Hello Xion is back! This time with a D'Gray Man story :D

And yes I've finally written another Angst story! You know like Angst Authors are supposed to! Sorry I haven't updated my other stories in a while... Exams are serial killers... and they haven't even started yet! Yeah I've been studying for exams All Break! But today we got a snow day so I decided, hey im bored might as well update! So here is a new story. Enjoy!

Now We Must Say Goodbye

"You're a Monster!" the red head's voice stung Allen's heart, but as he should, he stood and took the abuse. "Just... Go...Go Die!" Allen obeyed his friend's command and walked out of the black order through the front gate. The cliff loomed in front of him like a big welcome sign. Allen stared at his hands in horror. He couldn't stand it.

"If everyone wants me gone, what's keeping me here?" Allen laughed humorlessly. He stood at the edge and smiled looking to the stars up above him twinkling in hypocrisy. "Leenalee is terrified of what I might do. Kanda was hurt trying to defeat me. Lavi hates me through and through. And master wants nothing to do with me. I fulfilled my roll by beating the earl. So now I guess I'm trash once again. I'm so sorry I couldn't protect anyone... I'm sorry Kanda I never meant to hurt you but I couldn't suppress the fourteenth... not that it's an excuse...I'm sorry Lavi. I'll go ahead and be the person you need to hate for the death of the old panda."

Unbeknownst to Allen, Lavi stood at the doorway of the order listening to him rant, his eyes wide and tears brimming his eyes. Hateful tears, hateful only because he remembered why that white haired boy had been the first to open up his heart and read it like a book, and yet here he was watch that same white angel ready himself to jump off a cliff because Lavi asked him to. The said red head turned and left the gate entrance. Kanda limped over to his shadowy presence.

"Where's Moyashi?" he asked with newfound determination. Lavi looked at him with sad eyes and sighed, continuing his path to his room. Kanda followed him. Lavi finally gave up and turn harshly.

"He's DEAD!" Lavi screamed in the long haired exorcist's face. He took and deep breath again and with venom in his voice, finished his sentence. "That sick monster of a human is dead."

Kanda stood in shock at how the rabbit described his own best friend. "How could you, you sick bastard?" Kanda grabbed hold of the front of the rabbit's shirt out of anger. "He was mine to kill! I deserved to see to his end!" Kanda said furiously. "He humiliated me and you decide to kill him out of own self pity!" Lavi knocked Kanda's hand away.

"I didn't kill him! He committed suicide." Lavi said plainly and simply. He smirked at Kanda's snarling face. "He jumped off the cliff because I told him to." Tears unintentionally spilled from his eyes "I killed him... I killed him and he was innocent." The smirk melted off his face and Lavi collapsed on the headquarter floor. He held his head between his hands. "I watch the boy who saved my life die and didn't do anything to stop it..." Kanda stood above the rabbit, completely confused.

**d-_-b Meanwhile d-_-b**

"Dear Allen-kun, you mustn't do such horrible things to yourself." The voice of the Millennium Earl rang clear through the white haired boy's foggy mind. "It would be a shame if you were turned into an akuma." The humor in the man's voice was evident.

"I don't have anyone to turn me into an akuma... they all hate me." Allen murmured into the trademark yellow jacket.

"Who hates you?" The demon was confused due to the fact that last time he had seen the boy he had been with a hoard of loyal friends.

"Everyone..." Allen sighed and looked up at the fat man. "They found out about the fourteenth and they're all scared of me now." Allen's usual cheerful silver eyes had become a detestable broken grey, mimicking the stormy clouds above them. "I'm alone again..." the earls eyes widened when tears streamed down the boys face.

"You're not alone; you just haven't found your family yet." The earl said with a spark of sentiment in his demon eyes. "You don't belong with the exorcist. They don't respect you, they fear and hate you." The Earl patted the snow white head of the ex-exorcist. "Come home to us, Allen-kun." Allen nodded and a familiar checkered door appeared in front of them.

"Welcome Home, Fourteenth."

Care for me to Continue? Oh and remember to R&R and you might find a neko Allen-kun at your doorstep. 3 3

~Xion2010