After our talk, I left Maur and went home. I got to my house and just laid in my bed — for what seemed like forever — to clear my head and process it all. So much had happened in the last two hours that I couldn't really wrap my head around it.

I don't understand the way she acted the other day when we were basically making out and I asked about Garrett. It frustrates me that she said she wasn't going to leave him, like she didnt even care about me or my feelings at all. I know she told me that she was too scared to leave him but how could she put up with his shit for five years?

I can't help but remember how easily and quickly she said "I'm going to stay married to him, of course." Like it was no big deal, like she wasnt moaning my name and writhing under me not even ten minutes prior. It crushed my heart and it had me second guessing if I could actually go through with this. What if she doesn't really care about me? What if I'm just a temporary distraction until she falls for Garrett's stupid shit again? I don't know if I — emotionally — could handle that.

Maybe I should just be straightforward and ask her how she feels, but considering all that's going on she might not even want to discuss it at the moment. I should just distance myself from her on that level.

Maur wants to destory Garrett but I haven't the slightest idea how to. We wouldn't have to if she could just leave him, but she mentioned he knew something about her that nobody else could know. I wonder what it is and why it is so goddamn important that she is willing to do practically anything to keep it a secret. I mean, swingers?! Come on, what kind of shit is that? Why would he ask her to do that and more importantly, why would she go along with it? I mean, I understand she is scared of him, but she can defend herself... can't she?

My thoughts are obviously all over the place. A therapist would have a great time in my head, telling me all the problems I have and how fucked up this whole thing is.

But anyways back to this plan. I need a way to bring down Garrett and make sure that he doesn't harm both Maur and her kids.

I groaned when my alarm went off and I noticed the sun streaming in through the blinds. I don't remember when or even how I fell asleep with all of those thoughts in my head but all I know is that it was going to be an awkward day at work with Maur.

I made it to work without yelling or screaming at some idiot on the street; I would like to consider that a very big accomplishment. Just as I walked into the hospital, a young girl was brought in and her mom said she had been having constant stomach aches every night.

I walked up to the girl and introduced myself, "Hi there sweetheart, my name is Jane. Do you want to tell me what's bothering you?"

She had bright blue eyes, wavy blonde hair and looked to be about 11 years old.

She scrunched her nose up and looked at me. "My tummy has been bothering me the past few days, and I'm always tired." She pulled up her long sleeve and showed me these bruises, "And I get these very easily."

I examined her arms and noticed she had some red spots along her arms. I immediately had an idea of what might be going on.

"I'll be back, um, what's your name again, honey?" I asked.

She looked at me and quietly said, "My name is Rebecca."

"What a beautiful name. I'll be back in a couple minutes, Rebecca."

I walked into the drug warehouse, as i liked to call it, and grabbed a butterfly needle, some gauze, three viles, and a J-tip.

I made my way back to the room Rebecca was put into and explained to her and her mother what I was going to do.

"Im just going to draw some blood for lab tests to see if what I'm thinking is the cause is actually what's wrong. This won't hurt a bit, Rebecca. You see this little thing?" I held up the J-tip and she nodded. "This is going to make the spot where I poke you to make you numb, and you wont feel the needle at all."

She smiled and I counted to three and pushed on the release button for the J-tip, and it numbed the patch of skin.

"Mom I can't feel it at all! Look there is a needle in me, how cool!" she exclaimed. She seemed so fascinated by all of this.

"Rebecca stop moving she is trying to draw your blood." Her mom gave her a stern look, and Rebecca rolled her eyes. I tried not to laugh; she reminded me of how I used to act with my mom, all defiant and such.

I was able to get into her vein quite easily and got the blood I needed. I walked out of the room with her mother and informed her that it would be at least an hour or so and she nodded and thanked me.

"No need to thank me, I'm going to do all that I can to make sure she is taken care of Miss— I'm sorry, I didn't catch your name either."

"It's Natasha, and thank you Jane. I appreciate how kind and considerate you are towards my daughter. You mentioned you had an idea of what might be going on?"

"Natasha... I think your daughter may have leukemia."

Her face immediately fell and she looked as if she just recieved a death sentence for her daughter.

I reached for her hand, "I know it sounds bad but I know someone who had the same cancer and she is as healthy as can be now. I know it's a lot to take in, but it isn't confirmed yet. Now you need to be strong for that little girl in there. Positivity goes along way and helps a lot in these situations." I gave her a small smile.

She nodded, thanked me again, and made her way back into the room with her daughter.

It was now my lunch break and I found a note on my desk from Maur telling me to meet her in her office during my break. It took me by suprise but I made my way over to her office.

I walked in without knocking and was suddenly pushed against the door, her lips against mine in a heated kiss.