It had been three days since Moody put him back together again. Three days since Remus had appeared at Moody's doorstep wishing for death over life. The shell of Moony from long ago shattered into a thousand pieces. Harry needed him and Dumbledore –the bastardx didn't care one whit. Harry was getting beaten and shouted at. He had seen the scared green eyes as his uncle clouted him. He had seen the resignation as his aunt screamed obscenities. Resignation in a fivexyearxold's eyes. Remus had almost given up to black despair before some scrap of determination to help Harry –curse or no cursex broke through. So he couldn't get closer than three kilometers to Harry at any given time. Fine. He could work around that. Just because he couldn't get close enough didn't mean no one else could either.

For one moment Remus saw in his mind little Harry safe and sound in his arms. He could only imagine the feel of that small body as he held him close, safe from the world. The agony that ripped through him tore him apart. He would never get to see Harry again till he was an adult. The child should have been his! His to love, and cherish. Not abusive muggles who would sell him to anyone! Remus howled like the wolf that he was. He screamed at the injustice of it all again and again till he had no voice left. And then he sobbed and cried for the boy who should have been family. It was a lot later, when he could breath again that he realized that he was being held. An old cracked voice whispering meaningless reassurances for who knew how long.

"Thankyou" he whispered. Mostly to let Mad Eye know that he could stop now. He felt empty and exhausted. Wrung out and worn thin. He knew he had to help Harry some how. Absolutely had to. It just hurt unimaginably to know that he would not get to see Harry for a long long time. The little boy needed him now. The adult would not care for a ragged old wolf whom his parents knew years ago or so he assumed.

"Go to sleep lad. It will do you some good" broke in Mad Eye's voice.

And he nodded woodenly and closed his eyes falling asleep almost instantly from sheer exhaustion.

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It was another two days before Remus could summon the energy to get up and leave. His wounds had mostly healed. And though Mad Eye was worried he had little pretext left to keep him there. Besides Remus wanted to get started on whatever little he could do for Harry.

The first thing he did was to go out to a toy store and buy a teddy bear. Harry needed love. Desperately. There was nothing better than a teddy bear to express that to a five year old. The bear he bought was soft brown, cuddly and a little less than a foot tall. It was small enough to a hide from a scary aunt yet large enough to cuddle on a scary night. It was perfect and cost Remus almost half of the meager amount of money he had from a job he had long been thrown out of. But if it brought a smile to Harry's face it would be worth every penny. The second thing Remus did was write a letter. He knew Harry was still too young to read but he figured he could charm it to read itself. Harry was five and magical. He would not be scared by magic when he saw weird things happen around him already. Or so Remus hoped. And third he needed a messenger. Though before he could actually send someone with the package he would need to scout the place of delivery.

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It took Remus another two days to scout Harry's school and the little park near the Dursley's house. He had to wait till Harry was at home to scout the school, and wait till he was at school to scout the park and the Dursley's residence. The Dursley's house was small and freakishly neat. He saw a lot of Mr. and Mrs. Dursley in his scouting expeditions but only from a distance. After much thought Remus decided it would be safest for Harry to get the package at school. The risk of Petunia discovering the odd talking letter was too great, and a piece of parchment was less likely to be noticed in a chaotic primary school. Break time should work he thought. All Remus had to do was find someone who could sneak into a muggle school and deliver a package to a kid. Easy right? Right. It was the third morning when Remus tried to return to No 4 privet Drive to do some more scouting that he realized he couldn't go in that direction. That could mean only one thing. Harry had not gone to school today. That meant something was wrong with Harry, though there was nothing Remus could do about that. Remus wisely chose to use this opportunity to scout the school in the day, though it killed him to walk away.

Remus climbed a laughably low wall to get into the compound then sneaked around peaking into windows trying to find Nursery class. It was more difficult than he would have thought. It was on his fifth attempt, with his nose pressed to a window, trying to judge the age of the children inside, that he was spooked.

"Excuse me. May I help you?"

Remus jumped a mile. SHIT. He was caught.

"Uh.."

"I don' know if it's illegal or not, but I'm pretty sure you ain't allowed to be doin that"

"Uh.."

His brain was whirring away trying to come up with a story to explain himself.

" Uh.. I was looking for my kid" he sounded uncertain.

"Excuse me? Dads usually know their kid's class. It's why they have those meetins and stuff" the man said suspiciously

Remus finally noticed it was a janitor he was talking to.

"Uh…"

And then the genius struck. A plan worthy of a marauder. If only he could do some very fast talking

"I'm sorry. My wife and I divorced six months ago. She won the custody case since Harry is so young. But Harry started school this year and I didn't even get to see him in uniform let alone talk to him! I just wanted to see him in class. My little baby already old enough to go to school!"

A few tears slipped down Remus's faces which was the easy part since he was such a mess these days already.

"I'm not allowed to be with Harry. She will file a restraining order if she hears. I just wanted to see him so much"

"Which class is he in again?"

"Nursery"

The janitor gave a sigh and shook his head. If Remus had not looked so innocent and nonthreatening Jef would never have done it.

"Alright. I will take you"

Remus felt a pang in his heart. If only he could see Harry even through a window.

The Janitor took him to the window of a toy lined class room. They both peeked in.

"Alrigh. So which un is he?"

"He's not here" replied Remus forcing a puzzled note into his voice. "He has dark brown hair and bright green eyes. He is thin. His hair is messy. Sticks up at the back. He wears round glasses".

"Oh that un! I see him round from time to time. Is tiniest of the lot. Looks nothin like you. Seems like he ain't here today"

"He took after his mother. I brought a teddy bear for him. I can't come tomorrow. Could u give it to him?

"I'm sorry. I ain't allowd ta do tha sortta thin. School won't like it that I'm dealin with parents. Who am I? Nothing but a janitor I tell ya."

"Please Mr.?

"Jeff. Name's Jeff"

"Please Mr. Jeff. I'm not even allowed to legally see him. Just hand it to him in break or something. I will owe you"

"If you pu' it like tha'. Ok. I'll do it. It's just a teddy bear right?

"Yes. It's in the car. I'll put it in an envelope so it's easy to handle. Wait here and I'll get it.

"Sure lad. You go do that"

Remus breathed. He had a messenger. He had thought he would coerce or coax Mundungus to do the job for him but this was a million times better. A kindly old muggle was perfect. Besides janitors could practically be invisible. No one would notice the janitor slipping among the children in break. Maybe Remus could have a means of communicating with Harry after all.