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"You know what Casey! I wish you died in that fire instead of Darden!" Severide shouted as Casey turned his back. "Casey... Hey, I'm sorry man, I didn't mean that" Severide apologized.

"Don't apologize Severide!" Casey spat "Everyday since that fire I imagine every way it could've gone differently! Don't you think that I wish I was in there instead of him! I watched him die in those flames!" Casey turned and stormed out of the firehouse. Everybody stood completely still, shocked by what they had just witnessed.

"Severide" Boden said angrily.

"I know chief, I know, I shouldn't have said that. I didn't mean it!" Severide said

"Never, do I want to hear any of you telling another person that they should be dead." Boden said addressing everyone. "Now Severide, go find lieutenant Casey and sort this out!"

"Yes chief" Everyone muttered as they went back to what they were doing before the argument broke out. Severide walked outside looking around for Casey, he finally spotted him on one of the benches by the road.

"Hey" Severide said as he neared, Casey stood up.

"What" He replied

"I didn't mean what I said back there, I was just angry" Severide tried to reason

"Well, you wouldn't have said it if you didn't think it deep down. I wish I was in that fire instead of Darden! Everyone here would've been able to get over it easier. There wouldn't be any animosity between the lieutenants of this house and everyone in there would be much better off!"

"No, no they wouldn't! They need you... I need you!"

"You don't! You made that perfectly clear just now!" Casey tried to push past Severide

"Where are you going Casey?" Severide asked

"To give this to Boden" Casey replied holding up the pink transfer slip

"Your putting in for a transfer?" Severide was shocked

"When have I been anything more then a leader? All the guys meet up after shift for beers and parties... me? I'm never invited, I'm their lieutenant, nothing more" Casey walked off back towards the house but he stopped and ran towards his truck when the alarm rang

"Truck 81, Engine 51, Squad 3, Ambulance 61, Battalion 25 House fire..." All the team members ran out and climbed aboard their respective rigs.

When they arrived at the scene Boden immediately started giving out orders. Casey and Severide relying them to their teams. Cruz and Mouch went up to the roof to vent, Otis was on the ladders whilst Casey and Hermann headed inside to check for survivors. Severide's team sent in as well to help rescue anyone that was found.

"Bottom floor clear, heading up" Casey spoke over the radio. All the members inside headed up the stairs, they found a victim in the first room. Rescue squad helped get her out and took her outside whilst Casey and Hermann kept searching.

"I want you out as soon as Casey" Boden's voice was heard over the radio.

"Last two rooms Chief" Casey replied. "Hermann, you take this room, I'll check the last room" Hermann quickly searched all the room he was just leaving when he head a loud crash from the room Casey had just entered. He ran out of the room and peered in through the doorway,

"Damn" He cursed before hurrying down the stairs, just as he reached the bottom Casey's PASS alarm began to sound.

"Hermann what's going on?" Boden questioned worriedly

"Floor collapsed under Casey!" Hermann replied whilst lifting bits of rubble off the newly formed pile. "Could use some help!"

"Severide! Go get him" Boden instructed

"Got it chief" He called as he ran into the building with Capp at his side. They ran to Hermann and immediately started digging through the rubble as well. They finally located Casey, Hermann lifted him up and he began to awaken.

"Hey Casey, can you hear me?" Hermann asked

"Victim... F...fell...with me" Casey stuttered trying to catch his breath but not being able to without his mask which he had placed over the victim. Casey turned around in Hermann's grasp and helped rescue squad with the rubble, they finally located the victim, Capp lifted him up and hurried him outside to the waiting ambulance.

"Casey you ok?" Hermann asked looking at Casey, Severide was now beside him

"Yeah... fine" Casey replied weakly

"Your not fine, you just fell through the floor, you gotta get checked out" Severide joined the conversation.

"Since when do you care" Casey muttered, stumbling out of the building. Just as Boden began to walk over he collapsed. Hermann and Severide quickly grabbed him and lowered him to the ground before calling over Shay and Dawson.

"Get him onto the stretcher" Shay called frantically. Severide, Hermann, Capp and Mills picked Casey up and put him on the stretcher. They then quickly wheeled it over to the ambulance. Without asking Severide jumped in the back with Dawson, Shay driving them to Lakeshore.

"What's going on Dawson?" Severide asked scared.

"I fear he's got internal bleeding that's caused him to lose to much blood and... faint" Dawson said as she quickly felt Casey's body looking for any obvious injuries. "I also think a few of his ribs are broken due to the debris..."

"Will he be ok?" Severide asked

"If they can stop the bleed in time then he should be fine" Dawson said looking up. A few minutes later they arrived at Lake shore. Severide jumped out and watched as Casey was wheeled away.

The three of them then went and sat in the waiting room, they were soon joined by the rest of the firehouse.

"Matthew Casey?" A doctor asked.

"Yes, that's us" Boden announced standing up.

"I can only speak to family" The doctor said

"Well, we're his family"Severide said

"I know your all worried but I can't break protocol" The doctor apologized

"I'm his brother, now tell us how he is" Severide responded

"Oh, sorry, well we found quite a bit of internal bleeding but we managed to stitch him up and he should be fine. We had to give him a blood transfusion and he is currently unconscious due to the amount of blood he lost." The doctor paused looking at the faces in front of him.

"If you would like to visit him, I can allow one person at a time until he wakes up.

"Severide, you go" Boden instructed.

"Thanks Chief" Severide said before following the doctor down the corridor towards Matt's room. Boden then sent everyone else home to rest.

"I'll alert you all when he wakes up" Boden said watching everyone walk away out of the hospital. He took one last look at Kelly walking down the corridor and hoped that he and Matt would be ok. He then went home himself.

Severide stood outside Matt's room before slowly pushing the door open and entering. He'd seen many people lying in a hospital with the monitors around them. He'd been in that place himself so many times but now it was Matt lying there.

"Hey buddy" Severide said sitting down next to Matt, "Any idea when he'll wake up doc?"

"Should be within the next hour or two" The doctor smiled then exited the room. Severide spent an hour and a half just watching Matt, realising now that he didn't want him to be in the flames, he now realised just how much he cared about him. He was taken out of his thoughts by a slow groan.

"Matt?" He questioned rising to his feet. He noticed Matt's eyelids fluttering "Come on, open your eyes"

Matt could hear someone calling him, telling him to open his eyes but he couldn't work out who it was... then he finally managed to open his eyes but then shut them immediately when the light from the room blinded him. Severide? He thought.

"You ok Matt?"

"Severide?" He whispered weakly, once again opening his eyes, only slightly this time.

"Yeah, it's me, how you feeling? I need to call the doctor, let him know your ok" Severide said reaching behind Matt to push the call button.

"Ah, Matt your awake" The doctor then spent the next few minutes asking Matt how he was feeling before telling him they wanted to keep him overnight but the next day he was free to go home and rest.

"Only one night in hospital then" Severide smiled.

"How's the victim Severide?" Matt asked formally.

"You know we're not at work, you can call me Kelly and talk about other things?"

"Really? When did that happen? Last thing I remember you wanted me to die in the fire, I'm surprised you even bothered to help get me out of that last fire, why didn't you just leave me in there? We both know you wanted to" Casey said turning his head away

"I don't have to be here! You know what, I don't want to be here. Have fun by yourself" Severide growled before storming out of the room.

He returned about a half hour later when he had calmed down to apologize to Casey but the doctors stopped him from passing.

"I want to see my friend" Severide said trying to push past.

"Firstly, you said he was your brother. Secondly, just after you left earlier, he requested that he wasn't disturbed." The doctor informed him leading him back to the waiting room where Severide stayed all night waiting for his chance to speak with Matt.

That chance finally came in the morning when Matt was being wheeled to the front of the hospital.

"Matt" Severide called standing up and walking over.

"I don't have anything to say to you Severide" Casey growled.

"Yeah but I do, so just listen! I didn't mean it when I said I wished you were dead. I care about you to much, I don't know what I would do without you. I don't want you to transfer houses. I'm sorry that you haven't been included in as much as you should've been but we can fix that!" Severide was pleading with Casey.

"Ok" Was Casey's only response

"Ok? You just give me ok?" Severide got angry

"What do you expect? One day you want me dead then the next when that nearly happens you wish it hadn't"

Casey stood up from the wheelchair and slowly walked out into the car park and looked around before realising that his truck was not there as he arrived in a ambulance. He didn't have his phone either so he couldn't call for a taxi. Severide was just exiting the hospital calling him, he could just get in the car with Severide but he didn't want to talk to Severide right now so he began to walk out of the car park, his house wasn't that far away. Just as he turned around the corner a car pulled up beside him.

"Matt" Severide said quietly as he rolled the window down. Matt completely ignored him and kept walking. "Where are you going Matt?"

"Away from you" Matt replied sharply.

"You just got out of hospital you shouldn't be walking around!"

"I don't listen to you Severide, now go away" Matt said before running off. Kelly quickly drove to Matt's house and parked in the shadows waiting for Matt to return. He started to get worried when Matt didn't come back, he began to drive around the local area, he was ready to give up when he noticed a figure stumble out of a bar obviously drunk. He got out of his car and realised the figure was Matt.

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