I've watched you so long,

Screamed your name,

I don't know what else I can say. - TS

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How many times she has to wake up in the middle of the night, sweating, breathing heavily, and heart pounding so hard that it's hurt, like it don't belong to her and wanted to come out from her chest.

The sound of her door open snaps her head toward it and after a moment the person flip the switch and turn on the light in her room to reveal the person and it's her big sister Trina. "Tori, are you okay?"

The singer doesn't answer it right away as she still trying to regulate her breathing and the older brunette move closer and sit by her side, caressing her back, helping her to relax while she reach to the nightstand to take a glass of water that her little sister always put in there before bed. "Here, take a sip, it'll make you better." The girl sip the water and swallow in a big gulp, Trina help her lie back down and put the glass where it belong as she pull the blankets to the singer.

"Thanks Treen." Tori weakly said and Trina give her a small sad smile, nodding weakly as she caress the girl's hair before kiss her forehead.

"It's okay, get back to sleep, I'm right here Tor. You're safe, get back to sleep." The girl assures her baby sister, she has been doing this since she can remember, Tori would wake up in the middle of the night with her breathe race as if she just run a marathon and she would cry holding her chest like it's hurt, really hurt.

The first night Trina found out about it, her little sister end up in hospital bed for three days and that's when she is seven and Tori is six, she was crying so loud that it scares her, her dad were at the police station because he had the night shift and her mother on a business trip, there just her, her little sister and the baby sitter.

Trina called 911 after the baby sitter can't calm Tori down and the little girl seems to struggle to breathe.

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A loud angry bang of locker being bullied can be heard in the main hallway, the pale beauty trying to open her locker but somehow it won't open and she's angry about it, and when Jade gets angry it gets messy.

"Jade!" Someone shouts her name between the loud bang, but she seems not to hear it. "Jade!" The person yell again but this time the actress seems to notice and turn her head to the person and gave a loud sigh.

"What!" She snap, she has yet sip her morning coffee and she feels her nerve is in desperate need of caffeine. "Can't you see I'm trying to open the damn locker?!"

The person shakes their head before giving her what she need- love. "Here, black, two sugar and no cream." Says the person shutting Jade up and move to help her with her locker situation as the actress sips her taste of morning Joe. "Why you always get violent with your locker?" The person shakes their head but keep trying to open the locker. "You just need to enter your code, give little knock on the side, and ... woala." The locker open with no problem, the pale beauty fake her squeaks for happiness making the person rolls their eyes.

"Yea, well, I don't like being gentle. And I'm changing my code." She sips her coffee and begins to collects her books for the lessons.

"Oh Jade, you always say that every morning and yet, it's remind the same" The person says as they walk away and stops for a moment. "Or maybe you don't want to change it, so I can come and safe you, every morning..." The person says winking at her before continue to walk to their locker.

"Don't be so confident, Vega. I'll change it, and then no more showing off how to open my locker ever again." The pale beauty close her locker and walk away, leaving the singer to chuckles at her. Typical Jade behavior. She thought as she put some books into her locker and take a different book for the lesson.

Tori feels her heart rate speed up a little and that makes her take a sharp breathe to keep up and try to reduce the pain as she holds on to her locker. Breathe, in and out. She guide herself.

"Tori, are you okay?" The concern tone of her best friend's voice can be heard, Andre is right behind her and she doesn't want him to be worried and she quickly pretend to cough and turn around to face him.

"What? Oh yes, I'm fine." She cough again, making it believable. "Just cough. I'm fine." She said putting her last book in her bag.

"Are you sure?" Andre ask to make sure. He is the one person to know about Tori's medical condition, no one else in the school know including her group of friends. The teachers and staff at the school know, but they've been ask not to tell and keep it a secret.

Andre knows by accident, he walked in on her when she's not in her good shape, let's just say, it ending up by her lying on the hospital bed. Since then, Andre being extra protective to the Latina.

"Yes, Andre." She said smiling to assure the singer-songwriter.

"So, you fix her locker again?" Andre said as they walk toward their class, first period is R&B Vocal, and they are in the same class.

"I did, and as usual, Jade is being ..."

"Jade..." Andre finish her sentence and they laugh.

"Yes, she is..." She said as they enter the class.

The pain still there but the singer try to suppress it. It'll be okay, it will be gone in a minute. She keep chanting to herself and take sharp breath once in a while..

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