A/N so I know you all have wanted something for Switch. I haven't worked on it yet because I am in the middle of a certification program and it will take till the summer basically. So for what I want to do with the story I need the time to dedicate to it. Writing these lil dribble when I can are just to keep my skills honed and for me not to loose interest. And because I owe Pokiepup! This one is just a short look into Lauren's mindset. Everything is post ReinBo!
Chapter 3
Lauren stood in the mirror looking at her profile. This was really happening. She was really having Bo's baby. Lauren hands spanned her growing belly. It was hardly a secret anymore though she knew Dyson didn't know about it. He'd been away on Light Fae business for the last month. The blond sighed padding over to the chaise by the window of her master bedroom.
Things with Bo were ok. But it didn't feel natural. And Lauren honestly didn't know if it ever would. Bo was attentive and loving and every bit the excited mother to be. She was at the penthouse almost every day except when Lauren flat out refused to spend time together. The doctor needed a breather every once and while.
Things were going well, it was just the undercurrent of all that had happened between them that lingered. Lauren pinched the bridge of her nose. Of course she wanted to just run happily into Bo's arms and forget the past. But she couldn't'.
It hurt.
Bo had hurt her.
And though she was sure she would eventually forgive her. She wasn't quite sure she could ever trust her again. It had been too many disappointments with Bo. Too many times she'd been left for yet another potential suitor. Now all Lauren wanted to think about was the baby. It was the only real tangible thing she could hold on to.
"Penny for your thoughts?" Evony said quietly as she stood in the doorway.
Lauren startled, rolled her eyes upward. Her smile was genuine and light. "You startled me."
"You should lock your door" Evony smiled.
"What for? I have Bruce permanently perched on my couch." Lauren chuckled.
"It's either Succubaby duty or back to being a human table." Evony's eyes narrowed.
"You promised to be nice." Lauren reminded as she turned to stare out at the skyline.
"Nice is not in my nature or vocabulary. Stop stalling. What's wrong" Evony pressed as she approached the bed and stopped abruptly. " You haven't been …." She pointed down.
"No we haven't. " Lauren shook her head with a dry chuckle.
"Why are you sitting there like someone kicked your pussy….cat." she winked.
"Just stuff." Lauren said softly.
"Succubitch Stuff?" Evony folded her hands in her lap.
Lauren nodded quietly.
"What did she do now, knock up the Valkyrie? Or was it back to the wolf. Or maybe raise her troublesome lover from the dead." Evony ticked off all the possibilities making Lauren frown. She laughed at the blond. "The man's been dead for the last 6 months doctor. You really do hold a grudge." She said clearly impressed.
"She chose him over us." Lauren said flatly.
"Over YOU." Evony rightly pointed out. She knew exactly what was pissing the blond off.
"Over me." Lauren swallowed the hurt building down in her chest. "Someone she barely knew. She just up and chose him. How long before she chooses something or someone else over me and the baby?' Lauren asked more to herself.
"That is a risk when you are taking when dealing with someone like her and her track record." Evony pointed out. "Not thinking with the little head between your legs I see. I'm impressed."
Lauren pushed out the chair. "It wasn't all sex between us. It was more. We were more." Lauren defended.
"You thought you were more." Evony interrupted. "But how much more can you really mean to a succubus. It's not her nature to settle Lauren. You're a doctor and an intelligent woman. You know this. It's what is keeping you up at night am I right?"
Lauren leaned against the wall, head bowed.
"I'm sorry." Evony said quietly and Lauren could hear the sincerity in her voice.
"It's ok. You're right." Lauren sniffed and then laughed because she really didn't want to cry. "But I love her." She whispered.
"You're intoxicated with her. It's all over you. She's in your system" Evony said sadly.
"Intoxicated?"
"Drunk." Evony smirked. "You're so drunk in love.'
Lauren nodded her head. "Mmmm"
Evony stood finally, her heels clip clopping across the hard wood floor. She stood in front of Lauren. Her hands gently cupped the blonds face. They stared into each other's eyes, the moment heavy. The brunette leaned forward and placed a delicate kiss on the doctors' forehead. "If she hurts you" she paused her voice low and thick with emotion she rarely showed. "I will take you away from here where she will never find you and keep you for myself."
Lauren smiled weakly, her eyes intense. "If she hurts me again, I'll go willingly." She said and her heart seemed to hammer a bit harder against her chest.
"I'm going to hold you to that." Evony smiled satisfied. She kissed her on the cheek and walked out the door. "Bruce get your ass up! I'm not paying you to watch reruns on the Romance channel!" Evony bellowed down the stairs.
Lauren smiled to herself.
If people only knew how much more there was to the Morrigan.
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The Dahl
Bo sat sipping her drink. She sighed deeply glancing at her phone again. Nothing from Lauren yet today, and it was driving her nuts. It was two steps forward and two steps back. All she wanted was to fix things, for things to go back to the start.
Lauren was hesitant. Of course she couldn't blame her. She really couldn't. It still hurt though.
Truth be told everyone was skittish around her. Her family seemed not to know what to do with her now. She'd turned her back on them and they'd gotten stronger and closer without her. Kenzi and Lauren were tight now; HELL, Dyson and Lauren were the epitome of a bromance. Even Tamsin and Kenzi were like mother and child. Though Bo was sure there something going on with Tamsin and Dyson, even if no one talked about it.
Either way she felt somewhat left out. Tamsin was still in her corner but sometimes it felt like she was secretly hoping for a chance at something more. Something Bo was not going to encourage anymore than she had in the past. She wanted to focus on proving to Lauren she could be emotionally faithful.
That was the real problem between. Lauren was keeping her at arms length, her emotions in check. The last time Bo had seen the real blunt force of the blonds' anger and hurt had been the night they'd conceived. Lauren was a wild angry, hurt animal that night. And she took out her frustrations on the Succubus in the only way a Succubus could really understand, sex.
But Bo wanted to get past the anger and hurt. She wanted those sweet afterglow kisses they used to have. She wanted deep longing looks while they made love. She wanted to make love. Lauren was the only person she'd ever made love to and she longed for that again.
"Hey there" Dyson's voice was gruff. He reached for the bottle of Buckthorn and poured himself a drink.
"You're back" Bo smiled genuinely.
"Yea, just had things to take care of."
"How are you Wolfie" Bo smiled nudging him.
"Not as good as you I hear. Congratulations I guess." He said but there was no malice in his voice.
"Kenzi?" Bo surmised.
"Yup. Kenzi." Dyson smiled. "So…now what?" he tossed back the rich liquor.
"Now I have a baby. I become a parent." Bo said.
Dyson's brow creased and placed the shot glass down. "I meant what are you intentions with Lauren now?"
Bo was taken aback. She felt her Succubus rile up. Taking a deep breath and breathing through her nose she narrowed her eyes. "What's that supposed to mean and when did you become Lauren's guardian?"
"Since you were off banging Reiner and left all of us hanging for new dick." Dyson growled lowly.
"And so we're back to your ego." Bo hissed lowly.
"No"
"Yes." She accused. "You don't give a shit about Lauren, you're just mad I didn't choose you."
He turned in his seat keeping things subtle.
"You're the one that didn't give a shit about anyone. You don't know how I feel about Lauren or anything else for that matter. How could you? You don't know anything about anyone!" He huffed reaching over to take the bottle again before stopping abruptly. "You didn't know Kenzi felt alone and abandoned. You didn't know Tamsin had the biggest crush on you since always! You didn't know how much Lauren hurt that you could offer to "claim" her instead of accepting her decision to stay with the Dark, just like she always accepted you." He said finally, Bo's mouth shut tight.
"Dyson."
"No. Don't" he said curtly pushing away from her. "Lauren is great. She's kind and funny and loyal. She means a lot to me. And I don't want you fucking things up for her and this baby. Do you have any idea how much it would hurt a kid to have a parent just walk out on them?" he asked incredulously.
"I would never-'
"You don't what you would and wouldn't do." Dyson said quietly. "All we know is that at this point you aren't "Our" Bo. You look like her, you sound like her, hell you even dress like her. But what happens when the next big bad wolf comes along." He chuckled at his own joke. "You left this family Bo. You just can't have it back because you want it." He said finally stepping away from her. "Congratulations, don't fuck it up."
Bo watched as he stiffly walked out the front door of the Dahl.
"FUCK!' she mumbled to herself. People had it wrong. Running away was easy it was staying and making amends to people who had loved and put their trust in you that was hard.
Swallowing back the hurt and feelings of shame Bo reaffirmed to herself her goals. She would win Lauren back. She would love her above all others and she would be the mother she never had. She wouldn't let her child down by abandoning it. She would prove to her family of friends that they could trust her with their hearts.