A/N: I feel like the words of this song suits this fanfiction perfectly. However, if you do not like songs in your fanfiction, feel free not to read them ;)

Time: Sometime after 4x01 but not before 4x02.

Disclaimer: I do not own 'Lost Girl' or 'Pale'.

I do think that ill be only one, short chapter. I'm plannig on writing something longer about there memories being erased and then given back but I want to write it all before I post anything.

All mistakes are mine and I do apologize if they're any.

Not the same

The world seems not the same
Though I know nothing has changed
It's all my state of mind
I can't leave it all behind
I have to stand up to be stronger

The world is not the same. Since Bo came back, everything seems to be different. Technically, everything's the same, they remember everything but something's off. They came back to their lives but they are not the same. Their memories are different, new. New experiences changed them and they do know that.

Kenzi's feelings haven't changed, they became stronger. She experienced something that normally would never happen. And it hurts. Because now, she knows how it felt and there's no chance she'll ever be able to feel like that again. There's no chance someone else will feel the same about her. She knows that and it hurts. But she's a friend, a sister and she would never betray Bo. Some things can never happen again, she knows that, but still, it hurts her.

It hurts her more than it hurt before. Before it was only a dream, a crush. It became real and it tasted sweet for a moment and then against become bitter, it came back to where it was.

Bo doesn't need to know, Kenzi knows that. She never betrayed her, if she only remembered Bo's existence nothing would have happened. Bo didn't know about Kenzi's crush before, it wasn't something she needed to know. Kenzi had her secrets, some of them she kept away even from Bo. Only Vex realized but she didn't let him talk about it. No one ever could know. It just wasn't right.

She needs to learn how to live with her new memories, they all do. It'll take time, it'll be painful but hopefully, she'll get there, she'll learn how to live with all of this. She'll never forget but she'll adjust. She must.

Oh, this night is too long.
I have no strength to go on.
No more pain, I'm floating away.
Through the mist I see the face
Of an angel,who calls my name.
I remember you're the reason I have to stay.

She knows her life will be short. Fae made that rather clear that for them, her life is just a blink. They love her, she knows that but the feelings won't go away. But she trusts them that they will not leave her, when her time comes. She hopes. She trusts them, because they've been there for her when she needed them. They are with her right now, when she lies on the ground. Surrounded by her friends, bitten by under fae.

She's loosing blood, a lot of blood. She has no more strength. Sleep is all she wants. Sleep gives her a promise that her pain will go away. Sleep is good. Kenzi closes her eyes, drifting away to sweet sleep land. Pain starts to go away, her muscles relax. She wants only a few minutes of sleep, then she can fight with them again. This will make her feel better and ready to fight. Just a few minutes.

'Stay with us, Kenz. Don't fall asleep.' male voice wakes her up. Pain hits her body, she wants to scream but her voice doesn't want to come out. Her eyes shut. 'Kenzi, open your eyes, don't you dare die on me right now.' She knows the voice, she knows it too well. Her eyes opens but everything is foggy. But even then, she can recognize his face, his handsome face.

'Dyson...' she whispers.