girl she had noticed that around this time she was always edgy and in her own world she also noticed that Harry was the same and now she knew why ''Oh I was just asking if you was ok, you seemed to be frowning you know you will do fine with the exam's after all you are the brightest witch of our age. Me and Albus were talking and we wondered if we could speak with you in the living room.''

Hermione looked at Harry and saw the worry in his eyes, she also felt it too, she knew that something was up and that they possibly knew her secret. She decided that she couldn't get out of this if it was indeed to do with her situation, then she wouldn't lie, she couldn't do that, although it could still be about something else, she knew one thing and that was she wanted Harry with her, she looked back at her mentor and smiled ''Of course but I would like it if Harry could come anything you need to say can be said in front of him.''

Minerva looked at both Hermione and Harry and saw that there was no way around it, obviously Harry knew about this. ''I don't think that would be a problem Hermione we can have that chat now if you're ready?''

Hermione sighed and nodded, she looked at Harry and saw him standing up. ''Yes that's fine were finished eating anyway she motioned for the woman to go ahead of them, she saw the Headmaster leave as well, she and Harry both looked at each other they knew that the secret was out she wondered how she patted her pocket out of habit when she froze she put her hand on Harry's arm before they walked into the room she saw him look at her in concern and gasped ''The letter...I must have dropped it or something. I don't have it, Albus or Minerva must have found it and they are going to wonder about the children they know I do not have siblings Harry at least I hope they have found It I would rather them than Ron.''

Harry eyes widened in shock and he let out a sigh of relief ''I hope so too Ron finding out would be a disaster, look it will be fine if they know then we will deal with it we will be fine Hermione I am here with you all the way we stick together.'' Harry grabbed her hand and gave it a squeeze.

Hermione held her breath and took two deep ones in and out when she felt Harry squeeze her hand she smiled a nervous smile at him. She was glad that she had Harry to help her through this she nodded her head and allowed him to lead her into the room, they walked in and they both sat on the sofa while both Minerva and Albus took the chairs she couldn't help but want to bolt out the room she was glad Harry still had a hold of her hand she saw Minerva looking at her with concern and confusion when she looked at the headmaster she couldn't tell what he was thinking his eyes just looked blank this made her more nervous, when she heard him clear his throat still she knew now if they would be disappointed or disgusted in her she just decided to take what ever they would think of her.