2 Sept 2020:

Last year I was hospitalized for major depression. As part of the treatment, I was pressured into ECT. It messed me up badly. I now have problems with my memory, my ability to do math, and my language abilities.

I am taking another shot at fanfiction so I hopefully can recover some of what I lost.

I am doing this for me. As before, if you have constructive criticism, I appreciate it. Anonymous flames...feel free to take a baseball bat, wrap it in razor wire, and shove it up your...

I do not have a beta. If you are interested in becoming my beta, I would appreciate it.

PLEASE: If you do not enjoy my ideas or my stories, DO NOT READ them. I am not forcing you to.

You should know...if you are reading any of my stories, I absolutely despise Albus Dumbledore and Molly, Ron, and Ginny Weasley. For me, Dumbledore is just like Donald Trump: a manipulative liar who is more concerned with his own image and reputation than with objective fact, who is more comfortable using people rather than protecting them, listening to them, or treating them fairly; who intentionally plays off of fear and prejudice and drives wedges based on hate and intolerance between various groups; and who thinks the world revolves around him alone. Remember, "For the Greater Good" was the slogan that Dumbledore and Grindewald decided upon for their movement to take over the world...they just went around it in two different ways. While Grindewald preferred a confrontational approach, Dumbledore would rather work behind the scenes, brainwashing generations of students, controlling the legislative process of the Ministry of Magic to ensure that no real changes ever took place; and serving as the Supreme Mugwump to ensure that the ICW never got involved in his own personal kingdom. Those three Weasleys are just Dumbledore's pawns. They blindly obey him and never really look out for Harry's best interests even though Molly considers herself Harry's mother figure, Ron considers him his best friend, and Ginny wants to snag the boy hero that she doesn't know at all as her own.

To summarize: IF YOU DO NOT LIKE WEASLEY AND DUMBLEDORE BASHING, DO NOT READ MY STORIES

It's not paranoia is a story that I am currently working on and am trying to edit it substantially before I post it.

Am I in Hell is a story that I am still working on. However, much of it was written during the lowest points of my depression. When the HPD towed my car and took because I was homeless, I lost over 300 double-sided handwritten pages of that story. For my size of handwriting, that corresponds to nearly 500 11 point single-space, double-sided pages. That was last November. Since then, I have been trying to re-create it. It sometimes reads like a stream of conscious thought. While I think it contains my most original work and ideas, I admit that it is not very polished. So far, I have only been able to recreate about 40 of those 500 pages. Unfortunately, with the memory issues, I am starting over and rediscovering ideas that I had already written about. It is a do-over story that works on the premise of Lily Evans was a muggleborn genius and would not have left her muggleborn friends to the mercy of a corrupt ministry and Voldemort...and James was desperate enough to fund her project to win her over. What the two of them started has blossomed since their deaths and leaves Harry with something completely outside the control of the MOM and Dumbledore. I will start posting what I have of that story over then next several weeks. My goal is to update at least one of the stories every week.

I do not usually abandon stories. If I am stopping the story, I try to wrap up the major themes in a single last, large chapter.

27 Sept 2016

I am tired of the hateful negative reviews I receive on fanfic and will be removing all of my stories in short order. I do not write for you, I write to let myself escape. I felt I was doing a service by letting people read what I wrote, realizing that no one was forcing you, that if you liked the stories you would read them, otherwise, you would not.

I'm sick of people telling me how horrible they thought one of my stories was and how they were going to stop reading it, only to have them then do the same thing for each of the others. Really, how petty and pathetic are you that you have nothing better to do?

Publishing here does not allow me to relieve stress, it is actually adding to it.

My stories will be posted for one more day or so and then I will take them all down.

My experiences here have helped me to understand why the number of new fics on fanfiction.net have decreased so steadily.

I will continue to read others' stories and post reviews when I have something positive to say.

I would like to shout out to alix33 for consistently offering constructive feedback in a non-insulting manner. For other writers, I recommend you take that user's feedback seriously as it has consistently helped me to improve my stories (from little things like realizing that I had added oblivates to my spell checker, but not obliviate/obliviated and that autocorrect was automatically changing those to oblivates to gently pointing out inconsistencies and pointing out my truly novel contributions). The fanfiction.net community could use many more users like alix33.