Wow, It's been a long time since I've updated this. I wrote before about my newborn son but now I have a daughter to add to that. One of each and they keep me busy!

Most of my stories are X-files if you can't tell. I will always love the show even the new movie was horrible. Sometimes I sit down to write another fic but I just can't get into it. So I've turned my attention elsewhere.

On July 14th 2012 I was involved in a very serious car accident. I broke both my legs and the officer on the scene thought for sure there would be a fatality. That event has made me look back on my life and think what if. What would have happened if I had let myself slip out of the world like I wanted once my kids were safe? What would have happened if my mother in law hadn't found me after I threw that blood clot and nearly died? What would have happened if I hadn't gotten in that car that day? So many questions that just don't have answers. I hold a lot of emotional pain now that the physical is over so I decided my therapy would be to write out what I thought. How I felt. The pain, the confusion, the devastation. And since I'm in love with the Big Bang Theory why not put it there?

My current story, The Dual Personality Malfunction reveals a side of Sheldon he hides but Penny sees. But before they can work it out he pushes her away and she's in my place. I wish I could write it better but it's helping me. I love the feedback I am getting from it and it's becoming a drug. I want to write all the time now. And thankfully my kids seem to like to go to bed earlier (thank you day light savings time) so I can. It's coming out faster than I could have imagined. I hope it stays that way. I really want to finish this one.

Anyway, I've rambled on enough. You can judge for yourself what you think of me. :)

Ayame2004