P.O.V Gajeel

I couldn't stand it not anymore. Seeing her shiver each time i step into the guild, knowing that she will fear me forever and will never forgive me... and i had it well deserved. I didn't care if the others didn't accept me but knowing that she would not... broke my heart... I DON'T KNOW WHY! But she is all i have thinking lately, her small size, her perfect blue curls, her big and innocent hazel eyes "It's funny to see her expressions each time she reads, it's like if she was in another world... inside the book", her silky white skin and small pink lips "I bet they are soft... how much i desire to taste her... WAIT A MINUTE?... I THE GREAT GAJEEL REDFOX, THE COLD-HEARTED IRON DRAGON SLAYER, I CAN'T BE THINKING LIKE THAT ABOUT A WEAK AND UGLY SHRIMP LIKE THAT... ". But i knew that all that was bullshit, she was strong maybe not physically but she has a burning soul that will never burn out and the most beautiful of all.

It had pass a month since Master Makarov offered me to join Fairy Tail, telling me that this was the start of the path i should take to turn into a better man. It had pass a month since and i haven't change a little but people stopped glaring at me or fearing me, they started to receive me... they weren't treating me as family... but it was a beginning. It all started when i saved that brat, that copies Salamander, from being bullied from other kids because he was a mage. I only wanted some peace and those boys were bothering me, so i sacred them... but that fire brat couldn't keep his mouth shut! He needed to tell the hole guild about how heroic my act was and ruin my bad-ass reputation. I had all the guild over me thanking me about saving their youngest member... well almost all the guild. The only one i wanted to be accepted by didn't even glance at me... "I think that this is how it would be... I DON'T EVEN CARE!", i thought that day.

However, with the pass of time i couldn't get her out of my mind. And started to have nightmares about what i did to her and her team that night... the night i will always regret. Also, i began to remember what i really desired to do that night with her... i wanted to have her pined against the wall screaming and moaning my name from pleasure, while i was penetrating her. Don't ask me why but i just wished to... no i needed to do it... and i still do.

Today it's the anniversary of one day since i became a member of Fairy Tail... no one congratulated me but it was what i expected, the only one was Rainy Woman. I was heading towards my house when i smelled the familiar and succulent scent of ink and vanilla from the little script mage, thoughtlessly i looked for her. She was walking while she was reading, i noticed again that her expressions were changing "That book must be good... all her books must be good, she always do that", i watched her for a while until i saw her trip over a rock. I ran as fast as i could and caught her in my arms before she touched the floor. When she saw that i was the one that grabbed her she started to tremble again, i felt the pain on my left chest return. As soon as she was on her foot i stopped touching her.

-Next time be more careful- i scolded her while pointing towards the big and sharp rock, she almost hit- You could have seriously hurt yourself. Well... that's all... i'm leaving- i said nervous "Really?! nervous?! I'm never nervous!" and turned around ready to continue walking until her voice stopped me.

-G Gajeel- she stuttered. I looked at her in shock, i never thought that she would even talk to me. I saw her inspire a big breath and exhale it, trying to calm down her fast heart beats that i could hear from where i was. When she managed to relax, she gave me one of her famous big smiles, which made me forget how to breath, and told me- Happy one month anniversary from being a mage of Fairy Tail!- She turned around on her heels and ran away, leaving me stunned.

"She remembered... and she tried her best to stop fearing me" felt my heart beating on my throat, then i understood everything "Levy Mc Garden was my predestined mate". That day i walked home with the heart, i didn't knew i had, shattered into one thousand peaces because i knew that she would never be mine... not after what i did.

-Guys stop it!- Shrimp's voice came from behind a tree.

-No, Levy we won't- the plant guy told her.

-He needs to learn that he can't mess with us!- stated Speedy.

I laughed. I laughed because when i fought against them the only one that gave me a bit of difficulty was their team leader, they were a piece of cake. However, i didn't attack them i just let them hit me freely. After all, what kind of right did i have? I humiliated them, i beat the crap out of them and i wanted to be accepted by them... so here it goes the same question again, what kind of right did i have to fight back? But at least i gave myself the selfish permeation of smile while i was hearing Shrimp beg to her puppies to stop hurting me.

I received all the hits not moving from my place until i saw a lightning sent towards Shrimp, in that moment i permitted myself move and blocked it. I could just moved her from where she was but i was afraid of hurting her with a rough movement or to scare her again-Gajeel are you all right?- she asked worried "You shouldn't be worried for a monster like me". I just ignored her and walked away.

While was heading towards my house, i sensed that someone was following... more specifically Shrimp- You know i can sense you, don't you?- i asked not stopping from walking.

-I do- she answered not stopping either. From the way her steps sound, she was determined to follow me.

-At least you can try to hid- i suggested.

-You said it yourself, try... why would i if i know that you will end up sensing me at the end. It would be a waste of time- i laughed at her ratiocination- Also, you are weak and tired. So even if you knew that i was following you, you wouldn't do anything to stop me- i stopped walking and turned around to glare at her- Don't worry i'm not saying that the attacks that my team mates did are the reason why you are weak. It's the completely opposite i'm grateful that you didn't attack them but the thunder you received from Laxus was very powerful. After all he is the third stronger in the guild after Master and Gildarts- she said quickly before i even was able to open my mouth.

I was stunned "She is grateful at me?"-Where are those puppies now?- i asked trying to change the topic.

She looked confused-Puppies?

-Yes, those puppies you have as team mates- i smirked cockily at her.

-They are not puppies!- she pouted, puffing her cheeks "She looks so adorable". I chuckled and she blushed "Oh! so cute!". I ruffed her hair and her face got redder.

-Gihi! So where are they?- i asked again.

She slapped my hand and accommodated her hair while she was answering- I scolded them for attacking a nakama and sent them home.

"Nakama?" i missed a bit "She considers me a nakama?"- What are you doing following me?- began to walk again, trying to hid the blush that was creeping into my cheeks.

-I'm gonna heal you- she state. I entered my house and she barged into- Where do you have your first aid kit?- i pointed at cupboard above the sink at my kitchen, walked towards my room and fell on my bed. I heard her enter the room but she said nothing, i could feel her gaze all over me "Gihi it looks that my charms worked on her too... What are you talking?! Maybe she is afraid of what i may do if she wakes me up". I sat up on the edge of the bed, she slowly approached me and tried to check my injuries as good as she could with the low illumination we had- I need you to take your shirt off- she commanded, blushing. I smirked at the thought that i was able to make her blush like that "Stop it! Surely it's her first time seeing a half nude man and if it wasn't... i'll have to kill that bastard". I did as i was ordered, she looked me from waist to chest and from shoulder to hand. After a few minutes she started to clean my wounds. "Her hands are trembling" i thought "She really is brave, to be here and help me while she still fears me."-It might be lonely- she commented, i growled giving her to understand that i don't know what is she talking about- I mean living in a big house like this all by yourself- "I wouldn't be alone if you were with me" but i couldn't say that.

-I had always been alone, ever since Metalicana left me- i told her, she looked up at me and our gazes locked. It was the first time i talked to someone about this and it felt... right to lean on her. Her look was full of kindness and... compression.

-My parents too- she said, returning to treat my wounds- They left me at the age of nine- "I never knew"- I know what it feels not to be accepted by the ones you love the most and the ones who should protect you. And i know the feeling of not wanting to be hurt again, you protect yourself by not letting no one enter your heart and act as cold-hearted man who nothing can hut him so people won't pity you. While i act as the perfect girl so people will accept me and don't leave me as well as i hid the true reason for which i joined Fairy Tail, they think that my parents were murdered by a dark guild and that i could escape, so they wont pity me. Knowing that someone pity you is the worst feeling ever, it makes you feel so insignificant and weak- her hands clenched and her body stiffened "She truly knows how i feel and... i'm the only one that knows the truth", that thought made my heart burst with joy- However, in your case maybe your dad didn't leave you because he wanted. After all Natsu's dragon also left without explanation on the same day, so don't loose hope i know not... i'm sure that he loves you and that he will return. So please let people enter your hear, i know from experience that loneliness isn't pretty... at least... let me be your first friend... i promise that i wont leave you- she finished, smiling at me with a few warm tears on her cheeks.

Our gazes were locked for what it looked like hours, my heart had never beaten so fast. The sight in front of me was breath taking and her words melted the iron of my heart... but i didn't deserve them... i didn't deserve that smile... i didn't deserve those words... i didn't deserve those tears of compression. I couldn't handle it anymore and caressed her left cheek with my right hand wiping her tears while i leaned down and licked away the ones on her right cheek. When i straightened myself, i saw that she was as red as Tatiana's hair... i didn't deserve that blush-Why? Why would you care so much for a man who pined you and your team to a tree? A man who had tortured and kidnapped people. Why would you want to be a friend of a monster like me?

She stared at me and then smiled "What the fuck it's wrong with this girl?! I just told her that i had tortured and kidnapped people, and what does she do? She fucking smile at me!... that smile i love so much". She stood up and do something that i never in my wildest dreams i thought she would do... she hugged me and murmured in my ear- I forgave you... i forgave you since the day you saved joined the guild. Since the moment i saw regret, pain and loneliness in your eyes- "What?!"- Sorry i let my personal problems made you think the opposite, i always tried to gather courage to go and talk with you but... i never could.

-Personal problems?!- i yelled, throwing her on bed under me- I pined you to a tree! Those aren't personal problems, those are reasons to hate me and rancor me.

She extended a hand and caressed my cheek, only then i noticed that i was crying. Yeah a few tears but still i, the iron dragon slayer, was crying-Hate, rancor what are those feelings? Are they worth your pain or time?- her voice was so sweet, so gentle and so... wise- You had change- she stated, i could see the determination of her burning soul through her eyes- You aren't the same, everyone deserves a second chance... only if they truly want to compensate and are sorry about what they had done. Jesus forget the one that betrayed him and signed his sentence of death, so here is my question to you: What makes you think that you don't deserve forgiveness? If you didn't kill anyone.

She smiled at me again, her words still on my mind "Master Makarov i think that you were right... i found my light"- How do i compensate it to you? Please, tell me how can i compensate breaking you?- i begged.

Shrimp looked shocked at first but then thought it for a minute and finally said- I want to get stronger- i was beyond surprise by her answer- You say that you can't forgive yourself because you broke me?- i nodded slowly- So train me so anyone not even you could ever brake me again.

"She doesn't fall in the same rock twice, does she?"-Gihi! You've got a deal Shorty

-I'm not short!- she pouted, puffing her cheeks "Does she always do that when she is angry?"- You are too big, that's all.

-Yeah, yeah whatever you say Shrimp- i told her getting off her.

-What is with you and your nicknames?- she whined sitting up but when she looked that i was lying on the bed, she stood up and picked up her purse- Sleep well Gajeel and thanks for saving me from Laxus's thunder.

-I would never do it again, you know?- i told her, when she got to the door.

-I do- was her answer.

That night i slept with smiled and without nightmares "So everyone deserves a second chance?... You have a big heart and brain for being a Shorty".

-Sorry Gajeel- i was confused... very confused. What was doing Shrimp at the infirmary? And over that crying and asking for forgiveness?- It is my fault that you are this hurt, if you haven't protect me from Laxus's attack you wouldn't be this hurt- "She is crying because of that?!"

-It's ok Shrimp- i told her with a smile and patted her head.

She sniffed, wiped her tears away and looked at me- But...

-But nothing. What are friend for?- she opened her eyes as wide as plate and the smiled as bright as the sun.

-Thanks Gajeel! Thanks for letting me be the first one in your heart- i chuckled "This girl is really strange... but i love her like that"

That day when i saw her dance at the Fantasia Parade i made my decicion "I will change for her and for me... to became the man that will win her heart".

To be continued...