A/N : 2 chapters in one night!? Kuu you have to sleep darn it! :I
yes this'll be the last chapter of Lost Connection *cries*
i've been having issues of my other story, Endless Time, like...really, since i'm not really much of an Adventure genre, i was planning on dropping it BUT
it might be good practice so, eh. after that, i'll be going back to some lovey dovey story which i love(getit).
prepare some tissues! this can probably hurt your heart even as a side story! ; w; (sorry bout that)
Disclaimer: I don't own Love Live!
It was when I just couldn't keep up with my studies. Every day was such a hassle, teachers always giving me their "guidance" talk. It was pointless, I know my limits, and I've been trying my best... I had given up hanging out with Ryou-chan... I had given up on ballet... I had given up on being a school idol.
The distance between myself and the my friends had grown far away, I used to be so nice, now I just don't know what to do... I guess I really do live up to my name...Shirase Koyuki.
It's so cold, so very cold. My life as I know it is in the brink of meltdown, everything that I used to think of that was fun, no longer brings happiness. I know it's pointless, but what do you expect from a talent-less loser like me? I don't have what it takes to reach the top, after all, I'm just not cut out for this.
Every time I pass by the school auditorium, I see this girl, around my height, practicing. She was cute, indeed. Very cute, her determination brings the best out of this trait. As time passed by, I have been taking more detours to the school auditorium and every single time I did, I always see her.
Due to my curiosity, I've been trying to gather data about her.
Name: Yazawa, Nico
Age: 15 years old
Occupation: School Idol
...? She looks 12 to me. Was what I thought, it seems that her favorite food are sweets.
The next day, I took another detour to the auditorium. To my surprise, she wasn't there. I snuck inside quietly, surveyed the area and took a seat.
Ahhh... This feels relaxing...
As time passed by, my consciousness faded... Driven away by a sweet dream of tranquility.
I don't know why, but I saw her in my dream, It wasn't Aikawa Ryou, but it was Yazawa Nico, she caressed my small face, saying "Don't give up."
Back to reality, I tried to stand up but was caught in the beauty of a certain School Idol.
Yazawa Nico was performing, just for me. She smiled at me occasionally on every twist and turn. She gave her best in every performance she did, just like this one.
She's perfect...
As the music stops, she called my name.
"Shirase...Koyuko...did I get it right?"
I tried my best to not laugh due to her mistake, so I gave her a smile instead.
"You made a mistake there, Yazawa-san... Let me introduce myself, I am Shirase Koyuki."
"Ah...sorry about that."
"It's all right. I must say, your performance is absolutely terrific, Yazawa-san."
Just smile Yuki... Just smile.
"Oh thank you! Nobody has ever complimented me before, even back when I used to be in a unit..."
Smile...
My Smile turned into a Sad expression.
"Ah... I'm sorry for letting you remember such a tragic memory..."
"It's fine, they weren't able to keep up with me anyway. All they did was give up without even trying."
While thinking of anything else to talk about, my mind had the thought of her resembling my past self except for one thing... Someone who did not give up even when everyone else left her behind, someone who's not willing to change for others, someone who's strong... Something that I never had.
"Ah... It's getting late, I should get going and prepare dinner for my younger siblings." Nico muttered,
"Oh, all right. See you later then, Yazawa-san?"
"You can call me Nico, Yuki-san!"
Before having the chance to reply, she has gone past the door. Leaving me behind.
I wonder if I'll see her today again...
With that thought, I told myself to go to the auditorium later during houkagou period.
It was those usual boring school days, I stared outside the windows, imagining how Nico
Will be performing later this afternoon, the bell rang shortly, as I pack my stuff, my friend, Aikawa Ryou walked towards me, giving me an enigmatic expression.
"Hey... Mind if we could talk for a bit?" Ryou said,
Sigh
"...Let's just make this quick."
We head towards the school roof, with no one at sight, she closed the door behind me.
Without knowing what's wrong, I asked her if there's anything wrong.
"Something's obviously wrong, you've been going to the school auditorium too frequently, just what are you doing there?" she asked,
"... It's none of your business..."
"Of course it is, I'm your best friend and best friends worry for their friends. You can tell me what's wrong Yuki... I'm always here to listen to your problems."
As I see her worried about me, I remember committing a promise that I should never break.
Never tell your problems to anyone except your true love.
"I'm sorry, Ryou, but please... Can you leave me alone."
"...All right, but please, if you ever need someone... I'll be here to hear you out anytime."
Ignoring her last words, I left the school roof and head to the auditorium.
"Ah, hey Yuki!"
Her smile is so cute...
"Hey, still practicing I see."
I gave her a smile, she looked tired but still full of energy.
"Yeah, but I could use some fresh air. Do you mind going with me at the park?"
Did she ask me out for a...date? No way no way, it's too soon.
"Ah, I would love to... Even though I just got here."
"Great! Just let me change back into my school clothes before heading off."
As I waited for her to get back, I rested on the school auditorium's seats again since I was getting used to it's comfort, a few minutes later, she came back changed and brought me to a nice, relaxing walk to the park.
It's been a while since I've been this relaxed, I guess I have to do this once in a while...
"Say... Do you enjoy being a school idol, Nico?"
"Of course! It's always been my dream to be on a big stage and make others smile!"
"To make others smile... It's been a while since I've thought of that..."
I felt depressed as negativity struck into my heart and mind, remembering the past events I had in the past, It was too painful, It was too unbearable, It made me want to disappear.
Pomf
"It's fine to feel bad for what you did in the past, Yuki... As long as you had fun, that's what it matters, right"
She smiled as her words struck my heart, giving me relief, her hug comforts me even more... Her petite body was similar to mine, but it felt warmer, It made me want more.
"Say... Is it okay for you and me to take a picture together, Nico?"
"Hmm? That sounds great!"
As I took out a camera inside my bag, we prepared ourselves with the biggest smile we could muster.
Flick
"You look great, Nico."
With a pint of blush, she thanked me for the compliment.
Since it was getting late, I hugged her goodbye.
"See you tomorrow, Nico. I'll always be your number one fan."
"See you, Yuki."
After waving goodbye, the only thing I could think was...
It must be fate that I met you, Nico.
Today's lesson was about calculus, ugh, I hate that subject the most. It was just too confusing that it even made my Mom confused, before the final bell rang. Rain poured down, together with the outburst of depression by students inside the building.
Oh come on!
I forgot my umbrella today...
Such misfortune...
As I walked towards the library to kill time, I walked past a bunch of students talking about Nico.
Did you hear? Yazawa Nico, the lone School idol quitted.
It must've been too depressing to perform alone.
I wonder why It took her so long to quit.
I rushed towards them and asked.
"Did Ni- Yazawa Nico...really quit?"
"Yea, didn't you hear? Everyone's been talking about it. She decided to quit last night."
No way... It can't be true...
I rushed towards the auditorium to find nobody in there.
I guess the rumors are true...
I tried to look for Nico on the first year building with no avail.
Is this dream really gonna end this way?... No... Not this...
I screamed inside my head, with the pain of losing a friend, with the pain of losing the one I love.
I head towards the gate.
I don't want it to end.
As I was getting closer.
I don't want to lose my Nico!
I see darkness.
A/N: So... *cries* yea idk what to say really, my friend told me to not to put on too much tragedy or something, but idk just how much i've put in.
so, feel free to give some feedback and i'm really sorry if i switch my style of writing, i tend to be just that type of person ; w; *sparkles away*
Edit: i forgot to mention that what Shirase was talking about when she said she was "living up to her name" is that Yuki" means "snow". "Shirayuki" means "white snow". The names come from taking the first and last kanji of her name respectively, snow is cold and you know that being distant towards your friends is cold, brr.