Title: Official In Secret

Author: graylubitches

Disclaimer: Yuji Terajima owns Ace of Diamond.

Ace of Diamond/ダイヤのA Fanfiction ©graylubitches

All rights reserved.

Characters: Sawamura Eijun & Miyuki Kazuya

Genre: Romantic-Drama

Rated-T for Slightly Mature Themes and Content.

Summary: Because we are finally together, I should be happy. Miyuki Kazuya loved me back. So we should be going on lots of dates, trying out couple things. That's what I was hoping for. But that imagination was horrendously destroyed the minute he said,"Let's keep this 'us' a secret." How long can I last with this hide-and-go-seek? And when will there officially be a Kazuya in Eijun's life?

Prologue

...The callus, long fingers traced their way along his back, drawing shapes and unawaringly sending electrifying touches to the nerves–naivety is what you'd describe the movement–and hormonal growth is what you'd call the result.

The mind tells him to pull away and leave before he loses control, but the sense tells him he'd be idiotic if he complied. There are many things wrong with this scene. Many things not known, and are still disassembled in various areas. One being the indecent thoughts clawing his brain; two being the wrong set of time and place; and three being the possibility of his attempt to end up in failure.

Then he begins to wonder what had happened to them that led to such a situation—where he stands (barefooted) on the cold, tiled-floor facing a shut door, while the other male partner had his head leaning on his back for comfort. Oh, and of course, he does not forget the fact that this was all happening inside a compressed bathroom, while his baseball teammates are casually taking a bath on the other side of the wall.

Eijun had caught a glimpse of the shadow walking behind the wooden door (of the washroom) as he entered the room to take a dip in the bathtub. He had followed out of instincts after recognizing the person's smooth brown hair. With a towel dangling around his neck, and legs maneuvering him, he entered—but couldn't easily brush off the uneasiness that came knocking on his skull. The slumped shoulders and clenched fists of the figure told him that something was definitely wrong. And without even properly considering his actions, he had lifted a hand to be placed on the right shoulder of his battery partner. "Miyuki, what's the matter?"

The lad jolted in surprise—whether it was from the touch or from his husky voice—Eijun did not know.

Miyuki is his second-year senpai. His narcissistic, sarcastic, and occasionally in an intergalactic world catcher. Has odd perks with regards to receiving insults by laughing at them instead of feeling offended. He's a person full of ironies, and so mind-twisted that Eijun can't help but be annoyed with the guy. It's a challenge to calculate his personas out because from psychotically challenging your patience to suddenly becoming serious, intelligent and deep (with words) of a bastard that hides within himself; there's no exact way to know.

"Nothing. Now get out of here before someone sees us."

His hand faltered. The words came out in a rather harsh tone. And Eijun felt a tinge of pain in his chest, wondering how his catcher could to be so cold yet loving at other times. He guessed it would have been from their situation of not wanting anyone to know about their relationship. However, he couldn't shake the feeling off that Miyuki wasn't telling him something.

"A-Alright, I'll go then," he replied with sadden expression on his face. The brunet would have really liked to stay and be there for his boyfriend, but it seemed like the second-year boy wanted to be alone. And he didn't want to be a bother nor behave in a clinging way. "But if there's anything I can do for you-just-uhm... I'll be here."

He turned his heel to head out of the room but stopped midway after hearing the sound of the sliding doors to the spring bath being glided open.

"I NEED A BATH!" a recognizable third-year batter (Jun) complained. "Damn, Coach really made us run fifty laps because of the prank we pulled in the cafeteria."

"Who would have thought that Furuya and Kominato-kun would fall for the chocolate cake and then be sent to the hospital." Eijun's ears perked up at the voice of his pudding-lover of a roommate (Masuko).

"Ryo-chan is seriously gonna kill us!" The pitcher shivered at the thought after hearing what his other roommate (Kuramochi) had said.

"A run around the field is a good method to enhance our stamina," the captain claimed. "So it wasn't all that bad."

Eijun couldn't listen anymore. He felt the panic surging through his body and the only thoughts ramming in his head are: Shit, they're gonna find us. They're gonna know something is up between me and Miyuki. Ah, I shouldn't have followed him in here. Now it's too late to get out from this bathroom!

A sigh escaped from his mouth, and he began to ponder what Miyuki is thinking right now in such a situation. Will he get mad again? This is so my fault!

He wanted to laugh his way out from the awkward silence and deafen his ears from the voice of his senpais. But he didn't know if it was appropriate.

"Sawamura..." The whispering voice of his boyfriend hauled him out from his intellectual process as he slowly turned his head around. Though soon, he felt fingertips on his cheek which then moved his head back towards the door. "It's fine. Just stay here."

A pair of warm arms wrapped themselves around his waist that his heart definitely did not expect as it made a leap. And with it Eijun remained still, hoping that his radiating heat would comfort the other male. "And I'm sorry for my rudeness earlier." The breath left a vibrating and foggy feel on his ears. "I-I..uh-"

The smile couldn't be kept away now, and he found it fortunate that Miyuki's sight wouldn't be able to see it. "You don't have to explain yourself. I understand if you don't want to tell me. But you better be sorry...even though in the end; I forgive you."

With that—the callus, long fingers traced their way along his back, drawing shapes and unwaringly sending electrying touches to the nerves...

The one who confessed first was Sawamura Eijun.

"What's bugging you?"

"You've been bugging me."

"Hah!? What the hell did I do to you?"

"YOU have been occupying my head for the past few nights so I'm not getting any sleep at all."

"Idiot, how is that my fault? And why would you be having thoughts about me in the first place!"

"I don't know, but take responsibility."

"I have to? For what?"

"For my feelings. It's saying that I'm in love with you, Miyuki."

"...Say, you want to go out."

"Wait, what."

"Be my boyfriend."

"I would want to but how do I know that you're not just being dragged along with my pace? That you would only toy with me in the process?"

"You're the first fucking boy I ever asked out. What's there to doubt? And I too have been in love with you for quite awhile now, okay."

Then a deal by Miyuki Kazuya was made.

"Let's keep this 'us' a secret."

"What? Why?"

"It'd be too troublesome if the others find out about us."

"Are you scared of what they might think since we're both guys?"

"No, it's nothing like that. I just feel that if we were to date privately, it would help avoid the interferance of our teammates from getting into our business. Don't you feel the same?"

"Oh, I get it then. I guess it's a secret."

Really. There was no exact way to know what the bespectacled boy always had in mind.

The brunet can admit to that because not once did he ever figure him out.

Yet he's his.

Miyuki Kazuya belongs to Sawamura Eijun.

But they're the only two people who knows it.

.

.

.

Sure it was nice that the baseball members wouldn't pester him about such troublesome things related to romance. But it was even more frustrating that Eijun barely have time or space to meet up with Miyuki privately. And somehow along the way, they'd often encounter an obstacle that would put their secret at risk to being found out. The pitcher could not help but to think... Would it be better if our relationship was open to the public? Would we be able to see each other more? Because for the past month of dating, I can only be with him twice or once a week. I want more—as selfish as it may sound. "I miss you. Can't we meet up more?"

There was a short pause before Miyuki suggested, "Do you want to sneak out later?" He did feel the same way of wanting to be with each other more.

"Can we!?" Eijun asked with enthusiasm; not being able to hide his happiness.

The glasses-boy grinned as he pulled the loose towel down so he can plant a soft kiss on the brunet's exposed shoulder. "Where do you want to go?"

"Anywhere. I just want to be with you."

"Then it's settled. Meet me in the front gate at 7 o'clock sharp."

He holds my hand.

Not too long; he let go at once.

He hugs me tight.

Then briefly–his arms fall limp.

He pets my hair.

Withdraws and never dare.

He kisses me on the lips.

And it does not happen the second time.

Because all this time he's been afraid to let anyone know about our relationship.

And secretly as we love...secretly do we hide...secretly there's an unknown purpose... but more than secretly—it's hurting me inside.

Chapter One

School ended with Eijun and Haruno being asked to go to the ZEENO store to buy a list of things needed for the Spring Festival. With the money handed in to the young woman's hand, the two stepped out of the classroom and walked through the corridors. As they exited the building together, they unconsciously attracted seven pairs of eyes with certain thoughts running in their heads.

"Oi, isn't that Sawamura and one of the managers? Did the brat actually get himself a girl?" Jun commented in disbelief.

"T-They look sweet," Haruichi stammered with a smile. "And Haruno-san confessed to me once that she had feelings for Eijun-kun."

"NO WAY. Is it the end of the world already?" Kuramochi gasped, earning a pout from the pinkette.

"Maybe you misunderstood, Haruichi," the older Kominato exclaimed with a snickering look.

"No, even I heard it as well," Furuya said, trying to back up his friend.

"Shut up guys. Stop prying on the kid like some gossipers because you're giving me a headache. Such annoying people," Miyuki muttered before turning around to take his leave.

"Is there something wrong with him?" Tetsuya questioned from the bewilderness of seeing the catcher act in a more ill-mannered way than usual.

Later that day; by luck, Eijun found himself cleaning the left baseballs on the grass with the help of his boyfriend (because they were ordered to by their coach). He had been thinking about the festival ever since his friends mentioned the tasty food and fun games revolving around the event. He had been meaning to ask Miyuki if he wanted to go with him, and now seemed to be the best time.

"Miyuki, d-do you want to go to the Spring Festival together?" His face gained a tint dark shade of red. And with fingers fiddling with one another, he anticipated for an answer.

"We can't. If we're going to hide our relationship, we can't be seen together in places like that. Just go with your friends."

The statement left a frown on his face, but he understood the lad's reason either way. "Okay. Nevermind that I asked."

The moment Eijun passed by the school field to head out to the streets and help out with the decorations, his footsteps were suddenly halted. From the corner of his eyes, he can identify a familiar bespectacled having a conversation with a girl. Actually, it wasn't just any conversation. But a talk that left a great impact on how he should view his boyfriend.

"Are you already going with someone to the Spring Festival, Miyuki?" the girl shyly asked.

The second-year made a thinking face. "I don't think so, why?"

"Then will you go with me?" she wondered with hopeful eyes.

It only took him a short pause before he replied. "Sure, I don't mind. The thing starts at five, right? I'll come meet you here at four-thirty."

"Yeah? Alright!" she answered with glee.

The brunet felt empty inside and he was blanked for many minutes as he watched the two figures disappear into their own class section. What the hell was that? So we can't go together, but we can go with other people beside our close friends who just happens to be...girls?

If only I was one, Miyuki would undoubtedly announce our relationship publicly, wouldn't he? Because really, inside, he's scared of what everyone would think of us if they found out.

And it's so cruel when all I want is for us to be a normal couple...but if it continues like this

—how long can we even last?

-tbc-

messejii from graylubitches: hello readers, just to clear things up... i don't have anything against gay couple or anything of that sort. it's only a factor that i have used to develop the plot more and give reason to Eijun's insecurities.

pls dont take any offence

and no the story will not revolve around this factor becos the actual plot has a different dramatic situation. i do hope you all understand. but if ever, i do receive problems about it... i wouldn't mind recreating this whole story. so yeah. this is the beginning of my second DNA fanfiction and hopefully, you readers (will) like it :]

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