Life

My real first name sounds like one of the 12 months of the year and my last name means chaotic or messy. (I'm not gonna tell which language because it will be on top of the Google results if somebody tried to search it)

I have a restriction order against my foster parents so I live by myself. I am 'adopted' unofficially into a big loving family. My biological father and five half-siblings are in the Philippines and my biological mother is in Dubai.

I have five best friends. Ellene, Kimi, Karl, Anthony and Jea. Kimi, Karl and Anthony are turning 21, Ellene and I recently turned 19 and Jea is only 17.

Relationships (At this section of my profile, I am not using any real name from my life)

I have had 3 boyfriends before I turned seventeen. (I'm currently 19)

Paul

The first genuinely loved me and I did love him in return. Let's call him Paul, honestly, his real name is far from this name. His ex-girlfriend who was his best friend before they started dating got in between us and it was just a big mess. His little sister got involved in the crossfire, she was eleven at that time, a child and was blunt and honest all the time. When I was spending a day with him and his little sister, ex-girlfriend came (she was dropping off some baking utensils her mom borrowed from Paul's mom) and it became awkward. I didn't really care that they were still friends after they broke up, many people want a clean break-up, but then she made it clear that she didn't like me (It wasn't hard to notice at school). That's where little Kathy comes in. She declares that she liked me better than ex-girlfriend. Of course, ex-girlfriend gets mad and - I don't know what her deal is, maybe she had a bad day or something - started yelling at Kathy, I got mad, my ex-boyfriend got mad and Kathy was crying and that's when it's started.

We didn't break up specifically that day. It was two weeks after this when we broke up. Everyday since that 'yelling incident', she tried to jeopardize my time with Paul. We were trying hard to ignore her and it wasn't easy. In the end, I found her and Paul kissing and so I broke up with him. It felt like he broke up with me though. He told me that he did that just to make her leave alone but my logic was - at that time - if you could do it once, you can do it again and I am not letting that happen. Who wants their boyfriend to kiss his ex-girlfriend so he could spend the day with his girlfriend peacefully? I hope there's no one. Next thing you know he is doing it with her, just so he could do it with you peacefully.

We dated for three and a half months.

Mike

Mike, my second boyfriend was a year older than me when we dated. Our relationship had no drama whatsoever. I did break a few school rules with him two times, this was something that surprised my friends because I was a 'submit assignment on time' kind of student. He convinced me to skip and cut class and I also submitted two essays late. Our times together were fun, and all Rated K. Honest. It was when we went to parties did we notice our differences. I can drink. But only until my limit. When I can feel that I'm about to get drunk, I stop. Mike was fine with it but his friends were not as open-minded as he. He and I drifted apart and by the time we officially broke up, we were already 'broken up'. It was mutual decision though. While my reason was I can't keep up with him and that I don't wanna embarrass myself and him in front of his friends, his reason was that, he liked me the way I was and if he changes me for worse, he's not gonna forgive himself. We're still friends now. Last time we talked, he had just started a relationship.

Interests

My favorite color is purple.

I love anime but it has been a while since I watched a new series.

My top list though is:

1. Hunter x Hunter (2011 and 1999)

2. Code Geass (all seasons, including Boukoku no Akito)

3. Naruto (and Shippuden)

4. Bleach

I am writing a gender-switched fanfic of Hunter x Hunter, (femkurapika) but I have no problem in shounen ai and yaoi fanfics. I just don't have experience in it I guess.

I love Kurapika's character song and I sing it a lot.

Hi ni moeru hitomi

Hokori takaki kanashimi wakare to deai no saki
Tada toki wa sugiyukedo nao kurikaesareru ayamachi
Shizuka ni katarikakeru senjin tachi no sakebi
Oto mo naku kodamasuru iki hisome toki wo matsu hana no you ni
Ishi wo tsugu mono ni takusareta rekishi no hikari to yami
Manazashi no uragawa ni himeta negai
Akaku akaku akaku moesakaru
Akashi kesshite kesshite tayasanu you ni
Kono ikari (1) yadoshita hi no hitomi ni chikaou

Sukuigataki kurushimi munen to chiru tamashii
Wakachiai tataeyou nao kedakaku nokoru kagayaki
Uchi ni himeta kanjou osaekirenu tekijou
Todokisou de todokanai yosete wa kaesu sazanami no you ni
Tsumibukaki mono ni kaserareta tsugunaikirenu mirai
Mune no oku fukaku kizamareta ketsui
Akaku akaku akaku moesakaru
Shisen kesshite kesshite sorasanu you ni
Kono inori yadoshita hi no hitomi wo towa ni

Chirabaru musuu no hitomi karamaru kumo no ito
Toutoki inochi no sukui no tame nara watashi no hate nado oshikunai

Atsuku atsuku atsuku moetagiru
Omoi kesshite kesshite asenu you ni
Akaku akaku akaku moesakaru
Akashi kesshite kesshite tayasanu you ni
Kono inori yadoshita hi no hitomi ni chikaou

Eyes burning scarlet (English Translation)

Proud sorrow, at the point of parting and meeting
Time simply passes by, mistakes are still being repeated
Silently, they speak to me, the cries of my ancestors
Reverberating without a sound, like a flower holding its breath waiting for time
The light and darkness of history, entrusted to the one who will carry out their will,
The desire hidden behind their gaze
Red, red, red, burning passionately
That the evidence may never, never be erased
I swear to these scarlet eyes containing the fury

Hopeless agony, souls fluttering with regret
Let’s share their feelings and pray, for their remaining dignified radiance
Feelings hidden deep within, cannot control the enemy’s movements
Almost within reach, but I cannot reach them, getting closer but returning like a ripple in the water
The sinners burdened heavily with the future they cannot atone for
The determination cut deeply within my heart
Red, red, red, burning passionately
That I may never, never avert my eyes
These scarlet eyes containing this prayer are everlasting

The innumerable eyes are scattered, intertwined with the thread of the spider
If it’s for the sake of saving invaluable lives, I don’t care about my own limits

Hotly, hotly, hotly aflame with passion
That my emotion may never, never fade
Red, red, red, burning passionately
That the evidence may never, never be erased
I swear by these scarlet eyes containing my prayer

This translation is not mine.