Ch.1 Let Me Know

"ANCHOR-" Colton Dixon

"My heart's a ship lost out at sea
I'm drifting further from Your reach
Worn down by the waves and wind
It comes down to sink or swim"

Harvey sat in his office with a bottle of scotch, staring wordlessly at the window in front of him. There it was in the back of his head again, killing just a part of him, but he had just lost one of the biggest cases his firm could get. And he fucked it up. It was nearly three am and he was the only person here.

Bull.

"Are you drinking your conscience away, Harvey?" Donna asked quietly from behind him when she walked in. Harvey instantly froze and clenched his drink tightly.

"How did you know I would still be here?" He asked turning around to face her. His eyes instantly zoned in on her gentle brown eyes - so this is how he deals with all the shit in his life.

"There are healthier ways to deal with losing a case." Donna said avoiding his question. He narrowed his eyes.

"I'm not here because of losing a damn case." He said icily. She gave him a blank look.

"How many reasons can there be for a stuck up lawyer who already has everything they've ever wanted to always drinking the shit out of their problems at three a.m?" She asked warily. He glanced away from her and remained silent, however his silence was always more than enough.

She always knew that.

"I can't let you keep doing this to yourself, Harvey." She said as he started pouring himself another round of scotch.

"I doubt it. You've known me practically your entire life..." Harvey said slowly. Donna shrugged.

"You never know - we might be a lot different after this." She said vaguely. He paused as she watched him search her eyes for any lies.

There was none.

"What are you doing?" He asked the previous question again with a cautious tone. She finally sighed, tired of all the crap going on and rubbed the sides of her temples as she felt an oncoming headache.

"I'm not here to be your doctor, Harvey, but you're drifting further away after what just happened." Donna said walking over to him and took a seat at the corner of his desk giving him a gentle smile.

Harvey stared at her in slightly confusion. He stared at her actions like it was a completely foreign gesture to her or maybe her comment. He paused as that thought crossed his head - he should stop assuming anything about Donna Pualsen, otherwise he'll never have her.

"Do you trust me?" He asked suddenly. She winced. He noticed her internal battle and rephrased his question.

"Do you trust me the next time I get case like this?" He clarified gesturing towards his folder on his desk. She gave him a wary look at his choice of words, but finally sighed and stared back into his ashamed eyes.

"Anyone can help out a very long time friend." She mumbled as he took a few gulps of the alcohol feeling the intoxication burn his throat.

"Yeah? And when was that first time you said this to me?" He asked as he stared right back in her mien, the edges of her lips barely rising to a smile.

"You only have one Donna, Harvey. She's not going anywhere." Donna slowly said as she watched him set down his drink, never breaking the eye contact. Her smile slightly grew wider.

"Maybe, I just want that right Donna." He said glancing up at her.

A short silence filled the area between them for a few seconds as Donna tried to find the right words she was looking for. Harvey had caught her off guard. She was getting lazy.

"You can't have me, Harvey." She finally said quietly. He gently grabbed one of her hands, immediately feeling one of their pulses jump.

She desperately tried to hide it, but she was failing miserably.

Damn! What was he trying to pull?

"Why not?" He asked staring at her straight in the eye. She stared back with equal intensity.

"You'll always come crawling back to me, Harvey Specter. You'd be lucky enough to have me." She said with a teasing tone playing in her voice. She was just that good. The depth of his eyes never faltered for a second.

"How do you know when we've only done it once?" He asked seriously.

A/N: A little story about Donna and Harvey's relationship before any real problems started arising. Please let me know what you think!