Summary: After a night of passion Gibbs feels guilty moving on loving someone else except Shannon so he asks Tony to forget what happened and move on. Tony leaves DC after that only to return three years later a different man.

Chapter 1

It's been three years. Three years since he left everything and everyone behind. Three years since he last spoke to his family-yeah he exchanged a few emails with Abby over the years but nothing much. Three years since he left the love of his life. But Tony didn't regret it. He would wake up from nightmares over that night and he would cry himself back to sleep but he knew it was for the best. Only two people knew the truth about that night and they were always there for him.

Flashback

Tony didn't go to work that day. He couldn't. he couldn't find the strength to face him so he called in sick. He was in one side of his bed feeling desperated. What would he do now? He was so immersed into thinking that he almost missed his phone ringing. He didn't want to talk to anyone right now but he saw the caller and couldn't find the strength to ignore it. He answered the phone but didn't say anything. Tony? Jimmy asked.

-Yeah… his voice a whisper

-Are you alright? Vance said that you called in sick? Are you feeling ok? Do you want me to come over on you? : Said Jimmy worried.

-No Jimmy I'll be okay. At least I think I'll be… :the last part was barely a whisper but Jimmy heard it.

-Tony what happened? Did something happen with Gibbs?

Tony couldn't take it any more. When he heard his name he started crying so much that he couldn't breathe.

-Tony? Tony are you alright? Tony I'm on my way to your place, ok? I'll be there in a few.

Tony heard Jimmy hang up and he knew that he was on his way there. But Tony couldn't stop sobbing no matter how hard he tried.

Ten minutes later he heard the front door open and close Tony? Jimmy asked. Tony was still in the same position earlier when Jimmy got into his room leaving the door open and kneeled next to him. When Jimmy hung up on him Tony had started crying again. Dinozzo's don't cry heard his father say. He felt pathetic. When a few minutes had passed and Tony calmed down, he looked up and saw Jimmy's concerned eyes. But he wasn't alone. Ducky was right there looking like he wanted to cry. Great. Now he had to tell Ducky.

End of flashback.