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CHAPTER 9

SHE WILL BE LOVED

I led Christian to my room and all I knew is that my heart was beating so fast that I can almost hear it. We held hands upon sitting on my bed and his eyes were closed. His beautiful face was in so much pain and what hurts the most is that tears are flowing down his cheeks.

It was nature that made me wipe those away. No way that I am going to let myself see the love of my life being torn up and crashed.

After a long time, he opened his eyes and whispered, "Baby?"

"Yes?" I barely whispered.

"You're still my baby, right?" That made me roll my eyes. He looked so sad and anxious and it just makes me want to cry. The whole time we were together all I saw was a really strong workaholic man. I never expected that because of me, he would show up the weak side of him.

"Christian, please . . . it hurts me seeing you like this!" I almost yelled.

He flinched and replied, "Please just answer my question."

I paused for awhile and took a deep breath. I withdrawed my hand from his only to cup his chin. We looked straight into our eyes and I know that this is it. This is the very moment when I will finally know the truth. I will find out why he is hiding me from the public eye.

"I will answer that if you would tell me everything." I pleaded. Then, he took a deep breath and pulled my hand to his. He kissed it tenderly and inhaled again.

"Ana, my mother is not like that before. She used to be the strongest woman I know. But . . . I guess everything won't ever be the same. We are three siblings. I am one in the middle and Mia is kind of the spoiled brat. Meanwhile, Elliott is the jock. He is the one who never failed to be confident. It came to the point when he became arrogant. He was a player, Ana. He was mean and selfish to others but regardless to that, our mother clearly loved him the most.

Then, when he was twenty one, a long time ago, he met a girl and he was smitten over her. He can define her in one word. She is his world. He changed because of her. He became this wonderful person who we've grown to love. He completely changed into a better person named Elliott Grey. He asked to marry her and she said yes." He was almost going to say something but he stopped.

"Please continue" I encouraged him with full intensity.

He gathered all his strength and said, "A week before their marriage, he went home and found her having sex with another guy on his bed. Elliott lost it. He beat the guy to his comatose state. The girl was fearful and she just fled. Mom knew all these and she was deeply hurt. She tried to find the girl but she just can't find her.

That was the beginning of the tragedy. Elliott stopped working. He left his construction business just to sleep with hookers, take drugs and drink alcoholic beverage. We tried everything to make it stop. One night changed my mother. Elliott was brought to the hospital due to the overdose of marijuana. He almost died, Ana. He almost died. That day, Mom finally decided to send him to rehab. Her mission was to bring a new Elliott but I guess a new version of herself came too."

My heart broke upon hearing that. I held his hand tighter and asked, "But Christian, why did she cheat on him?"

Christian chuckled in sarcasm and said, "When the guy woke up, he told my mother that he and the girl had been together since childhood. They had this plan to marry Elliott and get divorced after some time. The girl would have a huge amount of money and he and that bastard would live a happy life together while my brother suffers."

I frowned at that. How could anyone be so cruel? How could anyone be so horrible? You can't just pretend that you love someone! "I'm sorry, Christian." I whispered.

He just kissed my cheek.

Then, I awakened. "But why, Christian?"

"Why what?"

"Why hide me from the world?" I asked, finally speaking what I have been feeling for months.

"I apologize for that, Baby but . . . ever since that incident happened, my mother has been cautious about the girls I've been dating. She was paranoid, Ana. I dated a lot but it all was crashed. She kept tabs on the girls making them run away from me. We argued a lot. She decided I won't get married because I will end up like Elliott."

I shook my head at that. "No, it's not right. She must know me first. I am not like her. I am the one who truly loves you."

"I cannot blame her. She's been hurt too much." He said.

I shook my head again and again. "Christian . . . why didn't you tell me this? Why did you make me think that you do not love me that enough to show me in public?"

He answered, "It's because I am afraid that I might lose you. It works in both ways, Ana. You will know the truth and you will probably give up on me. Then, if my mother knows, her extreme paranoia would heighten and she will make you leave me."

I shook my head. "No, Christian. It is not like that. You are wrong in both ways. I won't ever give up on you."

He looked at me intensely but I told him first, "Christian, sometimes you make me feel like I am unloved. You criticize my job and you do not let me become myself. It is like you are putting me on a pedestal."

His eyes widened at that and he gasped, "I do that?"

"You don't think so?"

He opened his mouth. His jaw dropped and it felt like I just hit him with a rock. "I am so sorry, Ana. I never thought I was so insensitive. I'm so sorry. Ana, I am so sorry." Then, it was my weakness he kissed me over and over again. I did not even know how we ended up lying down on my bed.

When he pulled away, he promised, "I vow to you, Ana. From now on, I will stop being the asshole that I am. I will be the one who deserves you."

I can almost cry at that. He continued, "No matter what they say, no one will make me stop loving you. No one will destroy us, Ana. No one . . . because I am desperately in love with you."

We made out for awhile but he pulled away and asked, "Will you promise me something too?"

"Yes" I whispered.

"Promise me that you will never be afraid to speak up to me ever again?"

I smiled at that, "Promise" We both smiled at each other for one moment and that's when he asked again, "Are you still my Baby?"

"Of course, I am still your Baby. I love you, Christian."

"I love you too Baby"

Then, that was it. That's all I need. This is the beginning of the times when I will feel loved by no other than Christian Grey, the love of my life. I said, "Now, let's get to sleep before you meet the other members of my family tomorrow."

But we all know it was more than sleeping.

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