Kendall came round still most days, but he didn't mention the night he found my locket he would help me wash and get about the place, sometimes cook me food.

It was nice, there wasn't an atmosphere, it was just my laid back kendall had returned and I felt at ease in his company.

I did try and approach the subject of us a few times but he would suddenly remember something that needed to be done.

Carlos moved back to his own home once my leg had healed and the plaster was off.

I still hobbled about on a crutch sometimes as my foot had some complications, I had to give myself cortisone injections I was going to need a lot of physio before I could walk limp free.

I had just woken up in my normal bedroom for the first time when the door chime rang, I went down the stairs on my bum as it was easier and answered the door to James.

His scent envoked me as soon as the door opened.

It made me swallow hard.

"Hello stranger!" He said with a chirp in his voice.

I hugged him, it was so long since I had seen his face.

"Where have you been?" I scanned his face as I spoke like it was the first time I had seen it.

"I've been busy that's all, I've been helping another band get some spotlight and just generally clearing my head" he sounded like his head was clear, like the driven James I had sat next to on the plane to florida, the James that told me of what he was going to take from life.

He kissed me. His touch felt electric and I wanted more, my head swarmed with thoughts and memories.

I slipped my tongue in his mouth, the kiss was soft and slow.

My heart ached.

James along with his kisses that day brought breakfast, we sat in the kitchen eating and catching up.

He was pleased my face didn't look battered anymore, and spent a few minutes looking at me. checking I was as healthy as I could be.

"...So kendall came to see me last night, he said you looked better and back on two feet almost" James' words almost made me choke.

Kendall had not mentioned James for weeks, so nor had I.

I had no clue as to how there friendship was.

"What did you talk about?" I asked as I drank some Orange juice to clear my near on closed throat.

"The band, the show, the future... you" his voice had turned husky.

"Sheriden, kendall kind of said to me you two are finished, and he said that he knew there was gonna be a day when I finally would talk you in to being with me"

He looked serious as the words left him.

"He sort of gave the impression he was okay with that, he said he knew how much I cared for you, and didn't want the band to collapse because of a mistake he had made"

I looked at James in astonishment at his words.

"So why didn't kendall say any of this to me, he hasnt even mentioned your name for so long" I shook my head at my own calculations of what was being said.

"I guess he just wanted you better?... But I really don't know" James took my hand and I looked at our fingers entwined together.

"It's too soon James, I'm sorry, you know how I feel for you but its just too..."

he cut me off.

"I know... I know that, and I've said it before but for the purpose of here and now I will say it again. I will wait for you. All I ask you to tell me now is if I should... if there's a hope for us...do you think there might be?" Both of his hands were now on mine as he finished talking I looked up, I met his brown eyes looking deep into my blue ones.

I sat in silence for so long before I managed to whisper out, "I do love you"

"Then that's all I needed to hear" he let go with a smile and finished eating his food.

Three months had passed since that chat at my dark wood table in my kitchen with James. we remained close but as yet I hadnt felt ready to start anything romantic with him. my head was still so full of dealing with the loss of the baby. I had stopped talking about it but it consumed my waking thoughts constantly.

I had returned to work, and the boys were in the middle of an arena tour, they had been to England and toured most of the states, finally they were headed back to California and I was going to san Diego that evening to see their show.

The night was amazing, all four boys gave it there all, again I was overwhelmed with pride, they had each worked so hard for the dreams they badly wanted and seeing them out there on that stage it felt to me they had reached there goal.

After the concert I met up with them.

The home for them on the road was in the form of two tour buses, we all met up on the logan and kendall bus.

I hugged Logan, it looked like he had bagged himself a date for the night, a pretty dark haired girl waited shyly for him to finish chatting.

Carlos gave me the biggest squeeze of my life, he looked happier than I had seen him last, hopefully his heartbreak from tammi leaving him had eased slightly, he spent weeks crying over her. I shared a cuddle and smile with kendall, he took both my hands and kissed them then walked away towards dustin to chat.

James was the only one left to greet, he gave me a hug. it started off slightly awkward because of all the pairs of eyes on us.

"Do you mind if we go out somewhere? I don't mind driving your car?" He asked looking sheepish as he remembered the events of the last time I was with him behind the wheel of a car.

"I'll drive" I said as I took his hand. I left the bus with james, I made eye contact with kendall just before I walked out the door. he winked at me and smiled.

James had grabbed a jacket and we walked out to my mercedes, we got in and I started the engine.

I didn't really know where I was headed for, but it was nice to be stuck next to James in the was still buzzing from the show, and full of conversation.

I felt so natural and at ease with drove for miles, away from san diego.

I finally pulled up in a driveway and felt my heart pump hard in my chest.

James laughed as he realised I had parked outside his L.A. home.

"I suppose I should invite you in" he chuckled.

He opened my car door in his true gent self and took me by the hand inside his home, once his door had shut he kissed me.

His warm lips felt electric against my own.

I felt tingles run through every vein in my body.

"I love you sheriden" he said as he pulled away, he sounded breathless.

"I love you too" surprised by the calmness in my own voice.

James took my hand and led me to the west of his home... his bedroom.

He undressed himself then he slowly undressed me.

My heart pounded. after years of wanting James, it all boiled down to this moment.

He pulled me in towards his body, his strong arms enveloped around my waist.

We kissed, his tongue gently caressing my own, he made my insides throb and my heart ache.

His hands moved up and caressed my body, he took in every detail of my breasts, and ran his fingers along my spine.

The connection we had always had was so intense.

He picked me up with my legs around his waist, our naked bodies locked together.

Our kissing was now urgent, faster.

He walked us slowly to the bed still kissing my lips and gently layed me down.

I caressed his defined tanned chest with my hands as his body lay on mine.

My heart felt near on explosive and I knew then just how much I loved James Maslow.

James looked me in the eyes and smiled then he entered me...