Hello
How are you? I had just finished to see the last episode of the first season of "Chicago Fire" and I have to say that the first season was awesome! I really can wait to start to see the second.

However, I really feel bad for Matt he lost Hallie and he was really hurt because of it.

So, I decide to start a new fanfic about that, and how his friends help him to recover of that. I hope that you like it this chapter and let me some reviews.

Just a remember, English is not my first languaje so it is possible that the chapters have some gramatical or spealling erros, so please forgive me or tell me so I can fix it.

Thanks,
Namine Redfield

Chapter 1: Without you I can't survive

Two weeks had passed since Hallie's death. During that time Matt wasn't able to sleep more than one or two hours each night. He has blamed himself of her death. He didn't mind what the coroner said in his report, if he had been stronger and faster, she will continue live.

Part of the first week after her death, he was working with Antonio Dawson and his partners in the fire investigation of the clinic. When they found who was responsible he came back to the firehouse.

In the fire house all the people were around him keeping an eye on him and making sure that he was fine. He was feeling angry because someone of his crew was asking him each five minutes how he was doing. Boden recommended him to take some free time but he refused his offer saying that in this moment he could not be in anywhere but there.

However, during the last call Matt showed to them that he wasn't fine and he even put in risk his own life without care about possible consequences. Shay asked him how he was he just answered that he was fine in spite of having a first degree burn in his right hand.

In the truck, while they were came back to firehouse, Herrmann was telling to the others firemen, how Kenny and Cindy were and all of them were making jokes to him about that, except Matt. The youth Lieutenant was in his own world. When they arrived to garage, Matt saw that Boden was there waiting possibly to him. Looking his face he can say that he was angry. One by one all the firefighter went out of the truck, Matt was the last one.

"Casey to my office now" Boden said angry "Herrmann, you're now in charge of the truck"

"What?" Herrmann said surprised "But Casey…"

"Chief?" Casey asked

"I said you to go to my office" Boden shouted to him making that all the people that were in the garage that moment looked to him

"Yes sir" he said without making eye contact with his chief.

Few seconds after Matt leave the garage Boden when to his office.

"What it is going on?"Shay asked when they arrived after taking a victim to the hospital

"Boden was really angry and shouted to Casey" Otis said

"And now they are in his office" Mouch said "I think that he is going to send him to his house"

"Oh god" Gabby said

When Boden arrived to his office he saw that Matt was standing there waiting for him. He entered, closed the door after him and sat in his chair looking to Matt all the time.

"Can you say me what the hell is on your mind in this moment?"Boden asked trying not to shout to him again.

"I am so sorry about what happen in the last call, sir" without looking at his face

"this is not what I asked you? Come on Matt tell me what it is going on? I really want to help you. I know that you are having a really hard time"

Matt continued looking to the ground and refused to answer his question.

Boden rose from his chair and approached to Matt "It's about Hallie?"He asked him softly.

"It not your business chief" he said feeling his eyes with tears

"Alright. I want you to go home and don't come back until I call you"

"sir, I am fine. I can…"

"No you can't. You almost kill yourself today in the last fire. I want that you talk to a psychiatrist. If you want I can go with you or you can ask to one of your partner, I am sure they will be glad to help you, I don't mind, it's your decision."

"I am not going to speak with anyone" he said defiant given his back to him and without his permission he was prepared to leave the office.

"Go home and wait my call" Boden said before he closes the door "Be safe Matt" he said when Matt left the office

I hope that you like it.

I will try to have the next chapters of this Fic and of my fic "Let her go" as soon as I can.

see you =)!