Hate everyone in this family except Dean.

Mary is not a mother. She doesn’t deserve the title. And Sam just straight up doesn’t deserve to be alive (or be in Heaven). My opinion. The show’s relationships are just plain stressful.

So much love for this, you write them beautifully!

Very nice perspectives,

thanks.

Thanks for this, i loved it!

I continuously forget to review your work, despite reading and loving all of them *bows head in profound shame* I, too, loved the season finale, and I couldn't be more thrilled or grateful over the fact that they FINALLY acknowledged the huge role Dean has had for the entirety of Sam's life. I've wanted to re-watch that scene but have been beating around the bush about it, because, man, all those feels! It was so overwhelming! (Have you seen the YouTube clip of a con where a fan asks Jensen about this specific scene and he says that he had told the producers that he wasn't going to cry during it? "If it happens, it happens, but I'm not gonna force it." Not even the strongest among us can manage the impossible, Jensen.)

Okay, randomness over - Your fic!

I love everything of yours I've read, and this is no exception. You always manage to capture their personalities so well. I could probably blabber on about near every sentence and why it's so perfect, but that wouldn't make for a particularly constructive or interesting read. So, here are some fav parts:

"That night, Sammy slept safe and sound, snoring softly on the mattress next to him and Dean tried not to think about how fucking hungry he was, how much he wished their dad would be here. He tried not to think about how he wasn't going to get a job anywhere because he didn't have insurance or a real address or fucking experience and no auto shop or grocery store or diner in their right mind would take him. He tried not to think about his dad never coming back - about him lying somewhere in a puddle of his own blood, eyes staring lifelessly into nothingness: never to return. He tried not to think about how they had spent their last crinkled bills on a sandwich. Or about how much money he could make if he spent the night in the nearest trash-strewn alleyway." - I want to take a moment and just praise this part. It's so gritty, brimming with frustration and fear and helplessness and hopelessness: it's so undeniably REAL. I'm truly impressed by this, and how authentically you manage to convey feelings that feel SO DEAN. Just amazing.

The sex-talk, just oh my God. I'm now convinced this is how that talk actually happened, lol. Glad you had something a little more lighthearted in here. You are a very versatile writer.

"Dean knew what it was like to love so unconditionally - so whole-heartedly that it consumed your every thought and move, that it swallowed every sliver of rationality in your mind. He had been there, where she was, on the ground, cradling his entire world to his chest and thinking of a way to reverse this pain, to make things right again." - This scene (AHBL Part 1) will forever be one of the most heart-wrenching, bone-shudderingly painful moments of the series. I can barely think about it without getting teared up. And you described Dean's feelings so perfectly, and in so few words, too! I applaud you.

"All he had ever wanted was for his family to see him." - *crawls under a mound of blankets to cry in peace*

I'll see about those other reviews that I owe you. In the meantime, know that I read and devour pretty much every word you write. Love your characterization, your pacing, your depth of perception when it comes to the boys and their twisted and complicated emotions and relationship. Thank you for sharing your insight with the rest of us.

All the best,
Linguam

This was soooo good. Thank you!

Omg, this is beautiful! All the feels ;_; ...

Hi! That was the best episode of season 12! I loved it and the brotherly moments were awesome!

Loved this story! You did an awesome job! I hope you write again soon, :)

Ahhhhhhh I absolutely loved this! I looooooved the flashbacks. Dean having the sex talk with Sam was so in character and perfect. That's exactly the way I bet it went down. You just got into Dean's head so perfectly at every time in his life throughout this fic. Dean bawling when Sam was leaving for Stanford. Guh. You ripped my heart out. And that conversation between Dean and Mary was one of the best scenes, not only of S12, but of the entire series. Everything Dean said NEEDED to be said. I know that Dean knows logically that since "John and Mary needed to get married and have the two of them" and "this was their destiny" and "it was always going to come down to him and Sam" per Gabriel, Mary's choices were still easier to blame because she started the Winchesters going down the path of playing right into everybody's hands. But like Dean said, he understood because he made the same choices. And I loved how he not only brought up that it wasn't fair to him but that how it had hurt Sam was especially bad. And Dean was helpless to stop any of it. Omg. That scene. And you added to it so much with Dean's thoughts and damn, I could just read this over and over. Thank you so much for this. *huggggs*

Amazing! I absolutely loved the scene and this story. You did a wonderful job on this! I loved the flashbacks to when they were kids. Not a lot of people can pull that off really well. You certainly did. This just about made me cry. You write Dean very well. I know I've read more of your stuff and loved it just as much, I really need to go back and review! You're a great writer, please keep it up.

Also, I am entirely with you, hoping season 13 will focus more on the brothers!

Loved it. That third to the last paragraph, about Dean's heart, was great!

eh, I thought that whole exchange of Dean blaming Mary was self-righteous and hypocritical. Dean has made similar choices to Mary, especially with a demon deal. I feel like he had no right to hate her for that. Its not like she knew she was gonna die. But I do think the series made a huge mistake bringing her back, because they just destroyed her character. Like they always do.
Although I agree with you, season 12 was pretty bad in every respect from the characters to the plot. Its just not fun to watch anymore.

*sobs I'm having a feeling. This was beautiful. Honestly, I think the most painful part of this fic and the episode, other than Castiel dying of course, was Dean saying that on the other side of this Sam, him, and his mom could be a family again and now she's gone! *sobs again

This breaks my heart, but in a good way