AN: So this is my first time writing a fanfiction that isn't Drarry so I'm new to this! I hope you like it, please leave reviews because it means the world to me when you do! Music listened to while writing: /octoshroom/you-re-all-i-see

Rin stared up at the top of his bunk. He could hear Nitori breathing on top and he tried to pay attention to his rhythmic breathing and the occasional toss and turn so he might fall asleep, but it wasn't working. Lately Rin had found it impossible to get to sleep and he wasn't sure why. Every night he would lie awake for hours and so many different thoughts would pass through his mind. At first they would start out as regular worries, what's for breakfast tomorrow, what would he do tomorrow at swimming, had he completed his homework, could he not go to sleep because he was forgetting something? After all those thoughts had been exasperated, he would then turn to scary and intimidating thoughts like what if Sousuke leaves, what if for some reason Rin couldn't swim with Haru again, what would have changed if his dad hadn't died, what would happen if he died, would anyone even miss him? Those things would pass through his mind and he would worry and worry until there was nothing to worry about. Then, finally his thoughts would turn to random scenarios that often involved him and Haru doing a bunch of stuff. At first it had just been Rin and Haru laughing together and talking together and swimming together, but lately it had gotten ... more intimate. They started kissing and playing and doing a bunch of other stuff that Rin wasn't even sure he wanted from Haru. It wasn't like he had a crush on him or anything. Right?

Rin tugged at his hair angrily and rolled around on his bed in frustration. He felt his cheeks and could tell that he was blushing. In his mind pictures kept popping up and all of them were about Haru. Even if Rin maybe probably didn't have a crush on Haru himself, he could totally see why someone might have a crush on him. The lovely navy blue hair, bright blue eyes that sparkled and came alive at the aspect of being able to swim. The way he sliced effortlessly through the water and the fact that he did actually seem to have some sort of understanding of how the water worked. The fact that even though he said he didn't care about winning, but he could still get fired up about it. The cute (albeit kinda strange) obsession with mackerel. All sorts of little things that Haru did were just really cute.

As Rin was contemplating this, his phone flashed to life. Before he picked up his phone, he noticed the little dolphin key strap which he had bought at a fair a long time ago. Why had he even bought this? Rin sighed and glanced at his screen. It was a text from Haru.

I can't sleep.

Rin stared at those three words. Should he reply?

Neither can I.

I want to swim.

It's like 3 in the morning Haru!

I still want to swim

Whatever

Why can't you sleep?

I just can't

Why?

I don't know okay a bunch of thoughts are keeping me awake

Oh

Yeah

Well do you want me to leave you with your thoughts

Idk

I'm going to go swim in the bathtub

School tomorrow

but swim

It's not even swimming you're just sitting in a bathtub.

I can dream Rin

Whatever, goodnight.

Bye.

Rin turned off his phone and felt the intense sensation of wanting to throw it across the room. Instead he just stared at the little dolphin chain and wondered why the fuck he had been so happy when Haru texted him and why he had wanted so badly to continue the conversation but instead had played it cool. Rin held the dolphin and lay like that. Eventually his eyes started to close and as he fell asleep, still holding the dolphin key chain, he thought to himself maybe he did have a really tiny small minuscule crush on Haru.