Chapter 4:

"Matt I'm not sure about this" Chris said as Matt got comfortable in the Nemo chair they repaired.

"I'll be fine Chris really, I am the Cyber God"

"I hope so" she muttered before starting up the consoles, she was no matt miller but she had enough knowledge to do some minor damage through the cyber world, thanks to Matt, "ready?"

"Yes" Matt replied as she pulled down the thing that hovered over Matt's forehead, before she was able to move away he grabbed her wrist softly and pulled her closer, puckering his lips so she knew what he wanted. She gave him a smile before leaning down and kissed him gently.

"Just be careful" she said after pulling away and started typing on the computer next to the chair.

"I will" he promised.

Typing in the final code Chris pressed enter and soon Matt was sitting on the chair, motionless but breathing. All Chris could really do was wait until he woke.

"I want you gone Matt" Alex growled as she stood over the cowering Matt,"as soon as those discounts go through I want you out of Steelport"

"Yes defiantly, as long as you spare me I will be out of your life forever" Matt pleaded, still flinching slightly whenever she moved that hand cannon around which was still pointed in his direction.

"Also another thing" Alex carried on, "you are not to flee with my sister, she is to stay here in Steelport, just leave and don't say anything to her and don't contact her once you leave, just stay out of her life altogether"

"What? Why!"

"Unless you want to become a vegetable Matt I suggest you do what I say"

"But I want an explanation!"

"Because you don't fucking deserve her that's why, your just a little punk behind a keyboard, she deserves someone better than that"

Matt was at loss as to what to do, he was so afraid of dying that it just wasn't a choice but leaving Chris? They had been best friends for almost 3 years and only 3 and a half months ago had he plucked up enough courage to confess how much he liked her, and now he has to leave her.

"Alright" Matt sighed in defeat as he watched the Saints leader disappear before pulling himself out of the simulation.

Opening his eyes to the real world only made the ache in his heart more painful as Chris released him from the chair and hugged him tightly, muttering something about 'glad he was safe' and 'can't believe you're alive'.

He just stood there, a hollow look in his eyes as he hugged her back just as tight.

"You alright?" Chris asked pulling away slightly. He didn't reply however, just brought his right hand to her face and pulled it towards his, gently colliding their lips in a sweet, apologetic kiss that seemed to last for hours but in reality was seconds.

"Your sister spared me, but I have to go deliver a message to Killbane immediately" Matt said when he finally pulled away, he could hide the sadness from his eyes when she nodded.

"You'll be back after though, right?" She asked with hopeful eyes.

"Yes, of course" 'LIAR LIAR LIAR' his mind screamed at him as he said those words.

"After thinking you might go brain dead, I was so worried, I need to tell you something when you come back"

'I'm not coming back' Matt though sadly.

'I need to tell you that I might have fallen for you, before something like this happens again' Chris encouraged herself.

"I have to go" he said as he made his way up the basement stairs and into her kitchen with Chris on his tail.

"Do you want me to come with you?" Chris asked, seemingly knowing something was a bit off with him but presumed it was because he lost at his own game to her sister.

"No thanks" he grimly replied, he walked towards his Solar car and hopped in, starting it up.

"See you later" Chris said.

"Yeah" was all he replied with before driving off. Once he was out of sight Chris slapped herself.

"You moron! You should have told him before he got into the chair, but nooooo you put off the idea" she scolded herself, "so then you thought I'll tell him when he comes back to reality and yet you didn't tell him then! And now you've pushed it to when he comes back, seriously Christina?! Seriously?!" She pouted, "You have got to tell him when he comes back or ill eat your NyteBlayde comics! Actually no that's a terrible idea" she kept talking to herself, she sighed heading back into her house which all she could do was wait again.

She waited, and waited and waited till she could no longer stay up and found herself on the sofa the next morning.

"Matt?" She called through the house but got no reply, "what the fuck is taking him so long?"

Chris had tried calling him and texting him but it went straight to voice mail.

Feeling at loss of what to do Chris decided to do her usual routine in the morning, shower, get dressed and make breakfast whilst turning on the radio to 'The Mix' she always loved the greatest hits and not knowing those songs were a crime, but her usual morning boogie was interrupted by the unforgettable sound of a news report, and that god awful sound of that Jane Valderamma's voice.

"Computer security experts breathed a sigh of relief today as word spread that super hacker Matt Miller has sworn off modern technology and left town. Former associates of Mr Miller have stated that he has always been fascinated by Neo-Luddism and decided it was time to make a change. Some experts in the field have speculated that recent cyber warfare initiatives by STAG and the Saints lead to Matt Miller's change of heart, but both organizations were too busy celebrating to comment. This is Jane Valderamma with your Steelport Cyber News"

Chris had frozen on the spot, Matt left town? Impossible! Otherwise he would have taken her with him right? He couldn't just leave her, not when she was about to confess the one thing she felt difficult to give, her love.

Suddenly Chris's phone rang and almost immediately she picked it up the phone and answered it without looking to see who it was first.

"Hello?"

"Hey sis" the calm voice of her sister soothed her confusion slightly despite their argument a few days ago.

"Oh, hi"

"I err, I heard on the news and I was almost scared you went with him so I called"

"No, no erm" Chris paused as she felt herself tearing up, "he left me here" her world came crashing down as she let the tears flow, no matter how much she tried to calm down she only found herself crying harder.

"I'm on my way" was all that Alex said before hanging up.

When Alex entered the quiet house she noticed immediately her sister on her sofa trying to contain the tears, being unsuccessful as they stained her face. Alex strode up and plonked herself next to the sobbing mess before pulling her in a tight bear hug.

"Let it out Chris" she whispered like she did years ago before Alex joined the Saints.

Chris was 9 when she got into her first proper fight at school and out of all the stereotypical groups she had ended up with the geeks, when she saw her friend Stephanie getting picked on by some boys she stepped in without a second thought earning a hard punch, giving her a black eye.

She didn't cry until after school when she stepped into the house with Alex immediately at her side calming her down, Chris had expressed how she was so scared and the shock of getting that black eye.

Of course after treating the eye carefully Alex had gone out the same day, found that kid and beat the shit out of him until he promised to not pick on Chris or any of her geeky friends.

Alex smiled at the memory as she still held her little sister whose sobs had died down a little though she still felt a damp tear patch on her shoulder where she had buried her face in.

"Look at me, I'm a disgrace! Crying over a boy" Chris said as she pulled back and wiped the tears away.

"No no, I did that when I was your age" Chris gave her a hard look, "well I may have been the one to make them cry by breaking their nose but it's still the same thing"

"No its not, here I am crying over boys and the worse you've probably come close to crying is when I dropped your gun into a lake" Alex chuckled at that before growing serious.

"I've balled my eyes out more than you realise" Alex said as Chris looked up at her with questioning eyes, "I've cried when I lost my friend Lin, she drowned in a trunk of a car and I ask myself every time if I could have saved her and you'no what, I'm pretty sure I could have"

By this time Chris had managed to quit the tears and uncontrollable sobs, just listening to the tragedies that happened in her sister's life, the downside of being in the most powerful gang in Stilwater.

"Aisha, she was amazing, loyal friend and she made my best friend Johnny happy, hell he'd smash a guy's head on their glass table and she'd complain about the mess it would make, made him fucking clean it up afterwards, I could have saved her, if I hadn't boiled up the Ronin's blood they wouldn't have touched her, or maybe if I came in through the back door or just charged in and shot him in the head, she died thanks to me, and even though Johnny keeps saying it wasn't my fault I knew it was" Chris put a comforting hand on the gang leaders shoulder before she carried on, "Carlos, he busted me out of prison as soon as I woke up from the coma, he was a sweet boy, young and always having little confidence in himself, always loyal and even if he didn't like a decision he still went with it, he...reminded me a lot of you to be honest, I guess that's why I took to him almost immediately, he got pulled around by the back of a truck and I really tried to rescue him but by the time I got there he...he was in so much pain, I couldn't fucking get him off the chain since there were padlocks tying him to the chains, the only thing I could do was put him out of his misery, if I hadn't done this stunt with Maero he would be still alive and kicking" Chris didn't know who Maero was but she was guessing it was another gang member.

"Johnny, he died not too long ago actually, the most baddest mother fucker I have ever known, he's my best friend, my oldest friend ever since I joined he was there, shit hair cut though" she chuckled when remembering those stupid highlights in his hair he thought was cool, "some say he died because he thought he could do everything, but that's wrong, he died because I thought he could do everything, I should have stuck with him but I abandoned him and...Philip killed him, I'm still finding that hard to believe to be honest" Alex sighed before smiling and looking at Chris.

"And then I thought that you went and died on me, you was the only family that I really took the time to get close too, I mean when you were born I admit, I wasn't that keen on meeting you, but you grew on me and over time I came to realise that you needed me just as much as I needed you, so when you died I…." Alex trailed off, "you have to know that everything I do that you might not agree with is done with your safety in mind"

"I understand Alex, but I'm also growing up, and although I don't want to be separated from you again I would at least like you to treat me independently" Christina explained and smiled when she received a reluctant nod from Alex.

"Alright, I guess I can live with that, also I want to make you a lieutenant"

"A lieutenant? Gee I want to be independent not take charge, plus what would the others think? They obviously earned their way to the top whilst I'm up there because I'm a family member"

"Don't worry ill sort things out, and also you did earn your way to the top I mean look at this place" she gestured to the room they sat in, "any other girl who got lost and lived in a brothel for a few years probably would have stayed there, not earn their way into the city like you did, but there is one flaw however"

"What's that?" Chris asked with a curious look painted on her face.

"Don't go out with a fucking douche like Matt again" Alex chuckled trying to lighten the mood but it just but the depression back on Chris's face.

"I don't care what you think, but he was a good friend, and he always made me laugh, I might not forgive him for abandoning me but I still think he's a great guy" Chris said calmly.

"I guess you're right" Alex sighed. There was a nagging feeling in her head that bugged her, and her insane but accurate thoughts supported that nagging feeling.

'She thinks Matt left her'

'But you made him'

'You monster'

thats IT its over, as i said before it is a small story that was originally meant to be a oneshot, i hope you liked it and depending on how many reviews i get i MAY post a sequel! which will be continuing onto this same story instead of starting a new one cause that would be stupid XD hope you enjoyed this story please REVIEW! thanks ;3 xx