WARNING: FOR ANYONE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH SORT OF SEXUAL STUFF, THIS IS THE ONLY CHAPTER WITH IT SO FAR. I WILL ALWAYS WARN IT BEFORE IN CASE ANYONE IS UNCOMFORTABLE.

I wanted to be happy, but all I felt were tears. My face was in my pillow and all I could manage was to cry.
Stupid Yato. Stupid stupid stupid.

No. I was stupid. Why would think there was a possibility of romance between us? Why would I even like a smelly God like him?

"Stupid, smelly, jersey-wearing idiot!" I yelled into my pillow.

"Knock knock, here about the leaky faucet?" Yato chimed in, at the door of my room. I sat up, and he was just there. How could he just stand there.

"Go," I began to throw things at him, "AWAY". My pillow, my sweater, some books. He dodged all of it.
"Hiyori calm down, what is up with you?" A manga hit him in the head. "Ow."
"What do you mean what is wrong with me? What the hell is wrong with you?" I wanted to stop, but I couldn't stop yelling or shaking. Yato walked in and closed my door.

"Your parents are going to hear you yelling, Hiyori! Please calm down." Yato walked closer.
"Don't come closer to me, you teasing idiot!" I kept yelling. My parents weren't home. I didn't care. I ran out of stuff to throw at him, so I just sat there, staring at the mess I had made.

"Why are you being so aggressive? Is everything okay?" Yato asked, very concerned. I didn't care.
"Oh shut up!" I couldn't stop screaming at him. Why couldn't I stop? "Don't act like you care at all about what is going on with me. You're a-a liar!" Tears started streaming down my face. But I was not weak. I was angry. He had teased me. It wasn't my imagination. He had played with my emotions.
He was staring at me, his eyes look angry. I kept yelling.
"You don't care at all! You just wanted to tease me. You made me think you might feel something towards me when you asked me to get ramen with you. And then you just disappeared! You don't care about me, you don't care about anything!"
I felt I was hurting Yato and that made me finally stop.

Yato looked cold.I wiped the tears off my face and looked down at myself. I didn't notice when Yato got so close. He had sat down next to me on my bed.

"Get o-"

"You really think all of that?" Yato asked calmly, his moonlit eyes pierced mine. "Are you an idiot?"
I stayed silent.
"I've never cared about anything like I care about you, Hiyori. Never." He looked sincere. I wanted to believe him. But I couldn't. I was about to start crying again…
"Then why...why did you avoid me? Why did you make me feel like we were going on a date? Why did you say "not this"? Why-"

"Because if things keep up, I wouldn't be able to hold myself back from doing this." And he interrupted me with a kiss. My eyes were open. He pulled away fast, blushing and still on my bed.
I put my hand on my lips.
"Sorry." He said.
"Do it again." I demanded. He looked at me shocked.

"Hiyori I ca-"
"Do it again." I repeated. He sort of frowned, and grabbed my face, kissing me again. This time I kissed back. I put my hands in his hair and felt his arms embrace me.

His tongue was in my mouth, and it was making me sweat. I started removing his jersey, and he paused for a second, as if he was going to tell me to stop. But then he started kissing me harder, unbuttoning my school uniform and then pushing me back, beneath him. I threw his jersey on the floor, and he started nibbling my neck.

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"Do you want to…" I started moaning into Yato's ear, "You know…"
His hands gripped my back, but he made me stay still, then turned to look at me.
"I don't have a condom".
"But, y-you're a God?" I said the word. He was a God. I was practically having sex with a God.

He smirked, and quickly grabbed me, putting me beneath him.
"I am a God." He said "And I told you we shouldn't do this".

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He stopped. I looked up down at him. He had his face in his hands.
"See what I mean Hiyori? You make me make mistakes. I can't stop my urges around you, I end up doing things like this."

His words hurt, but I didn't cry. He got up and sat next to me, grabbing my face and kissing me.
"I love you, so much" He kissed me again. "I wish it was possible to be with you." He kept kissing me. "I want to be with you." This time he kissed me longer, passionately. He put his hand on my head and pulled away.
"But I am not a human." This time he didn't kiss me. He just stared into my eyes and I understood. I understood why things could not continue as they had.