Every morning as Blaine prepares himself for the day he hopes that his hair gel is thick enough to hold himself together and that today won't be the day Kurt realizes how worthless he is.

AU in which Kurt and Blaine do not meet until they go to college. Blaine's life isn't working out the way that he wishes it would and he cannot handle it. This is mostly about Blaine and his internal thoughts dealing with his depression.

Four times Kurt sucked his thumb, and one time Blaine gave him something else to suck on. Kurt sucks his thumb when he is upset and Blaine will do anything to make him stop.