Chapter Eleven

This Isn't A Happy Ending

Things have changed. How much and how quickly they have changed. Feliciano is gone, but I'm not as lonely as I thought, as I knew I would be. Even with everything that happened, I never expected you to be such a big part of my life. I thought you were just a pebble the caused annoying ripples in my pond, but you caused waves and eventually, I realized that you made me grown and now I am an ocean.

I'm not happy with Feliciano's departure, but you have a way of making things okay, even when they aren't. I don't know what possessed me to let him go, but somehow, with you there, it was easier.

Still, it's not about him anymore is it? I always thought that it was always him, Feliciano, Feliciano, Feliciano, bright and innocent, happy, friendly, energetic, the complete opposite of me, the one everyone was drawn to, the one everyone liked, the favorite. But you, you always only saw me. That was always impossible, but you were always impossible and I've finally accepted that.

I cherish it all, every touch, every kiss, every smile, every time you say my name, whether it's with that amused and laughing tone, or that lusty one after we kiss that causes my whole body to catch on fire. Every moment we're together, every moment we're apart is surprisingly precious, but if I'm being honest I'm scared. Scared you'll wake up and realize I'm not the one you want. I've finally found something I never knew I had, that I never knew I wanted, and I'm frightened of losing it.

I don't know what the future has in store for us, whether some petty fight will send us our different ways, if we'll get married and grow old together, or maybe we'll just agree to be friends when we realize that it's not working out. I'm not sure what I want, 'together forever' is pretty scary and I can't see that, not yet. I may not be able to see the future but I can see the present and there is one thing I can say for certain.

I don't want us to be a happy ending, because despite everything, I don't want us to end, happy or not. So maybe I do want us to continue on forever. Really, it's as the old saying says, only time will tell.

So, finally reached the end. Strange story but I enjoyed writing it, I hope you all enjoyed reading it and please check out my page for more stories. Thank you so much for reading!