**I don't hate Lisanna nor do I bash on her so it's not that kind of story**

~Standard disclaimer applied, I don't own Fairy Tail or it's characters. I only claim my OC's and the plotline. Please enjoy the story!~

Revised version ~ 10/11/15

Prologue

~Lucy's point of view~

"Luce did you hear me?" Natsu spoke a little louder.

He was looking at me, I needed to say something. I knew I had to force a smile and tell him everything was okay, that I understood his feelings and how all of this had been a bit of a mistake.

"Lucy, look I'm sorry but I never would have thought I would have a chance to be with Lisanna again let alone see her. She's everything to me, she's my first love and special childhood friend." He explained running his fingers through his hair as he glanced outside the window of my apartment.

I took a deep breath and force the best smile I could managed as he brought his attention back to me. "Geez Natsu when did you become such a romantic?" I forced a laugh and playfully smacked his arm. "It's no big deal besides it's not like our relationship was that serious anyways." I wave my hand in the air attempting to dismiss the subject. "You should go now I'm sure Lisanna is waiting for you. Besides we can still be friends and go on missions and-"

"No Lucy I don't think that will work.. Lisanna is gonna join the team, my team. Sorry Lucy but I don't think there's room for you anymore." Natsu glance at me, almost as if he had been inspecting to see if I would lose it.

"I understand after all I do cause you guys trouble, no biggie I can take care of myself Natsu." I winked at him, "Now off you go Natsu I'll be fine and please use the door for once!" I yelled at him as I walked into the kitchen trying to hide my face knowing it would betray me.

"Okay, this is goodbye Lucy." Natsu grinned as he walked out the door, leaving me. I sprint to the window to confirm he really is leaving. Lisanna had been waiting outside for him the entire time. She jumped into his arms and kissed him, he returned the kiss twirling her around as they laughed. Taking her hand in his as they walked away from my building and faded out of my view and into the night.

I slowly walked towards my door and locked it as I turned off the lights. I wanted to give off the illusion I wasn't home or was asleep. I didn't need a pity party it would only make matters worse. I glance out my window and began walking back to it. I always left my window unlocked and slightly open for Natsu, even though I always complain about him not using the door. For the first time since I moved into my apartment I shut my window and locked it.

It hurts I thought as I touch my chest, I felt the tears I had been suppressing for so long begin to roll down my face.

"So this is what it feels like to have your heart ripped from your chest." A bitter laugh fell from my mouth.

I made my way to the kitchen once again and reached into the cabinet that had the false back, luckily Natsu or Gray never discovered it. I remove the false back and pulled out the bottle of whiskey it hid for times similar to this. I threw back the bottle and drank long greedy gulps. I could feel the whiskey start working its magic which was good cause all I wanted was to be numb.

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Well my lovely readers I'm re-writing this story and doing some major editing! No worries I'm not changing the story line just adding in much needed information and correcting lots of mistakes in grammar and spelling. Once again I want to thank all of you who have reviewed and waited patiently for my updates through all my horrible writers block!

Also guys my laptop broke and I lost quite a bit of planned out story as well as chapters of my other fanfics. I haven't had much inspiration or a computer since then but not to worry my lovely readers! I am back and will cope with the loss of sweet computer somehow.

Thanks guys for all the wonderful support!

~KimmyyCubb~