la la la i get bored and change my profile despite the fact that it seems to be physically impossible for me to do anything more than set up an idea for a fanfic :B

but somehow, people still find me here, so WHY NOT i'll edit my profile to give you a better idea of the psy. because... you care and all.

i'm psy. location, age, gender, all that stuff is really unimportant. ask anyone who has ever talked to me, psy is psy, no matter what. things such as interests and hobbies change rather often and since i'm probably not going to change this for another billion gazillion years, i'll leave it. because i don't want to come back and be all 'OH GOD THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE SEE OF ME?' even though i'll probably do that regardless because i have a tendency to disregard almost anything i've written/done more than a week ago as utter garbage and 'oh god what the fuck was i thinking?'

but as much as i might not care for my older writing, it's there to remind me of my retard roots. and for lulz.

wanna hear some story behind my stories? probably not, but it's quarter till three in the morning and i've really got nothing else to do.

Star Wars and the Holy Grail Episode 1 - i really have no idea how this story escaped the purge of the script fics. all my dse ones were trashed, but those had no real redeeming value anyway. And you probably look and are all 'GOD ANOTHER HOLY GRAIL SCENE WITH STAR WARS CHARACTERS, GOD AT LEAST BE ORIGINAL' but take a closer look. go to the star wars section, switch the genre to humour and go to the oldest. and just scroll, looking for the holy grail fics. that's right, first. give me the ribbon for being the first to suck from the great teat of monty python. HA HA GOT YOU I'M UNORIGINAL. i stole the idea from the x-files fandom. the funny part is i actually had probably half the movie written up--luke as sir robin, lando as sir galahad, wedge as sir lancelot, so on and so forth. but probably for the good of all humanity, the pages disappeared into hammerspace.

Vengeance - i really don't have much memory of this fic, but i cringe to go back and read it. i suppose this is when i realized that i can't write much that doesn't involve characters brooding and angsting for whatever reason. and holy crap this predates me getting into slash and even my obsession with lupin. pretty sure it's crap, but who knows.

Nostalgia - this was originally my plan to draw out every second of poor professor remus j lupin's life into a craptacular angst-fest. but because me = giant flake, i never got past the first chapter, again, probably for the good of all humanity. probably was going to end up as sirius/remus slash but it's a good thing i never got there because at that point i still had not even the vaguest idea of how gay sex worked, or the fact that one of the males in fact does NOT have to be a flat-chested woman with a penis! unfortunately that last bit seems to still elude most of fandom... hm. another one i refuse to go back and read.

Saying Goodbye - OH LOOK ANOTHER UNNECESSARY ANGST RAPE OF POOR LUPIN! seriously, that's all it is. probably was going to part of nostalgia before i flaked out, i mean got bored of, i mean put that project on permanent hiatus. i have hardly any recollection of what actually happens in it :B

Close Your Eyes - delicious, delicious sap, and my first foray into the wonderful world of slash. sirius/remus because 'they're made for each other it's practically canon lolz'. surprisingly enough, i do not hate this story! i really find it the turning point in my writing, where shit at least started to look a little bit up. but god forbid, i had lupin have grey eyes not amber 'like a wolf omg'. augh. but this gets minus a million points for horrendously sappy gay sirius. i dunno, people really like it though, by far the most popular of my fics. random fun fact - people have translated it into both spanish and portuguese. writing sap of a popular pairing ftw.

A Thousand Words - ha ha sorry this is the closest you'll ever see me come to writing smut in a fic. mostly because i laugh so hard at bad smut that i can't bring myself to even try to write it, because i know millions of gay men out there will be all 'UR DOIN IT WRONG'. and because hahahaha penis. i've still got a soft spot for this one because i proved to myself that i can write fluff. not necessarily good fluff, but hey. cut me some slack here. for years i've been meaning to go back and tack on a couple of extra lines where sirius threatens to pimpslap remus for using such a cheesy cliche... or something along those lines. also guys, i know the french is a terrible translation. this fic was written seven years ago.

Survivor - don't care what anyone else says, even years later i love this damn fic. i'm not arrogant enough to say it's amazing omg the best thing ever, but i'm still proud of it. there was supposed to be a series of fics like these--wedge from the perspective of different characters. actually finished one, but it was a really crappy follow up to this and oh yeah i'm a flake. in hindsight i'm really, really glad it was left as a standalone.

Art is Relative - right off the bat after playing the world ends with you, i fell in love with sanae hanekoma. scruffy, sunglasses, button up, waistcoat, ambiguous morality, OHHAYHUGESPOILERfallen angelOKAYHUGESPOILERISDONE, coffee, mentor figure... talk about some serious freaking bulletproof kinks holy crap. minamimoto caught my attention too but holy shit he's hard to write. this fic is practically the ultimate example of the type of stuff i write. paragraph after paragraph of internal, pensive babbling, and then like one thing happens. the headcanon for sanae's out of date, but i dont think too much of it shines through.

A Long Way Down - holy crap hi mass effect. this was me exercising my writing muscles. it's a bit clumsy, but i love broody shepard and/or garrus. i did my best to keep shepard super vague so everyone could picture their shepard in there... but i really want to write about my shepard specifically. problem is, no one but me cares D: D:

Fall From Grace - this is specifically because i wanted some hanekoma/minamimoto, and for no other reason. i'm actually pretty sure that this was the first piece of sanae/sho out there. definitely was on the twewy lj community. so go team me i guess.

Repercussions - this... oh god this. it really just started off as an excuse for some angst and for me to describe mr. hanekoma's apartment. then things just happened. and the ending... this is what i get for not deciding on how i'm going to end something before i write it. i got down to josh and neku were talking and could not for the life of me think of a different way to end it. which sucks because i still have not been able to figure out where to take it. i've got a stupid amount of headcanon, but... no plot :/

Loose Soul - this was probably the easiest thing i have ever written. it was an lj request, and rhyme ended up being the easiest person in the world to write. this fic just makes me warm and fuzzy =D

Affirmation - this came about from me trying to get people to write mr. h selfcest. no one did, so i tried to. but since i suck balls at pairings, it turned out like all the weird pensive stuff i write. not that i'm not happy with the way it turned out. it's probably only second to survivor in how much i like it.

Mean Value - minamimoto/konishi request. LOL GUESS WHO HAD TO GOOGLE MATH PICK UP LINES. this pairing is awesome, but sho is so stupid hard to write. i like this fic but it doesnt really stick out in my brain too much.

The Last Laugh - ffff. secret santa, prompt of josh/neku. ... and that's it. truth be told, i like josh/neku. i think they've got interesting personalities that interact in a fascinating way. but i hate josh/neku fic. mostly because i hate almost everyone's portrayal of josh. i just get that deep 'UR DOIN IT WRONG' feeling. but yeah, probably the only josh/neku fic i will ever write. secret santa for the following year i got... the exact same prompt. and said screw it.

Consideration - AND EVERYONE WHO HAS ME ON WATCH GOES WTF. ahahaha screw you i wanted to write a digimon fic. far from one of the best things ive ever written, but its the first time in a long time ive pushed my writing abilities. it actually has scene changes and different character perspectives. so yeah i dont know how i feel about it.

as you can tell, my fandom involvement has spread a lot over the years. like most people, my interest in different things comes and goes. BUT. i obsess over characters. i have a habit of picking one or two and fixating on them like crazy. even years later, i think about them, even if i don't write it.

so there you have it. i'm psy and damned if i'll ever take myself, my fic, you, your fic or really anything seriously. ever. 'cause i'm awesome like that. the journal linked up there is my livejournal, which has most of these and a few more, not to mention all those fun internal musings and babblings. some headcanon. things that never made it into fics. dunno, someone might find it interesting.