Wow...

So, I have had this stupid account for 8 years. Eight years! This site has seen me through multiple accounts, fandom changes, writing style shifts and interest overhauls. But in the end I still came back to the original "emo" centric name I choose at 14 -which was not one of my finer phases in life.

Like dear god, talk about embarrassing. What the hell is a deep cut fighter? Do I fight people with already dangerously large wounds? Because that seems counter intuitive to me.

Also like omg what was my Twilight -post New Moon, Bella is a Rockstar ONLY phase.

Deep soul quaking shudders*

Well I like to think I have grown since then, and to be honest I think I have since biologically I have not stopped aging. Though I might have wished one to many times on a star for it to stop because omg adulting is hard and I am not prepared or responsible... and I spent $32 on asparagus, help!

I just want to sit in my bed and read about precious murder babies and watch trashy action movies where its just *explosion* hot guy *explosion* car chase *explosion *hot guy shoots some stuff* *Close up on bullets* *more explosions* hot guy walks away from explosion he created -probably a burning car or warehouse?? *final explosion*

I digress, I don't know what this account will bring -short stories, poems, garbage self-inserts? But for now it will just be a horrible mess collection of old and few favourites.

Also idk if I want to leave those two original pieces up, because one is a horribly, awfully written pseudo-r*pe. Please DON'T ask, my weird "emo" phase spawned some weird try-to-be-dark ideas and also my desire for harems probably stemming from a lack of interest from boys at the prime and awkward age of 14 (okay getting deep there, this is not a therapy session). So I choose three strong male characters -primarily not abusive (looking at you Edward), to save her and swarth her in protection... The more I speak the more I am confirming my decision to take that shit down.

Yeah, because now I am not really any better though? Since unhealthy co-dependency and violent, "I love you so much I can't stand it so I will just punch you in the face. FUCK!" dynamics are kind of my thing... I add dark humour so like that fixes it... right?

Also the other one is a terrible stupid sexual misconception, which has so many plot holes you couldn't walk a solid two feet before you either tripped or just fell straight down one... into the pits of hell because that is where these cringe-worthy things deserve to die...

Can you tell I am angry sensi over my old stuff? Yeah probably like any is unless you were a master literate at 14 years old. Which you weren't. Bleh