Wow, so a blast from the past. I'm writing this to say I am continuing this fanfiction even though this has been years at this point. I feel as if it is important for me as an adult.

I have thought about this fanfiction a lot through the past three years for several reasons. Well, mostly because I wrote this at the lowest point in my life. I was Alfred in this situation and not feeling like I wanted to live the following week. I remember having funeral plans, having drafts of suicide notes, weighing myself daily for any superficial change, or trying to hide scars of my self abuse. I yelled at my friends, treated them poorly. However, it is crazy how much my life has changed.

This fanfiction was drawing near the end and (spoiler alert) I was going to make Alfred well, better, but I did not know how. I had troubles writing a recovery process because I couldn't ever see myself going through that and since I wrote this to deal with my issues, it was impossible. Fastforward three years later and now I can see what progress and recovery looks and feels like, and how long it takes. How hard not relapsing is.

I realise that many people who read my stories probably are going through the same things I went through. Whether it is depression, self harm, anorexia, bulimia, etc... I want to show everyone how life does get better. It really does. That's not just a bullshit saying. It does. I went from a little girl with no hopes of love, a future, or happiness to someone with a career, a girlfriend that I absolutely adore and want to marry, and a survivor in a positive, nontoxic environment.

I would have not gotten all of these things without a support system, therapy, patience, hard work, and acceptance of oneself.

It's also weird to see how my perceptions of love, sex, consent, and alcohol has changed. I want to bring up a topic that has been brought to my attention by a reviewer and they were ABSOLUTELY correct. Alcohol does not mean consent. If someone is intoxicated do not try anything with them. They are incapable of consent. I do not think I realized that in my fifteen/sixteen year old brain.

Anyway, thank you so much you all for reading and loving this fanfiction. Though I am unsure how many will actually see this message, just thank you for the support. This will be continued and will be finished by July 9th of this year.

Thank you,

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