Wherever You Will Go

What happens when Bo does not accept the Valkyrie's bond?

This is a Valkubus story, set after Groundhog Fae.

Disclaimer: Sadly I do not own Lost Girl. If I did then Bo and Tamsin would already be in bed together ;)

Chapter 1:

Tamsin's POV

Tamsin sits at the bar of the Dal Riata, nursing her favorite top-shelf Vodka straight from the bottle. She has had a lot on her mind since the time-loop, Krampus incident. After leaving the crack shack she came straight to the bar. There was nowhere else to go since she couldn't celebrate with the light fae at the shack. The bar is empty, closed for the "Holidays" she had picked the lock to enter.

She was shocked that Bo had forgiven her. Ugh! Shes so damn perfect, How can someone forgive so easily. I practically threw her on that train. Her guilt was slightly curbed with every sip from the bottle, so she just kept drinking. Bo might forgive me, but I never will. She takes another long hard pull from the bottle. The burn in her throat gave her some distraction; if only for a second.

She hears the door to the Dal open and she turns around quickly. No one was supposed to be here, the place was closed. She sees Bo walk in through the door. Great. She takes another pull from the bottle, loving that burn. Her eyes stayed on the succubus as she sauntered over to the bar.

"I thought this place was supposed to be closed."-Bo

"I picked the lock. I've got nowhere else to be since my truck is busted and your shack is occupied by drunken light fae."-Tamsin

"I had the same thought. Trick is passed out in my bathtub so I figured this place would be empty. I was a little shocked that the door was unlocked."-Bo

"No worries succubitch, Its only me. I think your gramps has a crush on me."Tamsin was trying to hid her bad mood with sarcasm.

Bo looks to her and laughs. "Yeah. Apparently 'yyyou're sssssoooo prrrettty'" she mimicked Trick's slur from their attempt to talk to him.

Tamsin stood and gestured along the length of her body. "Well who wouldn't want a piece of this." She said. She watched Bo's eyes follow the flow of her hands down the length of her torso. She silently wondered if that meant anything.

Tamsin gets lost in her own thoughts. Thinking of the relationship she has with Bo. Who would be there to protect her if she couldn't? Dyson was being a jerk because she had sided with the Dark; Lauren was on team Evony now. Tamsin couldn't help but think that the pair is up to something; she knew the Morrigan still wanted Bo taken down; even if the succubus had declared herself dark. There was always some game with that evil bitch. Kenzi was strong at heart, but her body was only human. I would never leave her though, I couldn't if I tried.

Tamsin looks at Bo, who is behind the bar looking at the liquor selection. I would be nothing without her. She thought back to the moment that they were with Mossimo and she had grown her wings. She had never had wings in her other lives before, It was a sign of her last life. No one else knew what that meant for a Valkyrie. You have to tell Bo. A wave of fear washed over her. What would Bo think if she told her what the wings meant? Shake it off Valkyrie, you can do this. You can't lie to her again.

She sat there and contemplated her predicament. It's not like I have a choice. Heck it's not like I would want one. I would go anywhere with this girl, I would follow her to hell and back. I would save her from everyone... I should save her from me. Damnit. I'm a coward. She takes another swig of vodka.

Bo grabs a stool and climbs to reach the top shelf, pulling down a bottle of rum and filling a glass half full with soda. She tops it off with the rum and leaves the bottle next to her at the bar. The brunette sits across from Tamsin on a stool. Tamsin can't help but look her in the eyes. Both brown and blue, perfect. Then she shakes the thought and downs another finger of vodka.

Bo's POV

Bo watches the Valkyrie down the alcohol. The large bottle she held was more than half empty. Was that full when she grabbed it? Damn this girl can drink. She's reminded of the day the Valkyrie had broken into her house to steal her liquor; how she had climbed into her bathtub. The brunette could feel a heated blush rise to her face at the memory of the Valkyrie pressed so close to her. I wonder what it all means. She decides to press the Valkyrie for some answers. Before she gets the chance to interrogate the blonde, Tamsin starts to say something.

"Bo, there's something you should know."-Tamsin

"Is this about what you said in the candy factory?" Bo looked at her with a questioning gaze. Confused at what else the Valkyrie could have to confess. She knew that the blonde felt she didn't have a choice when she put her on the train. Yet, the Valkyrie had still fought her nature. To save me. That was why Bo had forgiven her, hell she didn't remember what happened on that train anyways; so it was hard to hold a grudge. It was just another day in the life of everyone's favorite succubus. Everything just felt weird now. Without her memory it was like she was only gone for a minute; but to everyone else she was gone for months… Everyone else had changed and she just had to adapt to it all.

As she pondered the many changes in her little family's dynamic she looked towards the Valkyrie. She's the only one who is going through the same thing. She wasn't there while Bo was gone either, she was being reborn. All these changes were affecting the Valkyrie too. Bo could see that as the blonde's memories flooded back, each day she was a little more like the old Tamsin. Which was good, Bo missed the old Tamsin. They had only just started becoming friends when the shit with the train happened; maybe even more than friends.

She couldn't deny her feelings for the blonde, not after tonight. She had felt an attachment to the blonde ever since she helped her save Kenzi. She couldn't label it just yet, but she wondered where they were headed together. Ever since the incident with Mossimo, that connection had grown. She felt like they had become really close. Then there were the kisses they had shared tonight. She blushed again.

I wonder if it meant anything to Tamsin. She turned to the blonde who was staring at her.

"Did you hear anything I just said?"-Tamsin

"Oh. No, sorry. I spaced out for a second there; but before you continue, I have a question for you. Ok?"-Bo

Tamsin's POV

"Shoot Succubus."-Tamsin

"While we were in the time-loop, and we kissed intentionally to try to stop it, you said "Speak for yourself" after I had said nothing had happened. What did you mean?"-Bo

Well it looks like this is it. The blonde looked around the room for a way out. She felt panicked, feelings weren't really her thing. She contemplated stabbing herself and ending her lifecycle but laughed the thought off. There's really no easy way out of this. She put her hand on top of Bo's from across the bar and looked at her seriously. The blonde inhaled a deep breath as she prepared herself for what she was about to say. Bo looked down at the blonde's hand on top of hers and raised an eyebrow towards Tamsin.

"Bo-"-Tamsin

"Oh hell, you started with my name and not one of your very creative nicknames. This must be serious."-Bo said. Her eyes had a worried look in them.

"I don't know what you are going to think about what I have to tell you. Yes it is serious, but you do have a choice. I don't. I have to tell you, I can't keep anymore secrets from you. Bo, when I grew wings at Mossimo's, it signified that this is my last life-"

"I know, Mossimo said that."-Bo said, cutting in.

"Yeah, but he didn't mention WHY this is my last life… when a Valkyrie falls for a warrior their final life is initiated. A bond is made. The wings are the final form of the bond being completed. This bond is a big deal for a Valkyrie, it is said that it weakens them because it puts them in their last life cycle; but it also makes them stronger during that lifetime. When we fought at Taft's I told you that when I had decided not to follow my orders, that I had cursed us both. The bond is that curse."

Tamsin stands up and walks around the bar. She kneels in front of the succubus and puts one hand across her chest, her head tilted towards the floor.

"Bo Dennis. I pledge to you my sword, my shield, my honor. I promise to follow and protect you from all evil or danger. I will be your shadow in this, my final life. For you are the warrior my heart has chosen. Eyes both brown and blue. You are virtuous, yet lustful. You protect those who could not defend themselves. You shouldn't exist. For all of these reasons, I have fallen for you. I pledge to you, my soul. To be forever bound to yours so that I may protect and guide you until my last breath."

Tamsin looks up at Bo, feeling exposed and worried that Bo will tell her to go away and never see her again. Her heart leaps from her chest to her throat. She knew Bo wasn't in love with her but she also knew she had fallen for the succubus. Hook, line, and sinker. That didn't mean Bo had to know just yet.

Bo's POV
"Please Bo. Say something."The blonde was still kneeling in front of the bar stool. Her eyes were pleading Bo to say something. Anything. Damn it why can't I think straight.

"Are you telling me that you are in love with me?"-Bo stammered. Unsure of how to respond to such a speech. Shit that was a bad response. You are a stupid, stupid succubus. She thought berating herself for ruining such a perfect moment.

"No, let me explain." The blonde looked her in the eyes. "The bond is forming because I am meant to fight beside you. You are my warrior; you will lead me to what every Valkyrie dreams of, peace. Until a Valkyrie finds her rightful warrior she lives countless lives; filled with death, despair, and greed at the will of others. They are forced to live a life of servitude and do horrible things. A last life, an end to the torment, is what every Valkyrie dreams of."

"What kind of peace? Is it death? I don't want to lead you to your death. I don't want anyone to die for me."

"We don't know. It has been centuries, long before my time, since a Valkyrie bonded with a warrior. We are just told that they find peace. If I am meant to die, protecting you, it would be worth it. I could finally stop running, stop working for people like the Wanderer."

Bo stood and shook her head. "No. Tamsin. My answer is No. I won't be your warrior. Not if it means you could die." When she looked at the Valkyrie she could see the pain in her eyes. She couldn't let Tamsin die for her, so she decided to leave the saddened Valkyrie alone. She stood and quickly brushed past Tamsin, who was still on kneeling on the floor; her eyes blank, in complete shock. She turned once to look back at the Valkyrie and tear rolled down the blonde's cheek. Bo opened the door and left her there.

Tamsin's POV

Tamsin could feel her heart breaking. Bo's words kept repeating in her head No, No, No! This isn't supposed to end this way. I'm supposed to be hers, to fight for her, to find peace. Every muscle in her body was tensed. You don't deserve her anyway. She finished off her bottle of vodka in one long gulp, then wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. Why the hell would I think I deserved peace. This is my life. One war after another, there's always another job. She looked at the bottles arranged on the bar and grabbed the closest one.

With every bottle she finished, she could almost convince herself that she would be ok, she could live without Bo; but she couldn't run. Despite how she felt; her family was here, Kenzi and Dyson. She couldn't leave them. Too bad I don't get a fucking choice with this bond shit. I couldn't leave if I wanted to. She could already feel the bond keeping her there, pulling her towards the succubus that didn't want her. She walked into Tricks lair, kicked off her shoes and landed on the couch with a soft thud. Then she spent the night drinking herself into oblivion.