2014 JPOV

I dropped to my knees with the pain filling me as I screamed, refusing to curl into a ball on the ground as my body wanted to. Then the pain got less, and less, pulsing out of me until there was nothing. I rose up and smirked at her. Fear bled out of every pore as she looked at me but the angry cry of Maria distracted me from ripping her head off. Maria was a good fighter, I was better, faster, Peter and Char were taking out Alec and I ran after Jane but Emmett had her head while Rosalie and Alice pulled her arms. I turned back to the battle projecting levels of fear that would make hearts explode from beating to fast, I could literally scare something to death and I made use of every once of my gift as I pumped it out to our enemies my demon was free and carnage was his art. Our side had somehow managed to gain the upper hand. Something had made Jane and Alec useless and our side was winning, annihilating those who stood against us. Some were even chasing the others away, all gifts from the other side seemed useless as I spread fear and Kate continued to shock the hell out of her opponents. It was over in minutes. I went to look for Peter and Charlotte when I heard a low growl and saw Garrett squaring off against one of the Volturi, his black cloak hiding his identity from me, it didn't matter, I didn't care who he was, my attention was on a very pale, chestnut haired girl motionless in his arms. My chest felt like a hole had been punched through it, I knew that motionless girl, her scent was soft and enticing, bewitching and tantalizing though faint under the strong scent of fire and burning venom.

Alice's shout of stop to the two men had my feet moving as I went to my mate and took her from Santiago. She seemed so fragile in my arms as I pieced it together, somehow Bella had protected us all, she had turned the tide of the war but whatever she had done, she was locked inside herself now.

Peter huffed at me to talk to her but what did I say, "I left you." I told her sadly. "It hurt every day but you deserved so much more than this existence, so much more than me. I'm sorry if you've been alone, I'm sorry for so many things Bella. I never deserved you and walking away from you? That was the worst thing I've done in my existence. You saved us today Bella. That pure heart, its always been to big, to open and loving. I've heard rumors about you from the Cullen's, other coven's and other nomads, a beautiful nomad, friendly and kind and good. I think part of me always knew it was you they talked about. Even as this you are still so pure, so good and I don't deserve you. I used to bask in your emotions when you were a human, Edward questioned if I were really your mate, that's why that happened on your birthday, they wanted to see if I'd attack you. Idiots. I'd been around your blood when I killed James. I was hungry then too. I just could never hurt you Bella. He thought I wasn't protective of you, that I didn't feel the pull to be near you. I might not have understood it but my emotions were always wrapped around you. I think you knew. You'd send me curiosity, affection, mischievousness, gratefulness, peace, you sent me so much peace; it was like you were trying to talk to me in our own little language, our own little world." I sent her a dose of what I was feeling. "I didn't even notice how much I was projecting to you back as I basked in your emotions and how good and pure they were, that peace, I think that was both of us, our emotions together, perfectly blended, you brought peace to me and I should have always been there to protect you, instead you've protected me, all of us and I still don't deserve you but I need you Bella, I need that peace back, let me in, let me feel you again." I wasn't sure if she could feel the emotions I poured into her, using all the strength of my gift, I began to pull in the emotions of the others, the sorrow and love, I poured everything into her. "Please come back to me." I begged her.

I heard movement and Edward came towards us, "I have an idea." He whispered to me. I couldn't help the low growl in my chest as he touched her arm, "Bella, it's Edward. I can't read any of the people here under your shield and Kate can't shock us but we could with the enemy. I've never been able to read you but if you can keep us out maybe you can let us in. Let me in Bella, let me read your mind and help you." His frown grew and he sighed as he shook his head at me, "nothing."

"It's a good theory." Eleazar came in, "You try Jasper."

"I've been sending her all I've got."

"Think about Jasper Bella, try to remember him and send him what you feel." Charlotte urged her gently.

"Right, except she don't remember nothing but fog before the burning!" Garrett shouted. "She recognized him on an instinct level not an emotional one."

"Tell me about her?" I asked them. Rosalie and Emmett started, telling what I had been to angry with the world to listen to before and then Garrett, then Kate and Eleazar with a few words from Carmen and even Tanya and Irina. Then some nomads I didn't know and one I'd fought in the south with, then Alice and the Cullen's, a few more nomads and Santiago and his little mate Lila. She'd been so alone for such a long time, searching for a place to belong, a family. Always so alone, even in life. I wouldn't let her be alone again. I'd stand beside her always. "Please wake up Bella." I begged her quietly.

"Has anyone tried kissing her? It works in the books?" Emmett suggested.

"Shut up Emmett." Rosalie smacked him.

"Actually…" Elezear frowned, "Garrett is right, she recognized him on instinct and that would be instinct."

"Go on Major, kiss the girl." Peter urged. My little mate had touched many lives in her short life. Too many, she'd tried to protect them all.

I leaned over her and whispered in her ear, "I'll never deserve you Bella but I will always be yours." I leaned closer and kissed her, pouring every ounce of emotion I felt and from all those around me into her.

When I pulled back she was still motionless in my arms.

"Our fear." Rosalie whispered, "we're afraid for her Jasper, what if she can feel it?"

"Her gift wont let go of us if it's connected by our fear." Lila agreed.

"I'm fillin her with as much love as I can." I growl at them.

"Your fear and ours to though Jazz." Alice whispered.

"What do we do?" Even Esme is whispering now.

"We leave." Garrett answers firmly. "We all leave."

I watched them leave and bent to her again, "Please stay with me." I whisper to her. I'm dry sobbing over her as I beg her not to go, to come back, "I don't deserve you darlin, I never did I know but please come back, don't leave me. I promise I'll do anything to make you happy, to make being this forever, being tied to me forever worth something." I bury my head in her hair as I beg, "I don't want to be alone anymore."

I feel her hand on my cheek. "We're not alone anymore Jasper."

"No." I agreed bending to kiss her again, this time she was kissing me back.

I pulled back to look at her red eyes, and to kiss her eyelids, "I'm sorry." I told her, filling her with all my regrets. "I'm sorry you were alone, that I left you, I'm sorry they did this to you, you deserve so much more. You deserved to live, to have a man worthy of your pure heart."

"You are." She whispered back softly.

"No." I shook my head, "I'm something you can't imagine."

"I know all about you Major, I've heard bits and pieces over the years and I remember what Rosalie told me, I remember that now, her giving me the choice. I chose you Jasper, my mate, I chose this life, even if it meant waiting forever for you, searching and lost and not knowing what it was I was looking for."

I shake my head again, burying my nose against her neck, "I'll never be worth your life and everything you had to give up, for all these years you've been waiting and I've been stupid and stubborn and hiding but I'll try, I promise I'll try to be worthy of your love."

"You are." She protested tilting her head to kiss my temple. "If it takes forever, I'll make you see, you were always worth it all."

Alice must have seen her wake up or they felt the absence of her shield because less than an hour later they all returned. Bella was still weak, recovering but even the Volturi Kings looked relieved she was ok. It would take time for her to recover but I'd take care of her, I'd be with her and I would spend everyday trying to be worthy of her.

I felt her fingers graze my cheek again and looked into her eyes, "You're worth it Jazz." She whispered as though she could read my mind. I just leaned down to kiss her again, maybe in her mind I was but I'd never be in my mind, she was to good, to pure, to perfect but I'd make damn sure I tried and no one would hurt her again, she'd never be alone again. We'd neither of us be alone again.