April 15, 2013

God, it hurts.

This pain is inexplicable. Like a mix of pure pain and fire ripping through your body.

I'm in the secret fort. Oh, all of the memories it holds are good. So pleasant, so happy.

I 'm happy I get to die here.

I know I don't have much longer left, so I will tell what happened.

After I had my discussion with Romeo and after he left, I took a walk around the park, and then sat back down on the bench. I had a lot of homework, but I would finish it later. I just wanted to relax in the moment.

Soon, I fell asleep and when I woke up, it was already 8:00!

I got up to go home when I noticed a man running towards me. I tilted my head confused. Then our eyes met.

"GO!" he screamed over and over again. "Get outta here! Now, Escape before he kills you!"

That snapped to my attention. Kills me? What is he talking about? He ran up to me and stood before me gasping.

"Excuse me sir," I had asked. "But are you drunk?"

The man glared at me. "What are you still doing here? Go before he comes and kills the both of us!"

I was still confused until I saw him. The man with a knife.

Running.

Straight.

Towards.

Us.

The man in front of me started freaking out, and he stood in front of me, still yelling at me to get out and call the police.

The strange thing was, I couldn't move my body.

I wasn't scared or anything, quite the opposite. I was calm.

Thoughts of all types ran through my head.

I had wanted to commit suicide all this time, but I never had the courage, so why not use this opportunity?

Another part of me yelled no. Think of Romeo, if I'm really unsure if anyone cares about me, I know that Romeo does.

Wendy also would be very if I died.

Wendy. Oh yes, Romeo told me that she was coming back to Japan in two days. He said he wanted the three of us to all go out to a fancy restaurant and eat delicious food, of course me paying for everything.

That thought allowed me to be able to take a few steps back, but it wasn't enough.

"Go!" yelled the man, and he pushed me back this time. I stumbled and fell, slowly crawling to the entrance of the park.

I expected the man to follow me, but instead he stood strong and faced his enemy.

Oh, I had thought. I wish I was a strong as him.

The man kicked the one with the knife, but that only pushed him back a few feet. Seconds later, he recovered and was running at the man again.

It just happened. I don't remember too well. One moment I was scrambling on the floor, the next, I was standing in front of the man; arms wide open like a human shield.

Time slowed down as the knife plunged its way into my torso. It didn't hurt. Maybe I was overcome by shock, but it didn't hurt at first. After a few seconds of silence, that's when the pain came.

I doubled over and hit the ground like a rock in water. I couldn't scream. Like back at the camp, my voice had left me.

The man with the knife did me the favour of taking it out of my body and dropped it, fleeing in terror of what he had just done.

The other man raced to my side. "Oh god," he whispered. "Are you okay?"

I could've said no.

I could've said, take me to the hospital right away.

But I didn't. Instead, I stood up, faced the man, and bowed, as if I didn't have any injury. I crossed my arm over the wound to let less blood flow and make it look less serious.

"Thank you for trying to defend me." I said. "But don't worry, it's only a scratch, I'll be fine I can go to the hospital myself."

The man offered to accompany me, but I refused. "It isn't that serious a wound," I lied. "You should be heading to the police station to report what happened."

The man looked at me again. "Are you sure?" he asked hesitantly.

I nodded and gave him a gently smile. "I'll be fine."

The man nodded and dashed into the empty streets.

I collapsed, all previous strength leaving me.

With my last effort, I managed to crawl to the secret fort.

Now here I lay, dying within my own pool of blood.

I am not naïve enough to think help is coming. Only Romeo, Wendy and Natsu know about this place .

They say as you're dying, your life flashes before your eyes. Well, it's true. I feel like I'm looking at a slideshow of my life right now.

And I realize something. I don't want to die. And while I don't want to die, another part of me does. I think the other part took control earlier and told the man to go off.

Does that mean I want to die more than I want to live?

Bah, I'm just confusing myself.

Oh dear, I can barely write now, all the feeling in my body is disappearing.

So, I shall end it like this.

Natsu, Mom, Dad, I love all of youfrom the bottom of my heart.

Wendy and Romeo, I wish you both love and happy filled days.

Levy, I hope you and your boyfriend are happy together, and if you breakup, don't worry. There are always more fish in the sea.

I love you all and goodbye,

Lucy

Natsu closed the journal. Tears wouldn't stop falling from his face. It was now April 28. Lucy's body had been found five days after she wrote her last entry. Romeo and Wendy had been the two to find the body when they went searching for her. Both kids are currently undergoing mental treatment.

His father was there. The three of them identified the body as Lucy. The man who stabbed her had been caught and his trial will be in two days.

"Lucy," Natsu whispered, tears falling like streams down his face.

"Lucy,"

"Lucy"

"Lucy"

Lucy.

And that's the end of that. i wrote all of this in one day after I read a manga that was pissing me off about how the main character gets bullied, but isn't depressed and doesn't even realized she's being an idiot.

Not saying being depressed is a good thing, but it does make a story more deep.

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-BrokenWings66